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Fallen --- New Poem(ish)
Saturday, December 10, 2016      3 comments

Just a girl. Masked by laughter. Slowly crumbling in the shadows. Destined to remain forever lonely. But look out. Here it comes. So unexpected. Soaring high. To the moon and back. Best feeling ever. Terrified of the crash. Run away. Just like b... Read more
Unexpected Souls
Wednesday, August 03, 2016      3 comments

I have been away a while. A lot of new and exciting changes in my life, but still a lot of personal growth I need to make. Hoping to start spending some more time sparking. Meanwhile, here is my latest poem. ~Unexpected Souls~ Two sou... Read more
Close to the Bottom
Sunday, June 05, 2016      3 comments

I have been away from Spark for so long. In March/April my anxiety became the worst it has ever been and I suffered the worst panic attack I have ever experienced where I just curled in a ball on my bed and cried for 30 minutes. I thought it wou... Read more
Not Sure Where I Will Land
Thursday, February 25, 2016      3 comments

Your head is quiet, your heart is light. Is that what happiness feels like? Why are we so afraid to be happy? Instead we choose to hide, push ... Read more
A Moment with Bliss
Monday, February 22, 2016      3 comments

-A Moment with Bliss- I'm just a wandering soul looking desperately for something to grab a hold of I wanna dance amongst the flowers while the sun graces my skin that unexplainable feeling of peace and inquisition the loneliness... Read more
Consumed (poem)
Thursday, January 21, 2016      4 comments

Your words are kind your hands are strong but, they can't save someone who is so far gone The damage, it was far too deep and they looked away as it slowly consumed me So I'll embrace the stars for one more time how I l... Read more
My Diagnosis
Monday, January 18, 2016      3 comments

I am constantly making bad choices which I never learn from and I often instantly regret them. This is led me to my self-diagnosis. I have what I call "wrongchoicitis". Wrong-choic-itis is a molecular degeneration of the cerebral cortex which im... Read more
The Heavy Truth
Saturday, January 16, 2016      8 comments

I find it frustrating to listen to people complain about certain things because it makes me feel even worse about myself and I just want to scream "you have no idea". I know that it is not fair to compare pain, but this still makes me angry. Thi... Read more
Let Go of Me
Tuesday, January 05, 2016      4 comments

Heart racing. Hands shaking, High expectations. Overthinking, So much noise. Can't breathe. Anxiety. Let go of me.... Read more
Why do we struggle?
Sunday, December 06, 2015      4 comments

Why do we struggle? Why do we hurt? Why do I still have no answers? Is it possible that this is just the way it is? Is there really a light at the end of the tunnel? Is there a reason for this? If so, what is it? Why do we hold on... Read more
Letting Go
Wednesday, November 11, 2015      3 comments

The other day I was reflecting how far I have come mentally in the last year, but then today creeps up on me and slaps me back into reality. Yes I may have come far, but I am still not even close to where I need to be. I am searching for t... Read more
Still Incomplete
Sunday, September 13, 2015      5 comments

Here I am alone in my room. Just another Saturday night. Empty house for a couple days. Forced to confront the lonely darkness that has plagued my heart for months, years, maybe my whole life. What causes us to feel so incomplete? You think it i... Read more
Voted Popular Blog Post: View All Popular Posts Who We Truly Are
Sunday, September 06, 2015      38 comments

Why is it that we live our lives so far from who we truly are? What you see is not always what you get. What you see is not necessarily who I really am. That doesn't mean I'm being "fake", but that there are "obstacles" which have prevente... Read more
What do you wanna do with your life?
Thursday, July 23, 2015      4 comments

She closes her eyes Ready for her surprise Today she turns eighty-five She reflects on her life The memories shine so bright Proud mother of three With countless grandbabies Her passport holds all her amazing adventures ... Read more
Hope and Faith
Sunday, July 05, 2015      2 comments

I've been on vacation for the last two weeks from job as a Teaching Assistant. During the beginning of my vacation I could feel myself sinking lower and lower. Possibly the lowest I have felt in a long time. I wrote this one night on my phone. I... Read more

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