I have hated my body since puberty.
It has never been what it was "supposed" to be. It was slow. It was behind. Certain things showed up late (or, in some cases, barely at all). It was too chubby HERE and too flat THERE. I remember bein... Read more
So, this was week 1 of my more relaxed, do what feels good for my body approach.
I focused on eating natural, home-cooked foods. I switched my calendar food stickers to a sticker for staying within my calories to a sticker for eating only ... Read more
Ups and Downs
I am feeling a little better today.
We spent the last two days pretty much entirely outside, walking, hiking, climbing, even just sitting and chatting/reading. Lots of time with the puppy, with my husband, and even with my mom.
I thin... Read more
I have always had a hard time admitting that I struggle with depression. I'll call it "feeling down" or "feeling unmotivated" or "I'm fine... just tired," but I'm learning that when I get that feeling of being weighed down, like I can't move, l... Read more
Or am I standing still with the scenery flying by?
So, my parents announced their divorce a little over a year ago.
They were married 38 years. I have relied on their solidarity and support as a pair for 28 of those years.
This Passover will be our first holiday not as a family. It t... Read more
You make the rockin' world go 'round.
I have recently stumbled across the website fitbottomedgirls.com, and I fell immediately in love. As someone who has no shame belting the Queen song at the top of her lungs, clearly this was a match made in heaven.
Anyway, I was inspired... Read more
And... I'm stuck.
Stuck like... like... like something stuck really tightly in someplace really sticky.
I was doing really, really well in the fall and early winter. I'm also really proud of myself for not actually gaining ... Read more
Continuing to shape my own future.
It is that time of year when people start thinking about what they want from the next 365 days of their lives. I have never been a big fan of new year's resolutions, because they always feel artificial to me, and I think that usually they end u... Read more
The Dark Days
This is always a difficult time of year.
It's my birthday in two weeks. My birthday has been difficult these last few years because it's the one time of year that I really feel how few friends I have anymore. Most of the time it doesn't... Read more
Six months to make it a habit.
One down, five to go.
I read in a spark article that it takes six months to make something a long term habit.
So... one month down, five to go.
I'm proud of the work I've done this month. I've lost 6 pounds and 3 inches, and that... Read more
When I look back over the years and years of struggling with and worrying about my weight, I wonder how many hours I have wasted feeling crappy about all of this. And it makes me wonder why I do it.
I'm not really unhealthy. My bmi fluctu... Read more
Stalling out, slowing down, or just shifting focus?
Well, as usual, the start of the school year brings for me a slowdown in physical activity and a struggle to maintain my weight and stick to a healthy lifestyle.
I want this year to be different though. I really do. I say that every year,... Read more
Reaching New Heights
It's been almost two months since I started running, and I can't begin to fathom how much my outlook on life has changed.
It's not really about the running so much. It's about feeling empowered. Feeling capable. Feeling like I am a perso... Read more
And, here we go again. Down this time, maybe?
I go through this, up and down, back and forth, year after year, month after month. "This time it's different" I say. "I'm going to stick to it this time" I say.
I'm a very good liar, bu... Read more
Learning to live again
It's been a difficult winter.
It's been a difficult winter all around, I think, with foot after foot of snow, never-ending cold, and the feeling that spring would never come.
It's been a difficult winter for me in particular, with my f... Read more