Seeing is believing...
Ever seen a picture of yourself and thought "what the heck? I thought I looked good!" Only to realize, yep, not so much?
I'm at my height of fatness, heavier than I've ever been, even after having a baby. 182 I've been taking pictures of ... Read more
Sorry for my absence. Life. 2010 brought some difficult emotional times, throwing me off balance completely. I'm finally getting my bearings back. Just finished my BA in Psychology - now I can focus on the outside of me!
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Wow, it's been a long time - you need a quick update....
I just read my last blog entry. Some things have changed...
My dad passed away in March - 4 months after my mom. He had a heart attack from flipping out because nobody would come to his party... My mom was the brake for him, he was obvio... Read more
I'm trying - and I'm happy with that.
I gaines 20lbs when my mom got hospitalized and have done absolutely nothing to get rid of it. At that time (November 2010) I was up to 6 miles training for a half-marathon (would've been my first). I basically quit...everything. This week I hav... Read more
To ALL my Spark Friends
THANK YOU! For all your kind comments, encouragement and prayers. You've all really been here for me and I sincerely appreciate it. I wish I could sit down and spend all day personally thanking each of you, sending you goodies and encourageme... Read more
Getting Back My Normal
We took my mom off life-support - that was hard, very hard - watching her die. That sucked. Having to buy 2x size clothes for her, alone, sucked almost more. All the fluids from the iv's had just swelled her to 3-4 times her normal size. The... Read more
UPDATE Blog - Mom's Hospitalization, Drama & Race Fiasco
I haven't been around in a while. First it was just me in a slump, then life started a downhill spiral that's lasted going on 3 weeks and seems not to be slowing down much.
I'll try to condense it for lengths sake, but trust me, there's A ... Read more
How Others See Me
This was posted on my FB page by a friend - a very new friend and to be honest, it made me tear up. She turned this in for one of her college courses as an assignment on writing about someone without using adjectives. (FYI: I'm only 5' 1 1/2", ... Read more
New Medical Advice
I love this Doctor!
Q: Doctor, I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is this true?
A: Your heart only good for so many beats, and tha... Read more
Purple Stride 4 Miles - Race Report - kinda
Ok, so I haven't been in it lately, not much has changed other than now I'm sick with some sinus, chest cold thingy. I'm not giving up entirely, but I am not going to frustrate myself and lose hope.
Saturday I painted my nails purple, had ... Read more
I think this is the first time I can remember not being excited about a race. I'm seriously considering not racing anymore.
I'm not prepared by any stretch of the imagination. It's a 4 mile timed race on the beach and I can't even run 2 m... Read more
Sometimes You Feel Like a Nut, Sometimes You Don't
God really does work in mysterious ways.
Just a few days ago I was comparing myself to a 20 year old, sexy Zumba instructor and not fareing so well. Today, He just pumps me full of compliments - I guess God realized I might need a bit of a... Read more
There's no comparison...
I love me, really I do.
When I go to the Zumba class and see her little, tiny, twenty year old rump shaking all over the place, then look in the mirror - the visual is not a pretty sight. I look like an old woman having some kind ... Read more
Do these pants make me look fat....
Well, no - because you ARE fat, it's not the pants fault! LOL [Don't discourage me by trying to make me feel better - facts are facts]
This morning, I tried on the 2 pair of jeans I bought when my previous ones were way too big to wear an... Read more
To Go or Not To Go
There's a girl I went to high school with. I knew her. We weren't close friends, we had some of the same friends, maybe a class together and we probably spoke in the halls, but we weren't close.
Her husband killed her and then killed hims... Read more