Damon describes the benefits of journaling... Read more
I feel like I am a prisoner in my own life. I'm acting out and pigging out on fast food to make myself feel better. It's kind of a crisis because I'm gaining weight and I'm concerned that I'm going to get diabetes or something else RIGHT NOW; v... Read more
Affirmations, love, depression, rest, workaholics anonymous, and the journey called life
I had a long weekend recently and I had high-hopes for fun, and I ended up being depressed all week--I was in a 3 day depression binge. When I have to work I'm galvanized and when I don't, I simply get depressed. I want to accomplish things an... Read more
working 346 hours a week
I am starting a new part-time job, in addition to my regular job. It's a job I've done before. It's more stressful than my regular job. And, ya know, the stress is not good. Things like, figuring out when and where I can go to the bathroom--yo... Read more
Hugs and Journals, Kites and Jobs
I took a rare morning off yesterday. I hung out, slept in and contemplated my navel. Actually, it has been many a moon since I contemplated my navel. I can't even SEE MY NAVEL. When I shower, I reach down there... feel around the middle of my bu... Read more
The big evil computer. The reason for massive obesity.
As I blogged yesterday, I created first-hand testimony to myself. I recognized that sitting in front of the computer is not the best thing. Yet, last night I sat there till 12:30am, after blogging that I will work on not sitting in front of the ... Read more
Late Night Eating/Emotional Vulnerability
I have an inability to stop late night bingeing. It's a supreme problem. I'm unable to stop eating at night and my behaviors are so consistent. Consistently bad. I get tired and I go to "Oh, Gosh, I just need to relax now.!" And then I relax and... Read more
I'm getting more things done, and that makes me feel good.
I want to communicate, so I blog, it helps me. It's the UPWARD spiral I long for re: my self-esteem. Behaviors that by their action reward me, tend to make me feel good. Isn't that... Read more
Iíve been sleeping better since I quit smoking. Iím feeling better. The pain in my chest, the trouble breathing, the staying up late, the headaches; all can be attributed to smoking. Now that Iíve quit (knock on wood!)Ö I think these problems w... Read more
Depression and Upsets and Eating
I'm stressing out about work and about money. I'm unable to pay all my bills, and concerned about that. I'm not able to pay my student loans and am concerned about getting my wages garnished, and all of these things are weighing on me, and so my... Read more
Well, many changes, and not very many of them good. Well, at least I'm blogging.
Today's blog has not good news. I've gained weight, I'm smoking again, I'm stressed out, and big changes on the job front, not the least of which includes wo... Read more
I used to walk with authority. The other day I caught my reflection in a window as I passed, and I was shocked at what I saw. I walk like an old man! I wobble through my life.
I used to feel like a cat: poised and ready to spring. I walked wit... Read more
I ate like **** after work yesterday. Perhaps eating a bit more here at work before I leave would help. †Get some more clif bars, that is a good idea. †Eat a clif bar at work, before I leave work for home, as opposed to going to McDonalds, for a... Read more
New Plan - Half Way There!
I am doing HealthyWage, where I'm challenging myself to lose 40# in six months. Well, guess what? It's been just over a month, and I'm half way there! So, things are working well, despite all the weird circumstances in my life. Very weird, but... Read more
It's the end of my workday. I play tricks with my mind oftentimes, making excuses for fast food, including rewards for surviving the week, or simply going unconscious... This going unconscious is status quo for me.
Part of the problem is this ... Read more