So around the time of my last blog, I had a complete meltdown where I just utterly lost faith in myself as far as ever losing weight or managing my food/beer intake. In my meltdown moment, I called my mom to vent. When I was a young girl and I u... Read more
So, it has been a frustrating week with my body. I was doing this very unwise thing last week where I was weighing myself super-frequently. For whatever reason, over the course of a week of eating right and exercising hard, my weight just kept g... Read more
So, in followup to my last blog, I do really miss talking to steven. It has been so inspirational to have so many sparkers encourage me to recognize my grief, but move on with my life. So lucky that I have this website. Even though I miss steven... Read more
Insisting on Having my Needs Met
So today, I , Hannah Paine, at 266 pounds with stretch marks and flab, broke up with a guy who is into body building, is incredibly attractive, and is considered a catch amongst all my girlfriends. He was my ex, and he recently came back into my... Read more
Blog Attempt #2
So an hour or so ago, I wrote a blog detailing some of the goals that I want to set for myself over the coming weeks. I decided it was a little too revealing of some of my less flattering habits and I decided to start again. What I want to do is... Read more
The Wagon, and the Story of Me Falling Off of It
Blah....so my vacation was really fun. I got to spend a lot of one-on-one time with my mom, which was really nice because soon she will be married!
I ate and drank like a king though....which was tasty and fun but a big setback. I also sort of... Read more
So after a restful week with family in NY, I am back to the daily grind for a few days before I go see my immediate family in California for 10 days. I am feeling a little frustrated....I feel like I'm not losing weight fast enough. I feel like ... Read more
The last few days have had a lot of firsts....
--1st time under 265 in 8 months
--1st time I wore my favorite purple shirt in a year
--1st time I indulged without feeling bad.....artisan red velvet cupcake....YUM
--1st time I was exci... Read more
SO. I am feeling a little frustrated with myself right now. I haven't logged my calories or worked out in over a week, and I am too chicken to get on the scale. I stayed up late drinking last night AGAIN even though I promised myself I wouldn't ... Read more
And another year came and went....
So I have been using Sparkpeople and counting calories (to my best ability) for 2 months or so now, but haven't really blogged much or updated my page. Last night I stumbled across some pictures of myself at my original weight and I was so thril... Read more
Over one year later....I want to get back on the horse!
So it's been over a year since I used sparkpeople with any seriousness, and even though my weight has increased, I have come REALLY far. The last time I seriously lost weight, it was because I was so bummed about a breakup that I hardly ate. I l... Read more
What diet? Was I on a diet?
So I have had some slip-ups with junk food the last couple of days. At first it was alright, because I was logging all of it in sparkpeople and was still losing weight. Meanwhile, I was running to the grocery store to pick up junk food to satisf... Read more
It's official....tortilla chips can't come into my house! I ate almost the ennnttiirre bag over the two days since I bought them....no wonder my weight won't budge. It was a friday night in, but I played with some makeup I bought myself and took... Read more
Reruns of Bones
My weight is STILL 187, which is a little frustrating because it has hardly budged for a week. I know that I am probably gaining muscle though, and I lost a lot of weight last week really quickly, so I am trying to be patient. I had a healthy l... Read more
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Some overeating...but logging in consistently for the first time in....EVER
So I visited some family over the weekend in upstate NY and really only did OKAY with my eating....I skipped some snack opportunities, and I definitely skipped some necessary fruit and veggie servings.....but I tracked almost everything (even wh... Read more