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Letting Go

Wednesday, November 11, 2015      3 comments

The other day I was reflecting how far I have come mentally in the last year, but then today creeps up on me and slaps me back into reality. Yes I may have come far, but I am still not even close to where I need to be. I am searching for t... Read more

Still Incomplete

Sunday, September 13, 2015      5 comments

Here I am alone in my room. Just another Saturday night. Empty house for a couple days. Forced to confront the lonely darkness that has plagued my heart for months, years, maybe my whole life. What causes us to feel so incomplete? You think it i... Read more

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Sunday, September 06, 2015      38 comments

Why is it that we live our lives so far from who we truly are? What you see is not always what you get. What you see is not necessarily who I really am. That doesn't mean I'm being "fake", but that there are "obstacles" which have prevente... Read more

What do you wanna do with your life?

Thursday, July 23, 2015      4 comments

She closes her eyes Ready for her surprise Today she turns eighty-five She reflects on her life The memories shine so bright Proud mother of three With countless grandbabies Her passport holds all her amazing adventures ... Read more

Hope and Faith

Sunday, July 05, 2015      2 comments

I've been on vacation for the last two weeks from job as a Teaching Assistant. During the beginning of my vacation I could feel myself sinking lower and lower. Possibly the lowest I have felt in a long time. I wrote this one night on my phone. I... Read more


Tuesday, June 16, 2015      1 comments

Behind that smile she's been lost for a while Drifting farther and farther away from their perceived realities For when she stops she hears the devil's thoughts She melts into the dark where she's buried her splintered hea... Read more

My Weight Over Time

Thursday, April 09, 2015      2 comments

So I am feeling very motivated today and am determined to make a change in my life. Early this week I looked at all my previous recorded weights on Spark People so that I could analyze my drastic weight gain. It was both devastating to see how f... Read more

Getting Closer

Tuesday, February 10, 2015      4 comments

Here is my new original poem "Getting Closer" Holding on tight, even though it hurts Wondering what's on the other side If only I knew, I'd finally open my eyes But would I even recognize my face Without all of the scars that lie ... Read more

Failing Forward

Monday, January 19, 2015      3 comments

Someone on SparkPeople recommend that I read Failing Forward by John C. Maxwell. The book is really inspiring. I definitely recommend the book if you are someone, like me, who is really hard on yourself when you make mistakes and you are constan... Read more

Make every moment count! We deserve better!

Wednesday, December 31, 2014      4 comments

How did this happen? How is it possible that 2015 is upon us? It's that time of year where my regrets start to feel extra heavy. Where did the time go? It has been almost four years since I have been felt like I knew who I was and I was happy (o... Read more

The Real Problem

Thursday, October 23, 2014      3 comments

The truth is that the real problem isn't my weight. The real problem is that I don't feel good enough and I probably never will. I wish I could figure out why I feel this way, but I don't think I will ever know. It is because of this that I stuf... Read more

Setting Fire to the Life That I Know

Monday, October 20, 2014      4 comments

One day I'm up, the next day I'm down, but I am not giving up yet. I am hanging on tight to that glimmer of hope that one day things will get better. In hopes to get myself back on track I made these two motivational collages. Read more

Autumn Breeze Poem

Friday, October 17, 2014      3 comments

Autumn breeze come carry me away From all the scars that lie beneath I'm tired of hiding these broken wings I just wanna find some peace Autumn breeze rejuvenate my soul Before I completely let go Although I pray that there's mor... Read more

Losing Myself

Monday, September 29, 2014      2 comments

It seems like my struggles are getting worse by the day. I'm losing myself. The only thing scarier than being at your lowest is not caring that you are at your lowest. How can I pick myself up off the floor and change my life? I'm too weak and i... Read more

If I'm Being Honest

Saturday, September 27, 2014      2 comments

A life of pain I can't let go It's hurt more than you know So, if I'm being honest I've given up These days are numbered And that won't stop My soul aches from the truth Yesterday, today, and tomorrow Will be spent without you... Read more

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