That is what I wrote in a journal entry 20 years ago as I stepped off the train in Madrid. I was about the same weight as now, but now I feel better about myself. However, I catch those same tapes playing in my mind.
How do I shut them up... Read more
I was reading a post earlier about when friends and family try and get you to eat and/or drink thing you don't want to. Some people replied that they are not really your friends. Some said to do what you know is right and maybe you will inspir... Read more
About 18 years ago I bought a dress. It was a great price but didn't fit, my boobs were too big.
About 15 years ago I had a breast reduction. It didn't fit, the rest of me was too big.
And so it has hung around, following me from m... Read more
More than 2 years ago I was reading a self help book that suggested naming ones fat. I thought long and hard and came up with what I thought was an enlighted name. I now with to change that name.
From here on out, my fat shall be named: ... Read more
So I was thinking i would buy two new pairs of pants for work. One in the size I am entering and one in the size lower. I was going to go to Lane Bryant or Avenue, try on the size I am now so I could make sure they fit the way I want. Then it... Read more
Had a bad day today. I spent it procrastinaing a job I had to do. As a result, I kept my child home from school, barely ate, yelled at my daughter and was all around grumpy. In the end the job was just as yucking and hard and frustrating as I... Read more
Since my husband, then boyfriend moved in 10 years ago I have not been alone in my home. Now, he is gone for many weeks and, due to my work, my youngest is having a sleep over. So tonight it will be just me. I work the next morning so I can't... Read more
The other day I was making boxed mac and cheese for my youngest. I don't like the stuff, yet I put the spoon in my mouth! I sat there for a moment horrified at what I had done. Not only is it not on my program, but it is gluten. Organic or n... Read more
I am so happy I accomplished everything today. It was close. Hard day and running out of time. Using the three fruits in a dessert. recipes.sparkpeople.com/ recipe-detail.asp?recipe=3 19453
It sounds great! Time to... Read more