We are camping tonight and hiking today with whitewater rafting and ziplining tomorrow . This is actually less intense activity than I'm used to, so with all the calories and from s"mores and burgers...it should be a .good weekend for helping me... Read more
It's SOOOO nice when people think they know better than your doctors
Ugh, encounters like these are one reason I have such a hard time accepting that I need to gain weight and being happy about it without worrying about how it will affect my appearance.
I just talked to a coworker right after lunch who, firs... Read more
And the spark spreads!
Several people at work have recently told me that I've inspired them, and I love it!
One guy said he's already lost 6 pounds, doing some working out and cutting out junk. (Then again, the last couple days I've seen him eating lunches that ... Read more
Endocrinologist Appointment Results
Basically, I have to gain weight. Shocker. He's now the third doctor to tell me (very sternly!) that I need to gain weight in order to be fertile again. He thinks I'll have to get to somewhere between 130 and 140 lbs (I'm around 121-ish right n... Read more
Reproductive Endocrinologist Today!
I'm about to leave and walk across town to my first appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist. Hopefully, this doctor can help me get fertile again! I know already that I need to gain body fat to get back up to a healthy percentage. 11% is... Read more
Vacation was good for me
I exercised a lot, and I tried to eat mostly healthy food (there was a night when people wanted pizza and calzones, so I indulged too, plus there was always lots of dessert around) while also eating enough calories to help me gain weight...
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I keep thinking I'm making progress on gaining weight and being okay with it...butthen I go back to being scared and tense. I know I need to do it to bring back my period and fertility but it goes against everything I have worked for for so lon... Read more
On vacation at the obx now and we actually went to the community gym to lift weights. They had free weight s so i got to try those for once instead of resistance machines and it was really fun! Plus we had a nice run on the beach.
Okay it was... Read more
My new favorite seasoning for veggies, salads, etc!!!
is the best seasoning blend ever. It is DELICIOUS. It doesn't taste particularly Asian to me, but maybe that's just because my familiar... Read more
You'll never guess what I bought yesterday!!
I mean, it's a pretty modest one. It's got a skirted bottom, for one thing, though that wasn't my intention going in. The skirt is nice though, because it hides the bulldog-style loose skin sagging unde... Read more
Do you think this counts as an
I think maybe I overdid things again today.
Lately, Wednesdays have become my active recovery days. I always walk at least 4.5 miles every week day during the course of my breaks at work, usually more, but I don't do any extra cardio on Wed... Read more
Work in progress
I exercised too hard today. 54 minute run, 34 minutes of abs, and over two total hours of walking. That's more than I'm supposed to be doing, since I'm supposed to be cutting back on exercise to help me regain some needed body fat.
Tomorro... Read more
Going topless! (Kind of.)
Had a rough morning, cried about weight gain that was probably mostly water weight from eating out a bit this weekend, demanded reassurance from my husband and mother that A) I probably didn't gain much fat, if any, and B) I'm SUPPOSED to be gai... Read more
Seriously, I really love trail running! I can't recommend it strongly enough! Don't know what it is, but something about dodging roots and rocks and mud in a lovely wooded setting is just so invigorating. It inspires me to run nice and fast yet... Read more
All-Bran pie crust?
For once, this will not be a whiny, woe-is-me blog about my very confused mental state, which I think is making actual progress. (Seeing children/babies makes me sad, but it also motivates me to eat more even though it feels wrong...but I gotta ... Read more