I've been telling myself I'm "too busy" to take the time to exercise, eat right, clean the apartment, or sleep well. But that's not true. I just create a mind and space of chaos, which leads to crashing out and wasting time with self-destructive... Read more
I need to remember that my goal isn't just to survive freshman year, it's to learn to thrive as an independent adult - caring for my body, loving the people around me, excelling in my work, but most of all, glorifying and enjoying God.
So ... Read more
Hey, beauties! Glad to be back to Sparking. College has been a rush. In the past three weeks, I read hundreds of pages (completing at least five books and reading huge chunks of others), ate way too much sugar, went to marvelous parties (the kin... Read more
Oh, I love my spark friends. You guys have made me stick to this longer than I've ever stuck to one plan. This plan is real, and you have helped me feel that. It's messy and slow and challenging, but it's worth it. You have inspired me, encourag... Read more
The Magical Restart Button
Today, I almost gave up. I had my going away party today and ate sausage, coleslaw, potato salad, chips, crackers, deviled eggs, smatterings of fattening food that added up to an uncomfortable bulge in my stomach. I started talking myself into a... Read more
I had my weigh in this morning: 154 lbs. I lost one pound this week!
I always thought to lose weight, I had to struggle to maintain Perfect until I broke. But this week, I've eaten up and down. I've been off sugar, but there are plenty of... Read more
Calories and Cookies
I'm stuck on that ever-popular "Well, I've already eaten a cookie, I might as well swallow the box." When I make a mistake, I want to throw in the towel until tomorrow. If I can't be perfect, I'd rather be miserable.
As I fight that attit... Read more
It's day four of my sweets & tea fast, and my withdrawal headache has finally evaporated. I didn't binge or purge yesterday. I didn't oversnack. And I didn't get a chance to officially exercise, but I don't have a car, so I walk six to ten miles... Read more
Renewing the Spark: Goals
- Track food intake three days this week. No more, no less.
- Get moving! Aim for at least four half-hour sessions of movement. Running, dancing, wii fit, anything.
- Restart morning pages (writing three pages of junk every morning).
- L... Read more
When I found out I lost two pounds, I walked from the scale into the kitchen and binged.
WHAT? I'd been stubbornly scrubbing off old skins, but my disorder has come flinging back these past weeks, sticking to my elbows. I'm alternately ove... Read more
Planting First Thoughts
A gargantuan hill mounts before me, a monster of sidewalk and height. Yes, one mile up, steep enough to land you on your back. It's 85 degrees, I have sweat running down my calves, and at the moment, I hate running. But my first thought as I fac... Read more
Tackling the Crazies
Since graduation, my life has been tripping and twirling. This summer I'm teaching an art class, teaching a writing class, teaching piano, lifeguarding at a pool, babysitting, and mother's helpering (I take her kids to swimming lessons, wash dis... Read more
My life's gone mad, but I wanted to throw in a quick update: my 5k went wonderfully. I kept repeating to myself, "Upright and smiling" (thanks, Monica!). I realized what a delightful community the racing crowd is - I got high-fives and cheers, a... Read more
My first 5k was miserable. I had only been running for a week with the cross country team and had yet to successfully complete even one mile. I spent the ten minutes before the race started trying to find my coach to ask, "Should really try to d... Read more