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Practice the victories.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014      4 comments

I have been working and recommitting to this process again. I make it closer to my desired goal each time. But alas I struggle to stay the course. Eventually I get distracted and my inner toddler comes out shouting about what she wants, while... Read more

Why? Why? Why?

Tuesday, October 07, 2014      5 comments

Restarting Beck Diet Solution. In the past I was almost down to onederland. Then I turned around and ran back to almost the place I started. I want to move forward and have success again. It is not that what I chose was not sustainable. I j... Read more

How we make others feel.

Wednesday, October 01, 2014      2 comments

I took a bit of a break from Spark People. Working and such. Last week I arrended another friends funereal. This one is OK. We will miss him but at nearly 94 he lead a good life. He would tell you about his accomplishments. But he... Read more

What if...?

Thursday, September 18, 2014      2 comments

A very supportive friend sent me a message. She has been struggling for a while now, which I knew. I have been too. We encouraged each other to the brink of onederland. Then slowly life and trials have gotten in the way. We are struggling. ... Read more

Accepting the compliment

Saturday, September 13, 2014      4 comments

At the orthodontist on Thursday a young women asked if I am the mother of my 3rd son. She went to school with him in elementary school. He is now 22. She said I look just the same. She followed it up with You look great. I am sad that I am... Read more

What can I do different?

Saturday, August 23, 2014      3 comments

New habits are a must. Doing something different will get us to some place different. Maybe even a place that seems to be a bit of a fantasy right now. I used to knit and crochet to avoid/reduce night time eating. With my finger injur... Read more

Things I usually do

Friday, August 22, 2014      4 comments

I am an imperfect perfectionists. I tend to have all or nothing thinking. I say for example I want to read or listen to scriptures daily. I go along well for a few days and then when the habit is new I wander off from it. So today I am... Read more

Rethinking who I think I am.

Thursday, August 21, 2014      5 comments

For some reason I was taught as a child to doubt every compliment. My former stepmom was a very sad person. As I think back she apparently wanted to stay that way. I was told the head of cub day camp likes my attitude and wants me back ... Read more

Creativity and joy

Saturday, August 16, 2014      5 comments

I am enjoying eating fruits and vegetables. I love the taste,smell and texture. Eating different foods is great. I love the creativity of that. I also studied card weaving some more. I got u embroidery floss and made the cards. I hav... Read more

Creativity and joy

Saturday, August 16, 2014      1 comments

I am enjoying eating fruits and vegetables. I love the taste,smell and texture. Eating different foods is great. I love the creativity of that. I also studied card weaving some more. I got u embroidery floss and made the cards. I hav... Read more

Slow up and down progress.

Thursday, August 14, 2014      5 comments

I have BIG BIG BIG doubts that I will succeed. I get a ways down the path and turn around and run back to the familiar. I am working to make better choices and learn new things. I want a new normal where I have faith in me and my success. ... Read more

Eating

Tuesday, August 12, 2014      5 comments

I looked through a book and flound some yummy recipes that were vegan. Not that I want to eat that way all the time. However I thought I would incorporate them I to my eating. I got overwhelmed at the store. So I bought a bunch of vegetables... Read more

Laughs

Monday, August 11, 2014      4 comments

I have been trying to have a better attitude. We are having a lazy sunned. If I go.out to do stuff my hand swells. Enjoyed some funny FB videos. I have watched Hitch and Ella Enchanted. Today we will watch Bicentennial Man in hono... Read more

Body image

Saturday, August 09, 2014      5 comments

Once when I was a young girl I watched Miss America competition with my then step mother. I don't have any idea what I said but I remember vividly my step mom telling me I could never compete like that because of my scars. When I was almost s... Read more

easy button yes reset NO

Thursday, August 07, 2014      5 comments

I was thinking about my troubles. Wishing for a reset button. This and that are so HARD but then I considered all that I have accomplished and all that I have Learned. I guess that is better than any reset. But then I though about the ea... Read more


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