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What am I missing?

Saturday, March 19, 2016      1 comments

After all these years you would think I would have it all figure out, but I don't. So what am I missing? I'm spending my days racking my brain trying to figure it out. What is this piece of the puzzle that I can't quite find? I'm just aimlessly ... Read more

Not Sure Where I Will Land

Thursday, February 25, 2016      3 comments

Your head is quiet, your heart is light. Is that what happiness feels like? Why are we so afraid to be happy? Instead we choose to hide, push ... Read more

A Moment with Bliss

Monday, February 22, 2016      3 comments

-A Moment with Bliss- I'm just a wandering soul looking desperately for something to grab a hold of I wanna dance amongst the flowers while the sun graces my skin that unexplainable feeling of peace and inquisition the loneliness... Read more

Consumed (poem)

Thursday, January 21, 2016      4 comments

Your words are kind your hands are strong but, they can't save someone who is so far gone The damage, it was far too deep and they looked away as it slowly consumed me So I'll embrace the stars for one more time how I l... Read more

My Diagnosis

Monday, January 18, 2016      3 comments

I am constantly making bad choices which I never learn from and I often instantly regret them. This is led me to my self-diagnosis. I have what I call "wrongchoicitis". Wrong-choic-itis is a molecular degeneration of the cerebral cortex which im... Read more

The Heavy Truth

Saturday, January 16, 2016      8 comments

I find it frustrating to listen to people complain about certain things because it makes me feel even worse about myself and I just want to scream "you have no idea". I know that it is not fair to compare pain, but this still makes me angry. Thi... Read more

Let Go of Me

Tuesday, January 05, 2016      4 comments

Heart racing. Hands shaking, High expectations. Overthinking, So much noise. Can't breathe. Anxiety. Let go of me.... Read more

Why do we struggle?

Sunday, December 06, 2015      4 comments

Why do we struggle? Why do we hurt? Why do I still have no answers? Is it possible that this is just the way it is? Is there really a light at the end of the tunnel? Is there a reason for this? If so, what is it? Why do we hold on... Read more

Letting Go

Wednesday, November 11, 2015      3 comments

The other day I was reflecting how far I have come mentally in the last year, but then today creeps up on me and slaps me back into reality. Yes I may have come far, but I am still not even close to where I need to be. I am searching for t... Read more

Still Incomplete

Sunday, September 13, 2015      5 comments

Here I am alone in my room. Just another Saturday night. Empty house for a couple days. Forced to confront the lonely darkness that has plagued my heart for months, years, maybe my whole life. What causes us to feel so incomplete? You think it i... Read more

Voted Popular Blog Post: View All Popular Posts Who We Truly Are

Sunday, September 06, 2015      38 comments

Why is it that we live our lives so far from who we truly are? What you see is not always what you get. What you see is not necessarily who I really am. That doesn't mean I'm being "fake", but that there are "obstacles" which have prevente... Read more

What do you wanna do with your life?

Thursday, July 23, 2015      4 comments

She closes her eyes Ready for her surprise Today she turns eighty-five She reflects on her life The memories shine so bright Proud mother of three With countless grandbabies Her passport holds all her amazing adventures ... Read more

Hope and Faith

Sunday, July 05, 2015      2 comments

I've been on vacation for the last two weeks from job as a Teaching Assistant. During the beginning of my vacation I could feel myself sinking lower and lower. Possibly the lowest I have felt in a long time. I wrote this one night on my phone. I... Read more


Tuesday, June 16, 2015      1 comments

Behind that smile she's been lost for a while Drifting farther and farther away from their perceived realities For when she stops she hears the devil's thoughts She melts into the dark where she's buried her splintered hea... Read more

My Weight Over Time

Thursday, April 09, 2015      2 comments

So I am feeling very motivated today and am determined to make a change in my life. Early this week I looked at all my previous recorded weights on Spark People so that I could analyze my drastic weight gain. It was both devastating to see how f... Read more

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