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I was judged today

Thursday, April 03, 2014      3 comments

March was a very hectic month for me, what with the move from California to Tennessee, med changes (complete with adverse side effects), final doctor visits, visits with family before the move, and getting settled in. I didn't stay the path, an... Read more

Happy New Year, I hope

Wednesday, January 01, 2014      0 comments

I went overboard in the last 2 weeks: eating all the time and not logging everything I eat. I know why. And I know that it was MY choice to say yea or nay. I didn't do it. I am having issues with some anger and resentment and also a fair a... Read more

This Christmas is different

Saturday, December 28, 2013      1 comments

The holidays are almost over and surprisingly, I haven't shown a gain. I say surprisingly because I have been eating my emotions. I live with someone who doesn't celebrate Christmas, and for me, that is somewhat depressing. And since my siste... Read more

Merry Christmas to ME!

Tuesday, December 10, 2013      1 comments

I am still on my journey, still exercising, and still losing weight. In the last week or so, I have been noticing that I have been binge eating. And I noticed that I did it most often when I was letting myself get caught up in a negative head-... Read more

Today is a good day.

Monday, October 28, 2013      1 comments

After 36 days, I am still logging what I eat. This deserves a celebration. I am officially at the 4 month mark for consistency in my exercising, and I have lost 12.8 pounds, which is 5% of my body weight. I am finding ways to sneak in more wa... Read more


Saturday, October 05, 2013      1 comments

I think about the people I love and care about and how (un)healthy they are and I look in the mirror and I see my unhealthiness and I think that is my lot in life. I so don't want it to be, but I focus on it so much that there is no alternative... Read more


Monday, September 30, 2013      0 comments

I can't even count the times I have started a "diet", only to give up after 2-3 weeks. Occasionally, I would make it to a 20 pound decrease. Then I would quit. I guess I just wasn't ready to really make the change. I had the 'all-or-nothing'... Read more


Wednesday, September 25, 2013      0 comments

I am feeling good today. I had a doctor appointment yesterday, so I wan't able to exercise. On a good note, all my labs and tests were normal, so I am in good health. I am working right now on tracking EVERYTHING that I put in my mouth... Read more

This time..

Friday, September 20, 2013      3 comments

This time is different. This time, I am going by how I feel. This time, I am tracking ALL that I eat, without dreading it. This time, it feels right. This time, it is an adventure. This time, I feel that I can do this. This time, it is abo... Read more

Once again, with Feeling

Monday, September 16, 2013      0 comments

I have slipped again. I quit after a few days, because it was too 'difficult' to measure/track my food. It is easier to continue as I have been and not focus on me, because that is selfish, and am not worth it, anyway. I know what I should we... Read more

Where am I?

Saturday, February 23, 2013      0 comments

I keep making resolutions about loosing the extra weight I am carrying around, and I usually give up after a month or so because it is 'too much trouble to log my food and measure it." And I beat myself up afterwards and think that I can't stic... Read more

Life requires me to show up.

Saturday, January 26, 2013      1 comments

I got on the scale today and I am at 235. I thought about my habits and my life, and I realized that my health is more important than a number. I can't keep going through my life being numb. It leads to mediocrity. If I keep waiting for the ... Read more

Compassion and Awareness

Thursday, December 20, 2012      1 comments

I read an article today on self-compassion, and it really struck a nerve with me. I got to thinking about it, and I am SO hard on myself, "Comparing my every day life to XXX's highlight reel.", among other things. I am so quick to compare me t... Read more

I am so tired of being a yo-yo

Monday, December 17, 2012      1 comments

I joined SparkPeople earlier this year because I wanted to be fit and to lose weight. And I quit. I seem to be good at doing that. I get motivated and do well for a month or so, then I give up. I can usually find someone or something to poin... Read more

My 30-Day Challenge

Tuesday, March 27, 2012      3 comments

Through most of my life, I have tended to float by, not making waves or statements. I have hid in the corner trying to be invisible and 'going with the flow'. I haven't made a real commitment to anything. SO, for the month of April, I am comm... Read more

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