Mom's Can't Get Sick...They Just CAN'T
Lets face it, moms just can't get sick. THEY CAN'T. Nobody can step in and take over their duties AND get it done the way they would (at least not if they are a Type A mom, such as myself). And when dad is gone getting sick is all the more de... Read more
A New Day
There are days, when I just seem to fail in all areas. I am sure we all have them, or at least all of us Type As:) For me, it is very hard to see my successes, but my failures seem to light up and flash with a neon sign. Yesterday, I yelled a... Read more
An open door
Today I realized I was becoming someone I didn't really like. Funny thing is the reason I am becoming that person is because I don't like myself very much right now. Depression is so strange. It caught me off guard again and is tearing me apa... Read more
Sharing our struggle...or are we?
Got an email from my deployed husband today. He wanted to tell me about the supplement he bought and his plan to GAIN 24 lb before he comes home. Yes, you heard me right. Or rather, read me right. Its always been that way. While I struggle ... Read more
My Boot Straps are Broken...
So I was thinking today, "a dangerous pastime I know (Beauty and the Beast)." Having a nurse in me is not such a good thing. Or rather, having a nurse in me is a good this if I didn't have the Type A "I got this on my one" personality in me. ... Read more
Mirror, mirror, how I loathe the. I feel I am always in a battle with you. That woman with the bags under her eyes; the rolls around her waist; the cellulite; the woman who looks so old...that isn't me. It can't be me. I don't FEEL that way.... Read more
It's cold out again today. Ok, maybe not COLD but it is Okinawa cold. Being from North Dakota I never thought 50 degrees in January would feel cold, but the wind and the rain sure have a bite after going through an entire summer where each day... Read more
Time for an update. I got a Wii Fit. Not exactly what I was anticipating, but maybe I just need to get some games. I did the tests, entered my data, GOT WEIGHED, and boy oh boy did Marissa laugh when they displayed my Mii. "Mommy, you are so... Read more
Success is a funny thing. Yesterday, after putting my jeans on and finding them looser, I felt so stinkin successful. I was walking on air. Admittedly, they are still FARRR to big, but it felt good to know I was getting smaller (I decided it ... Read more
Here comes the rain
I really thought I had it beat this time. The first babies, the postpartum depression hit fast. The second time so hard I really did think I was going to lose my mind (or had already). These were some of the darkest days of my life, mostly be... Read more
I could give up...
I could give up. It would be so much easier. I could just decide that my health is doomed. Both sides of my family are inundated with high blood pressure, heart disease, cancer, high cholesterol. Since these are at least partially familial, ... Read more
Hate is a strong word
Hate is a strong word. I don't use it often. But, I hate being fat. The word in itself disgusts me. It disgusts me even more the effort we make to avoid the word. Overweight, obese, bariatric...just call it what it is. I am fat. Why I gai... Read more