Looking to others for validation
Today a pretty obvious theme of my adult life was pointed out to me - obvious yet I seem to be oblivious. I look for validation for almost every decision I make and I look for it in other people. My most frequent source of advice is my mother - ... Read more
Time for thinking
Well, it's been some 12 days of this virus and I'm definitely still not 100% better but it's a lot of progress in the past couple days. Still having some coughing, some wheezing, and some congestion - but it's getting better slowly but surely.
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Sitting on my sick-couch and thinking
Been sick for 8 days now. Started as a sore throat, aches, then sinus congestion, now cough. Triggering my asthma too. Had to postpone my midterm, cancel 3 clinical shifts, haven't made it to the gym for sure, and just generally frustrated!
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My stress is kinda WAY over the top right now. I've gotta find ways to keep it under better control. I may feel like I am but my body is starting to yell at me again and giving me signals it's not in a good mood! So i took a vacation day just be... Read more
For every path we take there's going to be twists, turns, and roadblocks...
It had officially been about a month of my intensive diet plan. Basically, in a nutshell, it's a power smoothie to replace one meal per day (usually an on-the-go meal, either breakfast before early work or dinner before early clinicals), then th... Read more
This is a way of life
Every change I've made over the past 4 weeks has paid off and paid off big time!! I have lost about 10lbs, I feel amazing, I get good solid sleep at night, my anxiety has diminished greatly, and frankly - I'm just proud of myself.
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Exercise instead of meds?!?
So I saw a new therapist today - she's more of a counselor/life coach style professional. I loved her attitude and I hope and pray she can help me sort through all the "stuff" I have in my head. But what I wanted to share were these two things:
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A year has passed
I find it very interesting my last blog was about 1 year ago. I talked about my raw emotions, my desires to change, my mind/body/spirit, etc. Well, fast-forward a year and this time, well I think I really get it!
I am allergic to tree nuts, se... Read more
The other night I sat with my best girlfriend. It was pretty late, I was tired, and when this happens - I often let my guard down. She knew I'd been a bit off and she kinda tried to get it out of me - - well, I think she got more than she bargai... Read more
A Year of Growth
I think back to last summer - I was in the best shape I'd been in years and at my lowest weight. I was in a relationship, I was "looking" good but not "feeling" good. My life wasn't what I wanted and it needed to change. This was my jump-start i... Read more
Last night I spent nearly 5 hours on the phone with a friend from work. She and I have known each other for 4 years - but suddenly, in the last month or so, we've become very close. It's like we've known each other forever and we're completely c... Read more
Could've given up - but I'm back for more!
Hello Sparkpeople! Been too long and I feel the loss of not being on here, diligent about tracking and keeping myself in check (the button on my jeans feels the stress too!) But it's been rough - that's for sure! It's hard to take care of yourse... Read more
One year ago I was at my thinnest in years. I looked amazing quite frankly. I was also just recovering from mono. My life was a lot different. I was in a relationship, my family was perfect, my apartment gave me independence, my work was fulfill... Read more
Currently I'm beyond frustrated so I've decided to write a blog to get it out of my system.
I had a sore throat for 6 days and finally on Monday I had a doc at work look and he said strep, no question. Not surprising since it seems to be t... Read more
The ordeals just keep on coming - just doesn't seem fair some days. I'm having a very hard time with my right knee. Started hurting about a month ago and it's gotten progressively worse in the past week. I can barely walk let alone do any sort o... Read more