When Everything Comes Together
It's been a long summer. I've been working hard a few times a week and eating well most of the time, but it hasn't been as consistent as it was. I just got back from vacation where I made sure to be really active, but I also did not track my foo... Read more
Getting it back together
I haven't written a blog in a while because I haven't had much to say. I've been feeling kind of stuck in a rut lately, and though I kept exercising, I didn't work very hard, and I ate close to (or sometimes over) my limit most days.
Today I s... Read more
Who Is This Crazy Woman?
The last couple days have made me feel like a different person. I was feeling really down (see previous feeling sorry for myself post) and hadn't exercised in several days. Coincidence - no. These things are definitely related. On Tuesday I did ... Read more
Never Going To Fit In
No matter how much weight I lose, I will not fit in. When I was fat, I felt alienated and alone. I blamed my weight. I knew people looked at me with disgust and judged me by the large, fleshy rolls around my middle and my ham sized upper arms. M... Read more
Not feeling it
Today is not a good day. I'm seriously sleep deprived. Last week I got maybe 5 hours a night (if I was lucky), and this week isn't starting any better. I agreed to run sound for the community theater's show, and rehearsal went until 11 last nigh... Read more
A Bad Run
Today I had a date with the hubby. We went to a yummy Japanese restaurant and overindulged slightly. I stayed within my calories today, but the food was more greasy than what I usually eat. My body wasn't thrilled.
A few hours later I had a se... Read more
So, I've been camping for almost a week. I love camping. I used to love the food, too. Hot dogs cooked over a fire tasted better than anything (and don't even get me started on s'mores).
Here's what I realized:
1. Hot dogs are pretty nast... Read more
Rockin' The Soccer Shorts
I played soccer in high school (just JV- nothing fancy), and I loved it. What I didn't love were soccer shorts. They never felt comfortable or flattering. They looked awesome on other girls, but I just wasn't built for them. Or so I thought.
T... Read more
Em's Happy Plan
This past weekend was the wedding weekend. We stayed at a beautiful B&B and indulged in luscious 3 course breakfasts. The wedding was fun and fantastic, but free wine was abundant, and though I rarely indulge, I had more than I should have.
I... Read more
I am a loner by nature. I have a few close friends, but they're the patient ones who don't mind when I vanish every once in a while. I need my space, and when I get too down, I need some time alone.
I've never interacted with groups online. I ... Read more
Purging the Poison
Some people are poison. Beneath the fake smiles and the feigned interest, they really just want to talk about themselves and, if possible, drag down your own feeling of self-worth. I've been involved in a struggle (friendship?) with someone like... Read more
10 Things I Never Thought I Could Do
Just trying is a success.
Failure is a chance to grow, a chance to learn, and a chance to improve.
Okay, this week has been rough. Really, really rough. Like the kind of week that would normally send me into a serious pity party/ binge fe... Read more
Grow A Thicker Skin
I hate the expression "grow a thicker skin". I'll be the first one to admit that I am overly sensitive. I take things too personally. I let things bother me for too long. Every time I find myself in a bad place emotionally, someone tells me to g... Read more
Painful Ankles and Changed Perceptions
I'm training for a half marathon. It's not until October, so I haven't started doing anything too intense, but I have been trying to get in one long run every weekend. It had been going pretty well until this weekend. I decided earlier in the we... Read more
Changed my tune
I had a major turning point this week. Like a lightbulb going on over my head, I suddenly understood (really, deep down in my heart understood) that the number on my scale doesn't matter. I stopped weighing myself everyday about 2 weeks ago, and... Read more