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We Are What We Speak & Eat

Tuesday, August 14, 2012      3 comments

When I hear people use the words "bad", "good", "cheat day" and "love" in relation to food it makes me inwardly cringe and I wobble between sadness and frustration. Food is like most other man made things, it has a neutral intrinsic value. It i... Read more

Just because I make mistakes doesn't mean I am one

Thursday, August 09, 2012      5 comments

Someone recently told me that for overeaters, you have to work the steps on die. But it wasn't until recently that I could admit that I wasn't sure if I wanted to live. Which, in a sad and strange way is progress because for a long time I really... Read more

Feeling Lost

Wednesday, August 08, 2012      7 comments

I guess I'm stuggling to understand the point of my life. What's the purpose of my existance because I certainly don't feel like I've accomplished much or made a difference. Why do a job that bores me, buy things that really don't mean anything ... Read more

Day 1 of abstinence

Sunday, August 05, 2012      2 comments

I define my abstinence as no binging or purging, no mindless consumption (clean plate syndrome, eating in front of the computer, eating out of the package/container, peer pressure eating) and no candy, pop or dairy. I will use weekly meal planni... Read more

I am a food addict

Saturday, August 04, 2012      13 comments

I am in the throws of withdrawal and it hurts physically and mentally. My cravings and desire for the loneliness, hurt and fear to go away is so deep that it hurts and brings me to tears. Nights and weekends are the hardest because there is no o... Read more

If you find my motivation please send it back!

Thursday, June 09, 2011      8 comments

It's official - I've completely gotten off track and right now I'm so frustrated and irritated that I'm ready to give up. After hurting my hip, I haven't been able to run or even walk fast for almost two weeks. Then, my birthday was last weekend... Read more

Setback #1

Friday, May 27, 2011      0 comments

I've suffered my first injury and I'm mad! It's too early in the process to get hurt but here I am with icy hot on my hip, my leg propped up and alternating between sulking and worrying. I'm worried that I'll use this as an excuse to start slack... Read more

I Like Exercise - Wait! Did I Just Admit That Out Loud?!

Saturday, May 21, 2011      1 comments

Maybe "liking" exercise is a bit strong at the moment. But I LOVE the feeling of accomplishment and completion when I'm done working out. I've made noticeable progress in the last month. I went from refusing to run (out of embarrassment) to drea... Read more

Watch Out - Fat Black Girl Running!

Thursday, April 28, 2011      8 comments

I want to run. I want to abandon the stillness of my day and create blurs of motion in the peripheral vision of others. With every raspy inhalation I can create my future and my problems, pain and pounds are washed away with the sweat that glist... Read more

Eating Healthy Never Felt So Good!

Friday, April 22, 2011      1 comments

I think I'm finally starting to "get it". It's not about a diet, adhering to any rigid ideology, following the most recent trend or eating boring salads. It's about eating food that's good for me, the earth, my community and still tastes good (y... Read more

The Things I've Learned So Far

Monday, April 11, 2011      2 comments

Even though I've only been on this journey for better health and fitness a short while I've already learned a few things that are either in contradiction to most fitness shows/articles/gurus or simply don't get emphasized enough. 1. Do the... Read more

Doing the Math

Thursday, April 07, 2011      1 comments

With the possibility of having more free time on my hands to exercise (due to the government shutdown), this would be a good time to renew my commitment to myself, my goals and my future by kicking my workouts up a notch. Whether I'm off work fo... Read more

Tootin' The Horn For Weight Loss

Tuesday, April 05, 2011      2 comments

I expected my body to go through changes as I change my diet and exercise more. What I didn't expect was the amount of gas! I am soooooooo glad I live alone otherwise I would suspect that any mate that I had might start to prefer me overweight b... Read more

Removing Words from my Vocabulary

Saturday, April 02, 2011      7 comments

Words are powerful even when the conversation is internal. As I was laying in bed this morning I was having a conversation with myself about how I was fustrated with my "two steps forward, one step back" progress. I started to berate myself for ... Read more

I am feeling good!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011      5 comments

Today I did 40 minutes of cardio! Not a big thing for most people that are trying to lose weight but I rarely do it, focusing on lifting weights. But I made it a goal that I would do at least 30 minutes of cardio 3 times this week and I am going... Read more


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