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Tuesday, March 08, 2011      10 comments

I did survive the meeting with ex and school and that is about all there is to say about it. I was devastated and pain and grief was hard to handle afterwards. The daughter is ok, the pain is about me, that I am powerless and have no saying and ... Read more

Ordeal tomorrow

Sunday, March 06, 2011      10 comments

I have been summoned to my daughters school for a "childcareconference" something the school is obliged to arrange if the child does not seem to develope as expected. I dread the meeting as it includes sitting in the same room as my ex and ... Read more

Trivia perfectionism

Thursday, March 03, 2011      9 comments

I am playing the trivia most days and I have realised that it shows my disease of perfectionism. At the beginning of each month I have the chance of a hundred procent right score for a while. I have never been able to keep that hundred procent c... Read more

High-flying expectations...

Sunday, February 27, 2011      6 comments

After being sensible for a couple of days it´s time to go flying into crazy goals... Yesterday I was at a teaparty – a friend celebrated her 60th birthday by inviting ... Read more

My stroke of serenity

Saturday, February 26, 2011      6 comments

I attended the lunch meeting at AA yesterday. We were 7-10 people and the theme was the daily reflection that spoke about the Challenge through failure: "In God’s economy, nothing is wasted. Through failure, we learn a lesson in humility wh... Read more

Easy way out?

Friday, February 25, 2011      8 comments

This place has been deserted too long, spiderwebs everywhere .. emoticonRead more

Emotions to eat on...

Tuesday, February 08, 2011      8 comments

Found this great book, written by a bulimic that has been in recovery for six years after fifteen years of active bulimi. It is great because she is not black/white, she says clearly that bingeing and vomiting one time a week is healthier thatn ... Read more

Result of shoe-weighing...

Monday, February 07, 2011      8 comments

No, I did not dare to tell my therapist about my shoe-weighing and manipulation to produce a good result without having done a good job... I think I lost about 1,5 kilo on their scale – which is what my shoes and jeans weighed compared to t... Read more


Monday, February 07, 2011      6 comments

I have to admit that I am not always sure that Spark People is to my benefit, I am a compulsive overeater and easily triggers and get obsessed with measuring food and tracking exercise and while this might seem good because during these periods ... Read more

Denial and weighing shoes...

Sunday, February 06, 2011      14 comments

One of my biggest fear is to be in denial – to not see what is obvious to everybody else. The consequence of this trait of character is that I went to AA before anybody had the slightest thought that I had problems with alcohol – my own anxiety ... Read more

Hard decisions

Thursday, January 27, 2011      10 comments

When my dog was put to sleep last june I kenw I could not have a dog for a while since I was starting this new job. After eight months I have gooten the technical support that enables me to work from home so I know that I only have to leave homw... Read more

Thoughts about compulsive overeating

Tuesday, January 25, 2011      11 comments

I went on a telephone OA meeting today – first step and the leader read the text about how we are powerless to food but how we have denied it and tried through selfcontrol to overcome our obsession without success ... I agree although I have no... Read more

The first meal from the grocery project...

Monday, January 24, 2011      5 comments

It was really interesting to carry those two grocerie bags into my kitchen, almost a "chrismassy" feeling to see what they wanted me to eat for the upcoming week. I had - of xourse – seen the menu on the webside I ordered from, but I hadn´t thou... Read more

The scale rules...

Monday, January 24, 2011      8 comments

So I weighed this morning – saturdays eating is still affecting the scale and I feel very low from it. Does weighing motivate me? Not that much but it sure rules my mood. Good numbers on the scale, life is good, bad numbers, I am worthless. ... Read more

No login points...

Sunday, January 23, 2011      8 comments

... to spin the wheel is mostly rather frustrating especially when 500 or 100 points occur, I have never managed to get those... it is mostly 2 or 3. But this day the wheel has refused to move at all and then I start to worry if I am logged in a... Read more

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