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Progress in discerning what is right for me.
Monday, March 12, 2018      5 comments

So, I joined up with a group and asked a woman to mentor me. She gave me tons of things to do to address food/diet, thoughts/feelings and actions. This was all to help me grow and learn new ways of coping without using too much food, or certai... Read more
Friday, March 09, 2018      6 comments

Dec 15 2017 I decided to make a change for good...for real...for life. I knew it meant I was gonna have to change my relationship with food, my habits, thoughts, feelings, beliefs about food and life in general; about my worth, value and place ... Read more
Friday, January 26, 2018      1 comments

I am in with both feet. I track everything I eat. I track the exercise I do. I track my daily goals for positive actions to support positive change. And I spend time each day meditating and doing my best to visualize and feel how I live my l... Read more
Mom Died
Monday, January 15, 2018      2 comments

I have used food very much like an alcoholic uses alcohol, to numb feelings, to distract from life, to celebrate, to separate, to punish myself, to hide, to cover pain. I have grappled with this problem on a physical, spiritual and psycho... Read more
Change in Routine does not have to be an excuse
Saturday, May 18, 2013      4 comments

Today is a cardio day. I like to do cardio at the gym since they have exercise bikes and treadmills with handles I can hold on to. BUT, my local YMCA is being renovated and the glue smells have burnt my throat! So, how am I going to get in my... Read more
EMDR as insurance
Friday, May 17, 2013      2 comments

There is research that suggests that there are certain spots during weight loss for the morbidly obese that may be easily sabotaged. Generally those spots are at the weight when something difficult may have happened, according to what I have re... Read more
2 days in a row at the gym!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013      3 comments

WOW...2 days in a row at the gym...I actually have a workout schedule and I am committed to it.... Read more
I went out as if I were a thin person!
Sunday, May 12, 2013      4 comments

I went to a music venue and stood all night! I even moved around a little in slight dancing! I moved about within the crowd and did not feel completely conspicuous and ashamed due to my size! Yes, my body hurt with all the standing, ... Read more
It's an inside job
Wednesday, May 08, 2013      3 comments

The power of the mind is phenomenal! I have been envisioning myself as a slim, strong, healthy woman. I can see what I am wearing and how I feel emotionally. These are powerful exercises and helped me double my time on the stationary bike tod... Read more
Telling the truth is a fat buster
Tuesday, May 08, 2012      3 comments

I met with my trainer today who asked me about my food over the weekend. I was dishonest through omission. I got home and decided I had to tell him right away. Just admitting that I was dishonest and ashamed about what I ate induced a lot of ... Read more
All or nothing thinking is on the way out
Monday, May 07, 2012      2 comments

I have been pretty hungry the last week as I have worked out quite a bit and also eaten differently, cutting down on dairy and grains. I intended to cut them out completely, but found myself tired, sore and lethargic. I learned long ago to not... Read more
Emotional Eating
Sunday, May 06, 2012      4 comments

Feeling frustrated and this blog is my attempt to change how harshly I can judge myself, which simply leads to a set up to eat more food than I need and reinforcing the idea that I can't succeed at my goals. I CAN SUCCEED with my goals. I want... Read more
Wow, this works!
Friday, May 04, 2012      3 comments

Well, I am amazed one more time. I have been working slowly with the trainer, who has resisted all my attempts to move along more quickly. That means that I am developing patience and a lifestyle! Each week I set goals for behavioral changes ... Read more
Thursday, April 26, 2012      2 comments

Sometimes I am scared when I get a glimpse of how entrenched my old beliefs are regarding food, body, weight, and what my chances are. I would guess that I tell myself on some level many times each day that I CANNOT do it! And I am not even aw... Read more
Thankful Thursday
Thursday, April 19, 2012      1 comments

One thing I can say is that I am a persistent cuss. My trainer told me today that I am human, which means I can do anything any other human being can do and so I get to remove "I can't" from my vocabulary when it comes to managing my health and... Read more

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