Of difficult things :(
I finally got phone service and can post now. My family and I had to move out of our house immediately. We stay in a trailer just down from our house.
But as most things go, there is also bad news. We were told today that it is more than likel... Read more
Today's stuff 11/26
Date: SUNDAY November 26, 2006
Today’s weather…Oh so sunny, but cold
Today’s News…Not sure that I remember anything
Today I feel…encouraged, because of the baby Dedication for Darius
I am grateful for…My family
P... Read more
Of things remembered
The past few days have been so emotional. My son's estate, was finally settled last week and it was something that I have felt hurt because of it. I mean I would rather have my son RILEY instead of money, and why oh why does the court make us fe... Read more
Quicky things for today
DAY Thursday DATE November 16, 2006
Today’s weather…Sunny, mild/warm
Today’s News…Tsunami, hit parts of California, 6ft wave
Today’s Events…My last class for ECI 330
Today I feel…Some stress, for no... Read more
All this week many random memories of my son keep flooding my thoughts. It's a good thing but last night, the reality that he is not here hurt so bad that I cried all the way home from class. I miss my son, my RILEY.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS, BABY BO... Read more
I am starting back to my routine of exercising as I had missed 6 days in a row and am feeling kinda swollen. I guess all that stress, anxiety, anticipation is gone now and I can begin again.
My emotions are so jumbled though, and I am doing my... Read more
Meet my grandson
Please meet my grandson, Darius
Born, Wednesday November 1, 2006 at 11:06pm
Weighing 8 lbs 4 oz and 19" long
You can see him on my Photo Gallery
It has been a Blessed week and I thank... Read more
WHY GOD WHY?
Today is again one of those hard times. I miss my baby so very very much, that my whole being hurts. I want him home, but yet to think that would mean taking him away from something good and that thought hurts even worse. WHY GOD, does it have t... Read more
This past few days have been the roughest for me, in my grieving. It seems that there were things, sounds, sights, words that just brought back memories that were painful. I mean I love my son, but for me to remember all the hard times (illness ... Read more
Well, I guess this is it....I will now go on a more stricter way of eating.
At today's weighin I have gained 1.25 pounds, putting me be back to where I started.
Also my blood sugars have started to go back up. I thought I was making progre... Read more
I've had a very stressful week, but I did my best to stay mindful of what I am eating. I have noticed that I did have more dairy items but not enough vegetables. Fruit and protein were ok, but my breads could have been less. I guess we'll see ho... Read more
33 WEEKS IN HEAVEN
Today is 33 weeks since my baby went to Heaven. I can only imagine the things he sees, but I know in my heart he is with his grandmas and our LORD JESUS CHRIST.
Each night I go to bed I am one day closer to being with him.
I had a very r... Read more
For the past two days, I have not gone to class. I feel like I need to be with my family, as I have been having break downs of crying. Since my ex-brother inlaw passed away my thoughts were of my son RILEY, and all the pain, regrets, whys all hi... Read more
My TOPS weigh in
What up with that? I gained a pound, even after 6 days of exercise.
Anyway I'm getting annoyed with this up, down, up cycle, but I will be patient and keep on with what I need to.
One thing good, is that my blood sugars are going down. Not a... Read more
How much more GOD?
This morning my sisters ex-husband passed away. They have three children together, they are Johnny(14), Zayna(13), and Mariah(9). I feel so very badly for them and I know GOD is not hurting us intentionally but still it hurts.
When I got to h... Read more