I used to walk with authority. The other day I caught my reflection in a window as I passed, and I was shocked at what I saw. I walk like an old man! I wobble through my life.
I used to feel like a cat: poised and ready to spring. I walked wit... Read more
I ate like **** after work yesterday. Perhaps eating a bit more here at work before I leave would help. Get some more clif bars, that is a good idea. Eat a clif bar at work, before I leave work for home, as opposed to going to McDonalds, for a... Read more
New Plan - Half Way There!
I am doing HealthyWage, where I'm challenging myself to lose 40# in six months. Well, guess what? It's been just over a month, and I'm half way there! So, things are working well, despite all the weird circumstances in my life. Very weird, but... Read more
It's the end of my workday. I play tricks with my mind oftentimes, making excuses for fast food, including rewards for surviving the week, or simply going unconscious... This going unconscious is status quo for me.
Part of the problem is this ... Read more
New plan--week 1
Well, my new plan is working. Now, wait. This is only week one. We'll see if I can sustain this. Ya see, I've done this before. I know. I know. We ALL HAVE. Aye, there's the rub, eh? Yes.
My PROGRAM is:
1) record food,
2) bedtime/get u... Read more
Damon Joined Healthy Wage
I decided to join Healthywage.com. I will plunk down $20 a month, challenging myself to lose 40# in six months. If I win, (successfully lose the 40# within 6 months). I'll double my $. If I lose (or do not lose at least 40 within 6 months,) I lo... Read more
I'm thinking of joining healthy wager. I could invest as little as $17/month for 6 months, and if I achieve my weight loss goal of 40#, I more than double my $.
I've done a challenge before where I plunked down $20, with the only incentive th... Read more
KNOW WHEN YOU'RE DOING IT RIGHT OR WRONG
Another key to my weight loss efforts will be to know when I'm doing it right or wrong. This is tough, because true scientific results tend to be in black and white, yes or no, right or wrong. But I'm a human being and there must be room for su... Read more
CAPABLE OF DOING IT
Another aspect of success regarding losing a bad habit, or of changing the bad to good, or simply acquiring a good habit is,
I must prove I AM CAPABLE OF DOING IT.
This... is going to be difficult. I did lose 100# from 1996-1997. I gai... Read more
WANT TO DO IT
So, I must delineate my emotional problems from my simple desire to lose weight.
Regarding losing weight: I'm really not motivated to blog, or to share at all today. It's Christmas Eve, and I'm a bit under the weather. I'm home alone, as ... Read more
2015 is almost gone. Amazing how time marches on, but bad habits tend to stay entrenched. Amazing how like mice we are, still killing ourselves to go up the tunnel for the cheese,eh? My habits are like the rockface of a mountain. Entrenched. I... Read more
Journaling And the Artistic Life
More entries from my 'morning pages':
I get morose whenever I journal. I have literally programmed myself to go into negative, to presume the worst regarding my psyche and my circumstances. I have asked myself "why" for far too long, for ... Read more
Leading two separate lives
Here are journal entries, that point to truths about myself:
I see how much negative energy I inflate into my life. Sometimes, if I don't have something to resent, I have to rely on.... nothingness, or something other than resentment, like... Read more
I know I post a lot about this--but really, a major-dude stumbling block for me seems to be my depression. Part of the problem is that I take bupropion, but sometimes I forget to take my afternoon dose. That kind of excuse is ridiculous, of co... Read more
Well hello, everyone.
Sometimes I don't really know how to address this--I have a dozen or so friends on here that I know read these posts of mine and I read theirs... other than that, sometimes I really don't know what I'm doing with thes... Read more