I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF --
Today I overate my calorie allotment by 100 calories. OK, this isn't huge, I know. But what was huge was I caught myself saying (inside my head) that I couldn't help myself. Wow, where did that come from? Of course I could help myself. I al... Read more
What am I Feeding?
As I watched Ruby be interviewed on Oprah yesterday (repeat) I thought about the question that Oprah asked her. What are you feeding? Since I have been heavy ever since I was a child I often thought about what it was might have caused me to ov... Read more
FEELINGS AND FEELING THEM
Generally I consider myself a really positive person. I usually try to see the bright side of a situation or the lessons I can learn from a difficult situation. But yesterday I was just feeling really angry, resentful, negative and full rage.... Read more
IMPROVING DAILY - A MOMENT BY MOMENT JOURNEY
Back almost 3 years ago I joined Spark and set off on a journey that I didn't even really kn... Read more
I HATE HAVING MY PICTURE TAKEN
Of course I hate having my picture taken. I don't like how much I have let myself go. As much as I would like to say that I love me just as I am now, I know in my heart t... Read more
I can't believe a whole month has passed!!!!
When last I wrote, on July 28th, life was hectic, and I felt like I was in control. I guess that was just a test for things to come.
My Dad has been in and out of the hospital 3 times this month. Thank goodness he is doing ok now, but it h... Read more
Feeling Great, Exercising, and Eating Good
I know I am really strapped for time right now but just wanted a short update. I have been getting up early every morning and doing 1/2 workout before work. I have been planning healthy meals and eating a lot of veggies and drinking a lot of w... Read more
I AM OUT HERE TAKING CARE OF MYSELF
I have been working out, eating healthy, resting, and working long hours at work. So the only place that I have to give up time is here on the blogging.
Just checking in to say hi and thanks for the good wishes. I am hanging in here.... Read more
JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS DOING OK, WHAM
So on Monday at work I had chest pains. They came on fast and furious and I was terrified. Do I call 911 sitting alone in the office? Or do I just let someone walk in and find me slump on the floor dead?
I called the ambulance. 2 days ... Read more
WHAT TO DO WHEN LIFE FEELS OVERWHELMING
Lately I have felt that my life is running out of control. It feels like I have to push 24 hours of things that have to get done into 6 hours and I just can't keep up with the pace. So tonight I just sad down and grabbed the laptop and logged ... Read more
GOT UP EARLY TO EXERCISE, AND HERE I AM
I woke up really early this morning, I think I can't sleep because of the emotional roller coaster, so I thought, well, I will just exercise instead. And here I am posting and catching up on Spark friends. I guess I am feeling the need to reco... Read more
I have had a couple of days of emotional eating. Yesterday I stopped charting my food intake in the evening and I felt like I had just given up again. This morning I got up with the full intention of staying only with healthy foods and w... Read more
ANOTHER STRESSFUL DAY
Yesterday I had to put my 87 year old father in the hospital. He has pneumonia and congestive heart failure. He is so scared and in so much pain that it is difficult to see him like this.
So anyway, I haven't disappeared and I am sticking... Read more
JUST BLOGGING WHAT I FEEL
Today I am feeling really calm inside. It feels good and I know it is a place that I have been before. Whenever I feel like I am in control of the food I put in my mou... Read more
IN KEEPING WITH MY POSITIVE ATTITUDE
This morning I woke up early, jumped out of bed and rushed to get my workout minutes achieved. Now this is the typical modus operandi for me. I get really hyped up, jump on the bandwagon and achieve achieve achieve..... until, of course, I fal... Read more
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