The truth is that the real problem isn't my weight. The real problem is that I don't feel good enough and I probably never will. I wish I could figure out why I feel this way, but I don't think I will ever know. It is because of this that I stuf... Read more
One day I'm up, the next day I'm down, but I am not giving up yet. I am hanging on tight to that glimmer of hope that one day things will get better. In hopes to get myself back on track I made these two motivational collages.
Autumn breeze come carry me away
From all the scars that lie beneath
I'm tired of hiding these broken wings
I just wanna find some peace
Autumn breeze rejuvenate my soul
Before I completely let go
Although I pray that there's mor... Read more
It seems like my struggles are getting worse by the day. I'm losing myself. The only thing scarier than being at your lowest is not caring that you are at your lowest. How can I pick myself up off the floor and change my life? I'm too weak and i... Read more
A life of pain
I can't let go
It's hurt more than you know
So, if I'm being honest
I've given up
These days are numbered
And that won't stop
My soul aches from the truth
Yesterday, today, and tomorrow
Will be spent without you... Read more
...you will have a voice
...you will feel strong
...you will be healthy
...you will be adventurous
...you will see the world
...you will make mistakes and be okay with it
...you will love that girl in the mirror
.... Read more
Hello stranger in the night
I think of you all the time
The stars made a promise they didn't keep
Maybe it's never meant to be
But still my heart waits for you
In hopes that dreams do come true
'Cause I would give it all away
To... Read more
I can remember back to the days where I used to care. I used to log onto Spark People every day. I used to have hopes and goals. I used to care. But, those days are becoming more and more rare. I may have been clinically depressed before, but th... Read more
So my mom is going on a trip to visit my uncles in North Carolina which means I have the next five days off from work so I can babysit my nephews. So, I wanna use this time to kick start my journey again. The problem is that I have lost motivati... Read more
I am starting to realize that I AM DIFFERENT! I always thought that being big is what made me different and that is why I always gravitate towards other people who are weird or different. But, now I am starting to think that isn't the case. It i... Read more
I seem to see bunnies a lot by my home. I come home from work really late and several times I have seen bunnies running across the road, even in the middle of winter. Also, I have seen them in the bushes by where I park. Then, last night I got o... Read more
I am constantly flooded with these visions of you and me lying breathless beneath the stars. The stars, they were painted just for us. Wrapped in your arms. This is home. It seems so familiar. Yet so far away. Like a dream I hardly remember, but... Read more
ends like this?
I thought it,
would be so different.
and I've cried.
I've said my goodbyes.
To everyone, but you.
You held me down
and made me weak.
You taught me how ... Read more
So I have been on this site for almost three years now and have made no progress. In fact, I have gained weight since I initially joined. But, I am still here and I am still willing to fight. When you are so used to living and thinking one way ... Read more