I don't even know where to start, other than this is like the millionth time I have had to start over and I come back worse and worse each time! If I'm tired of starting over then why do I quit quitting? I guess I'll never know until I quit quit... Read more
Another 2015 post for your feed :)
Here I am, in the place I always reside at the beginning of the year. Bloated, over weight, and feeling ready and willing to make this year MY year... Finally.
I actually really like the idea of resolutions. I like the idea of committing to so... Read more
I finally registered for my first 5k!!!
I have been training for a 5k since about 2010. I downloaded the Couch to 5k app and have done it off and on for almost 5 years. I always told myself “I will just complete the program and THEN register for a 5k…” Well, I have never run a 5k, so ... Read more
My ever so humble return to Sparkpeople...
It has been a year, almost to the day, that I rejoined Sparkpeople last year and started being successful in my weight loss. I lost about 30 pounds and then proceeded to gain and re-lose the same 15 pounds over and over.
Then all of the sud... Read more
The Big Girl Anthem
There is a point in every fat girls life where she sees a picture or something of herself and it changes everything. You always know you're big and you continue to get bigger, but it's not so bad, you're no SO big, though you find yourself notic... Read more
Very Proud of Myself.
I've been getting up at 0430 every morning lately in order to do homework and exercise. Yesterday, I was supposed to start C25K (again...) and it's been over a month since I've even done W1D1. I did not get to run in the morning and I played tha... Read more
Checking in, I'm still alive.
I just want to check in with you guys, apologize for not being present, and explain what's been going on.
I realized that my problem with food was much deeper than I'm just overeating, gaining weight, and struggling to lose it. I was liter... Read more
Lately, I have been out of control. I have some good days and some bad days, but those bad days are showing me that this problem is bigger than me...
I don't want to get into too many details, but things just aren't going well in a big way.... Read more
A cry for help...
I need some help. I am really still struggling with binging almost every day. I will make it through most of the day just fine, then I get home and it's like everything goes down the drain and I binge all night until I go to sleep.
So I ha... Read more
If at first you don't succeed, try try again.
So after my post on Tuesday, I still didn't really get into a good swing. I would even feel free to say I spent the rest of that week and weekend binging and not exercising at all. I don't know what is mentally going on. *sigh*
Work has bee... Read more
Honesty is the best policy...
I had another epic back slide which ended up amounting in like 11 pounds gained back. I have no idea what is going on with me, I've just lost all motivation to try to eat right or exercise. Yesterday, after I got on the scale and saw the final d... Read more
I'm still here...
I don't know why, but I have been laying low on Spark for a couple of weeks now! I still log in everyday, except 1 day in about 185 days I forgot to log in and it killed my streak! But I am back, logging in everyday, and catching up on what is n... Read more
Do we have to slip to succeed?
For me I feel like this journey is a rollercoaster! One where I get up that huge hill and then fall equally as fast down the hill. I feel like I have been running forward at full sprint, only to stop and jog back to where I started. I had a coup... Read more
How I know something is different.
I know something is different because I have had a "bad" 3 days, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Here is is Friday and I am turning this thing around! The old Jenni, or the Jenni who still exists in my head and tries to influence me negatively... Read more
What is going on?
It seems that I cannot hold it together for any real length of time. I do really well for about a month, and then I am right back to binging like 3 days in a row.
What's funny, is on our vacation I did really well. We ate out primarily, but... Read more