January 22...just because
it's been ages since I put a blog entry up here...
Yesterday was a terrible self-image day for me. I'd had quite enough of seeing images of tiny little hard-bodied women getting loved and recognized for the gorgeousness that everyone seems ... Read more
I've been on top of the world for a long time now, and I knew that kind of high just doesn't last. Dating happily, family relationships harmonious, great weather, career progress, spiritually connected even.
But now today I'm feeling low ener... Read more
Shy sucks! (confessions of a reforming emotional eater)
I have always thought of myself as a shy person, but I keep having people tell me they can't believe it. This is an example of why I say that about myself...
I sing in a wonderful, friendly, inclusive, LGBTS chorale group. I love it, and I'... Read more
Eating in the Light of the Moon - Relationships
It's been a while since I wrote anything about this book. A few chapters have gone by with more of the same theme of recognizing the true emotion behind the drive to eat. So I didn't want to focus on redundancy. This one branches into something ... Read more
Fake it til you make it
I had a thought today...It's a sound psych principle that when you're trying to learn new behavior, or overcome a mental health obstacle or challenge, it can be really helpful to "act as if". In the case of someone depressed, it can mean thinkin... Read more
Eating by the Light of the Moon - The Red Herring and Addiction
It's been a while since I read this book and wrote about it. Actually thought I'd lost the book, or it'd been borrowed without permission. But I found it where it had slid under the couch, and happily shut myself in my room for quiet time with i... Read more
Eating by the Light of the Moon - The Beginning
This chapter is about re-visioning the start of our disordered eating patterns. The story/fairy tale associated with it is The Emperor's New Clothes. In that story, the only one who owned up to the fact that the Emperor was running around naked ... Read more
Eating in the Light of the Moon - The Buried Moon
Yesterday I started a re-read of Eating in the Light of the Moon, by Anita Johnston. It was at least a year ago that I bought it and read it the first time, as it turns out, with highlighter in hand even. But it got recommended to me again a cou... Read more
A couple random moments in the course of the last week or so that caught me off guard, and concern me more than I'd like...
One day, while doing jumping jacks for my QFC, in the living room, in front of my daughter, she says to me after a s... Read more
Intentions for 2012
I've been reading recently about the differences between setting intentions and making goals. I like the language of intention better. It feels less restrictive and less likely to end in disappointment and not living up to my expectations. So he... Read more
What is the non-food equivalent of the thick creaminess of cold stone ice cream? the smooth lubrication of good quality butter? the complex delights of stilton cheese? (can you tell I'm a dairy fan here?)
What experiences can I sink my tee... Read more
Somehow, along the way, I've come to be able to comfortably admit the fact that I am addicted to food. I may still try to soft-pedal the language of it sometimes, but I know it to be true.
When I think about the idea of cleaning out all un... Read more
It's another holiday season past us now. This one was somehow hard to get really in the spirit for this year. Oh well. It was a fun day, with family and friends contact, no stress, and very little drama. For the first time ever, I didn't do holi... Read more
just maybe...I could be starting to realize how exercise could be good. I hesitate to even say anything, even to myself, about this, because so many times i've thought i was at a turning point and it just didn't last. I think i want it to. I kee... Read more
It's the end of my pseudo-workweek today. Being a student, the entirety of my obligation at this point is Tues 12-6, and Wed 9-12. I've identified before that I tend to want to eat "treat" foods at the end of my Wed commitment. Today I think I'm... Read more