Will this ever end....
Sometimes I wonder about all the things going on in the world today and I think, "Will this ever end?" I know God has it covered, but our world, and our nation, has become so different than what I ever expected. I NEVER thought I'd see things ... Read more
One year ago today.....
I can't believe it's been a year since our Laura lost her battle with cancer. A year. Not so long ago and yet it seems a lifetime ago since I've heard her voice or seen her smile. My son and granddaughter have held up very well, and I'm so prou... Read more
I hate negative comments. They depress you and bring you down. Just once, I would like to hear positive anything. Is that possible with some people? I don't think so. BUT, I refuse to let it get me down.
When I said that I was going to... Read more
Before anything changes....
Before anything changes to "normal", I wanted to say that today has been an awesome day for me. I really don't know what happened, if anything, but absolutely everything has been perfect since I got out of bed.
Maybe it was/is the cool we... Read more
Osiyo nigada (Hello everyone),
I am in trouble. I am depressed. I am feeling sorry for myself. I am on so much medication. I can't control my appetite. I can't control my tears. Sound familiar? It hit me in the face like a two by fo... Read more
I just can't stop crying....
When does the pain get better? For my precious son, my granddaughter, our family? If only I could take my son's pain and heartache away, but I can't. I can't even be there with him. I miss him so much, but I also worry about him. Today was ... Read more
Another setback for Laura....
I'm so sorry for not blogging sooner, but I have been so upset, confused, hurt, worried, and busy with my Mom and health problems that I simply have not had time. I just wish I had better news to write.
Our Laura was doing so good, but has... Read more
God gave us a miracle!!!!!
First of all, how can I thank all my SparkPeople Friends enough for their prayers, support, thoughts, and encouragement! I will never forget any of you. Even at my lowest, you gave me hope. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Now to t... Read more
Things have gotten much worse. Laura is bleeding from her tubes and part of her intestines that were extracted have now gone back inside. That tissue appears to be necrotic. She needs surgery, but they cannot operate as she would not survive. Th... Read more
So worried....so tired....
Today has been a mixture of emotions. I talked to my DIL and things are worse than they had told us. The doctor had told them that "this is the end" even though she will still have surgery on the 21st. There is nothing more they can do for he... Read more
When your children hurt.....
Eleven months ago, my DIL was diagnosed with Stage 4 Uterine Sarcoma and the doctors gave her six months to live. Well, it's been eleven, and I give that time to the Lord and her resolve. She's had an operation, chemo, and a lot of prayers sin... Read more
Here "I" go again....
Since Daddy passed away and Mama has moved in with us, I've gained 14 pounds, been and am miserable, feel terrible, and I'm depressed!! Anything else you want to know??? HAHA I'm starting the New Year off with a new commitment to not only mys... Read more
A new beginning...
I have decided to let the past go and get on with my life. I cannot survive if I continue to dwell on the things that I cannot change, and it's time to let go. With the help of the Lord, I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. AME... Read more
Rest in peace, Daddy.
Daddy went home to be with the Lord today. We will miss him so very much, but I'm so happy for him. He's finally able to walk again with no pain! Praise God!!
August 19, 2009... Read more