Hiatus Over. Coming Back Out of the Cave.
Hello, all of my millions of fans worldwide (how's that for grandiosity),
I'm back again to using SparkPeople as a source of support in this health journey.
I am in a lot of pain since I am enduring the aftermath of a breakup with a g... Read more
New Insight into Food Control
Here's what I've been thinking regarding food: I accept the fact that yes, I really am a food addict. Or compulsive overeater. I'm not really sure of the difference.
In any case, there are certain foods that I consider that... Read more
Thoughts: weight loss, control, emotions
I had a sudden awareness today that there are no guarantees--there is no guarantee if I get down to goal weight (125) that my life will all of a sudden turn around--that I will finally consistently feel peaceful, content, connected, secure, and ... Read more
I am caught in being obsessed with becoming AMAZING looking to the point where I feel completely ashamed of what I look like right now. I weigh around 150, and at 5'3", that's actually not terrible. But I feel so bloated and puffy that I just ... Read more
Today So Far (Tuesday, 5/20/14)
Welp, I'm doing okay so far today.
Food--I've eaten the appropriate amount of calories so far, and I've eaten healthy foods that can be considered "clean."
Water--a bit behind. I just stopped typing to chug down ten gulps. WOOHOO!!! ... Read more
Humbly Grateful to be Back on Track
I feel profoundly grateful that my sanity has returned after my 4-day relapse.
The first day back was tough--facing the reality that I was indeed still susceptible to using food to escape emotions. During the relapse, I was miserable: tota... Read more
Today so far (5/6/14)
Today I've been eating almost the things I'm supposed to. I'm supposed to eat eggs and turkey sausage in the morning. I overslept and was late to work and so I'll have to make up protein later today after work.
Today is my "off" day for e... Read more
Quotes That I Love But am Moving From My SparkPage
Time for new quotes on the SparkPage . . . here are the old ones:
GETTING FIT IS HARD.
BEING FAT IS HARD.
CHOOSE YOUR HARD.
The food you eat can be either the safest & most powerful form of medicine or the slowest form of poiso... Read more
Perfectionism Quote by Coach Nicole
Perfectionism has no place in the weight-loss journey. --Coach Nicole
(Well, at least that was the gist of the quote if it wasn't word for word.)
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Just Ate a Fast-food Combo Meal
I had completed my day of eating, exercising, and food tracking today within my calorie and macronutrient (protein, carbs, & fat) ranges.
At around midnight, I struggled with feeling SO hungry. I was also tired, and so... Read more
Why am I Doing All of This?
Working out six days a week, twice a day three of those days.
Drinking 12-18 cups of water a day.
Eating very "clean" and tracking my food daily.
To what end am I doing all this?
Let's see . . . I want to be a role model for ... Read more
It's been EIGHT YEARS since I've posted in this blog. Okay, maybe not eight years, but it's been a long time.
Here's my deal: I've gotten under 150--CANNOT BELIEVE IT.
My next goal is to compete in one bodybuilding c... Read more
About the Scale Not being the Only Measure of Physical Success
I didn't make my weight goal this six weeks. I'm at 155 pounds, and my goal was to be 152 by today.
I'm feeling disappointed and bummed. I have been almost perfectly on track with my daily calories, macronutrients, and workouts.
(O... Read more
A Good Decision
My latest motivation for weight loss is that I'm into bodybuilding. I find it fun and cool though potentially very cheesy and narcissistic if I don't keep it real with regard to why I want to do bodybuilding. I want to do bodybuilding to bring... Read more
I had a REALLY good weights workout this past Monday--I was able to lift dumbbells that I previously had not been able to lift, and with some ease. There were two big factors contributing to my successful workout:
1. I drank a 5-Hour Energ... Read more