Openness, Humility and Accountability
These were three words used by a speaker I listened to this past weekend. A friend of mine invited me to attend a breakfast that was organized by her church. The theme of the meeting was how can a woman be unshakable in times of struggle. T... Read more
Apply pressure were needed
I don't know about everyone else, but I put a lot of pressure on myself. What I find interesting is where I chose to apply that pressure.
Being a success in my household as a child was the way to my father's heart. He was a tough custom... Read more
Where I spend my time...
I have this strange habit of seeing, hearing or feeling something in the present and then connecting it to a bad experience in my past. I once read in a book about self esteem that people with low self esteem do that because they do not value t... Read more
What I am famous for...
Pretending....I am really famous for pretending.
Pretend reminds me of how I occupied my time as a child. This line from a John Mayer song..."I was born in the arms of imaginary friends"...sums up my life as a child...spending time with m... Read more
My humble abode
I moved to Arizona from San Diego 4 1/2 years ago. It has been a major adjustment for me but I am finally starting to call it home. When I moved to AZ I bought what I like to refer to as a "Chabby Chich" mobile type home. It is a perfect home... Read more
The ramblings of an internalizer
I have had a really bad bout of insomnia over the last week or so. At first I was like, everything is fine, why would I be having trouble sleeping? Then I said, really, are you being completely honest with yourself or are you trying to put a ... Read more
Letting it in, letting it out and letting it go...
I was thinking about letting go the other day when I was exercising. I have never been a fan of exercise. I have tried to put every spin on it I can but at the end I just do not like it. When I am doing it however I feel a certain feeling,... Read more
I am 1 today!!!
I have spent several years of my life (since I was about 16 years old) with an extremely dysfunctional relationship with the scale. Most of the time avoiding it, not because I was not sure that I was over weight but because I just could not fa... Read more
Nobody told me there would be days like this....
Strange days indeed...
Yesterday was one of those days indeed.
The company I work for is an industrial real estate company, and has been struggling since the downturn. Things seemed to have somewhat stabilized, or at least I though... Read more
The Great Leap Forward...
That leap to filling the void...
From an anthropological stand point, the Great Leap Forward happened after Homo Sapien appeared. Culture over took evolution and we are where we are today; evolution has come to a halt and the human race is... Read more
I have been pondering the word acceptance for the last few days and what it means to me in my journey towards a more fulfilling life. At the beginning of 2010, I sat down and said enough was enough, it was time to take control of my life and to... Read more
Shoulda, gonna, will....
I am not sure about you but when I am in mid crisis over something I have a hard time seeing the forest for the trees. I can't seem to interpret how my feelings effect how I am going to handle a situation.
Case in point, I have been divo... Read more
"You" aren't going to win....
I said these words to myself last Sunday evening as I was musing over my weekend; did I exercise, nope, did I stay in my calorie range, nope, did I open my books to study, nope. Did I need to do all those things YEP...why didn't I?... I know ... Read more
Happiness in the numbers...
We all get obsessed with the numbers right?!! The numbers on the scale, the number of calories eaten, the number of calories burned, the number on the clothing labels, the number of year lived! It is enough to drive you crazy!
But, I a... Read more
I thought I would summarize my last month or so of my journey, you know, just to get some of my thoughts out in the open...and to take a look at the outcome of the goals I posted on one of my blogs..
1. Stay within in my calorie ra... Read more