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the gym is good for my soul

Wednesday, June 12, 2013      0 comments

As someone that is recovering/in recovery from an eating disorder many people can be concerned that I am using activity (aka exercise) for the wrong reasons and to compensate for eating. I can see where their concern comes from but...... I... Read more

so many victories!

Sunday, May 26, 2013      3 comments

Life has been so interesting lately....well, lately being these last 4 months. There have been so many stunning and breath taking moments and also periods of overcoming struggles. In my blogs I have been very open and honest about my stru... Read more

update....big milestones

Wednesday, March 27, 2013      2 comments

It's been hard for me to be consistent with using spark these last few months. I have used it as an unhealthy way to act out in my eating disorder and I'm having a hard time using it as the healthy tool it is meant to be. With that being s... Read more

been absent for a month.......

Thursday, January 17, 2013      2 comments

I didn't mean to take a spark break. oops. honestly though, I think it was actually a really good thing for me. my eating hasn't been perfect and I've definitely struggled with skipping meals and not eating enough. HOWEVER, I have been doing... Read more

heavy hearted....could use some prayers/positive vibes

Monday, December 17, 2012      2 comments

Long story short: one of my favorite cousins had to have open heart surgery today (at age of slightly older than me) for a recently discovered congenital heart defect that she's had her whole life. She made it through the surgery and th... Read more

going on a bear hunt

Wednesday, December 05, 2012      2 comments

I have not gotten out into the woods nearly enough lately. In fact today was the first time I had been in the woods in something like nearly 3 weeks. EGADS!!! No wonder things have been tough lately. I gave up the one thing that is best at h... Read more

huge victory!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012      7 comments

today has been a huge victory for me. I had a final in my anatomy lab today and while I don't think I got the grade that I really want, I know that I tried my best. The reason that today was such a huge victory is that this is officially the ... Read more

keep chugging........

Monday, November 26, 2012      1 comments

today has been a pretty intense day. started off with court for a speeding/headlight violation which resulted in a fine that I can't pay. really stressed about that but lessoned learned....DO NOT SPEED with a broken headlight even if it has ju... Read more

emotional grab bag

Sunday, November 25, 2012      1 comments

this has been my longest streak of abstinence on an outpatient basis (meaning only seeing a therapist and not actually in some form of program) from purging. Today is day 35 I think.....maybe 28...not entirely sure. regardless I've never made ... Read more

so conflicted.....and being very vulnerable

Saturday, November 24, 2012      2 comments

Went out to dinner with my coach last night and while it was good, it was also really intense. We ended up talking about the relationship with my husband and I and I'm just so confused. I realize that this is ultimately my decision to make but... Read more

Happy Thanksgiving

Thursday, November 22, 2012      0 comments

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone out there! Had a pretty good day with my family and enjoyed spending time with most of them. I have this one really creepy uncle that makes really inappropriate sexual comments and is very sexist. Honestly he re... Read more

3 yr anniversary since becoming cancer free!

Monday, November 19, 2012      3 comments

As the title says today is my 3 year anniversary of being cancer free. In 2010 on this day I underwent a body scan after radiation treatment and surgery to remove my thyroid and the lymph nodes that the cancer spread to and received the news t... Read more

I don't know what to do........thoughts?

Thursday, November 15, 2012      3 comments

I am working on completing the pre requisites to get into nursing school and am down to my last 4 classes. I had registered for 2 of those classes a few weeks ago and did some major schedule tweaking with my work schedule in order to have THE B... Read more

about me one word answers

Tuesday, November 13, 2012      1 comments

Copy and Paste into your own blog. Change the answers just as I did when I got this from another Spark Friend. Where is your cell phone? table Spouse? mom's How Is Your Hair? long Where is Your mother? home ... Read more

how do you stay in the moment and not live in the future or the past?

Monday, November 12, 2012      1 comments

I'm really having a day today. To be honest the last 2 days have been pretty tough emotionally. So far I've mostly stayed on track behavior wise (no purging thus far) but I'm starting to feel really overwhelmed by it. There is a recovery orga... Read more

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