Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.

    FIGHTING4IT   31,788
30,000-39,999 SparkPoints
FIGHTING4IT's Blog Entry Summary View

The Real Problem

Thursday, October 23, 2014      3 comments

The truth is that the real problem isn't my weight. The real problem is that I don't feel good enough and I probably never will. I wish I could figure out why I feel this way, but I don't think I will ever know. It is because of this that I stuf... Read more

Setting Fire to the Life That I Know

Monday, October 20, 2014      4 comments

One day I'm up, the next day I'm down, but I am not giving up yet. I am hanging on tight to that glimmer of hope that one day things will get better. In hopes to get myself back on track I made these two motivational collages. Read more

Autumn Breeze Poem

Friday, October 17, 2014      3 comments

Autumn breeze come carry me away From all the scars that lie beneath I'm tired of hiding these broken wings I just wanna find some peace Autumn breeze rejuvenate my soul Before I completely let go Although I pray that there's mor... Read more

Losing Myself

Monday, September 29, 2014      2 comments

It seems like my struggles are getting worse by the day. I'm losing myself. The only thing scarier than being at your lowest is not caring that you are at your lowest. How can I pick myself up off the floor and change my life? I'm too weak and i... Read more

If I'm Being Honest

Saturday, September 27, 2014      2 comments

A life of pain I can't let go It's hurt more than you know So, if I'm being honest I've given up These days are numbered And that won't stop My soul aches from the truth Yesterday, today, and tomorrow Will be spent without you... Read more

One Day You Will

Tuesday, September 09, 2014      2 comments

One day... will have a voice will feel strong will be healthy will be adventurous will see the world will make mistakes and be okay with it will love that girl in the mirror .... Read more


Wednesday, August 27, 2014      1 comments

Hello stranger in the night I think of you all the time The stars made a promise they didn't keep Maybe it's never meant to be But still my heart waits for you In hopes that dreams do come true 'Cause I would give it all away To... Read more

I really do WANT it but...

Saturday, July 26, 2014      7 comments

I can remember back to the days where I used to care. I used to log onto Spark People every day. I used to have hopes and goals. I used to care. But, those days are becoming more and more rare. I may have been clinically depressed before, but th... Read more


Friday, June 13, 2014      2 comments

So my mom is going on a trip to visit my uncles in North Carolina which means I have the next five days off from work so I can babysit my nephews. So, I wanna use this time to kick start my journey again. The problem is that I have lost motivati... Read more


Tuesday, June 10, 2014      3 comments

~Whispers~ Dream big. Dreams die. Run. Run away and hide. Too late. No choice. Why bother. You can't. It's over. Forget. The past. Doubt. The future.... Read more


Saturday, April 12, 2014      4 comments

I am starting to realize that I AM DIFFERENT! I always thought that being big is what made me different and that is why I always gravitate towards other people who are weird or different. But, now I am starting to think that isn't the case. It i... Read more

What does this mean?

Monday, March 31, 2014      3 comments

I seem to see bunnies a lot by my home. I come home from work really late and several times I have seen bunnies running across the road, even in the middle of winter. Also, I have seen them in the bushes by where I park. Then, last night I got o... Read more

Someone Somewhere Someday

Sunday, March 09, 2014      1 comments

I am constantly flooded with these visions of you and me lying breathless beneath the stars. The stars, they were painted just for us. Wrapped in your arms. This is home. It seems so familiar. Yet so far away. Like a dream I hardly remember, but... Read more


Sunday, March 02, 2014      5 comments

~Twenty-Six~ So 26, ends like this? I thought it, would be so different. I've smiled, and I've cried. I've said my goodbyes. To everyone, but you. You held me down and made me weak. You taught me how ... Read more


Tuesday, February 25, 2014      8 comments

So I have been on this site for almost three years now and have made no progress. In fact, I have gained weight since I initially joined. But, I am still here and I am still willing to fight. When you are so used to living and thinking one way ... Read more

1 2 3 4 5 Last Page