A stone overturned in therapy
I see a therapist once a week who helps me deal with guilt and anxiety issues stemming from chronic familial stress. Yesterday she helped me lift a veil that seems so plainly obvious now, yet I couldn't see the forest for the trees.
A coup... Read more
All the Little Things
It's been about a month since I've posted a blog, but I have been very active in my Spark journey during that time. I have had thoughts kicking around for a few days, and wanted to put them down so that I could capture this moment in the changin... Read more
A week of restaurants, and I didn't gain weight!!!
I am so happy - I didn't really believe this was possible for me! I ALWAYS gain weight on vacations. I always spend the week after vacation fighting through at least a 2-4 lb weight gain to get back to where I was before I left. Not this time ... Read more
A Real A-HA! Moment
Like a lot of people who have struggled with their weight for all their lives, I have had a lot of false starts. As a matter of fact, when I re-started Spark in January, I was not gung-ho nor confident nor happy about it. I felt like I was bei... Read more
RESULTS of 2 Week Challenge - THE GYM
First of all - did anyone see the moon last night? Breathtaking!
So, how did I do with my 2 week THE GYM challenge? In an effort to put a stop to my all-or-nothing you didn't do everything 100% so you FAILED mentality, I will simply say: WI... Read more
A Note from my Future Self
Hey you. It's me.
You have not met me yet, but I know you very well. I am you at your goal. You didn't think I existed, did you?! Well, I do - and I am here waiting for you. I have some important things that you need to keep telling yo... Read more
Day 1 of 2 Week Challenge #2 - THE GYM
In my last blog, I explained how my unreasonable expectations caused me to rob myself of feeling proud of my 2 lb weight loss. As it turns out, that 2 lbs was all that I lost during the challenge.
But - it's a loss. I gained something as ... Read more
2 Week Challenge - Managing Expectations
I am 1/2 way through my two week challenge! Well, 1/2 way is actually tomorrow, but I feel like putting this blog together now. It's almost right. :)
I am finding, more and more, that it is so hard to manage one's expectations. I did a ra... Read more
Two Week Challenge!
Stop, start. Stop, start. Stop, start. AHHH!!! It's driving me nuts! For some reason, I am finding it very difficult to "do this" right now, even though I need to and want to "do it".
So, I am coming at it from yet another angle. I am g... Read more
While I am trying to keep myself from obsessing over the thought "if I never left/stopped in the first place, think of how much I could have accomplished", I am back and going strong.
I've been seeing a therapist since Novemberish, and ha... Read more
Why I Don't Enjoy Eating Like I Used To
The purpose of this blog is to remind myself, when I am faced with a tough eating weekend, why I should strive to make the best choices possible and limit my portion sizes.
This has been a tough eating weekend, and it will continue today. I... Read more
September Reflections, and Hello October
My, how fast a month goes by.
My September was a very important month. I had a lot of realizations, and I was right about them. I learned in September what *I* need to do for *my* body to drop weight, and I do truly believe that this is d... Read more
I know that almost all of us have those moments... those times when we just wish we could disappear, and when those times are made worse because of our weight. We all have stories about overhearing someone making fun of our bodies, or whisperin... Read more
Light Bulb Moment
I stepped on the scale this morning, and was glad to see that I had lost the two pounds that I gained over the weekend. After my pity party on Monday night, I took a long, hard look at what I have been eating and drinking - and doing for exerci... Read more
Prepare for full-on whining
I know, it's not productive... I don't care.
I am getting so discouraged. This lifestyle change has really been an emotional roller coaster so far. Excitement, then frustration... then calm resolve, then discouragement, then excitement, aaa... Read more