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Emotions are weird...

Thursday, October 08, 2015      10 comments

It's amazing how quickly emotions can cycle through in succession of one another. Been that kind of day. The first thing I did this morning was go see my psychiatrist. I was pleasantly surprised to see that he seemed to be grasping the monume... Read more

One Day At A Time...

Wednesday, October 07, 2015      17 comments

When I was a child, there were commercials for those Time Life collections of music, and one of them was classic country songs. One of the songs they always played a snippet of was "One Day At A Time, Sweet Jesus". For some reason that song wo... Read more

Just a short one tonight...

Monday, October 05, 2015      16 comments

I will keep this one short and sweet, since there isn't much to say. I didn't do anything I planned to do today. I did decide to take some sort of proactive step and go to the library and check out some books on grief. Even though losing Mamm... Read more


Sunday, October 04, 2015      15 comments

This is the THIRD TIME I am trying to type this entry. I hate the new blogging thing! It keeps disappearing on me for some reason when I'm almost done with a post. I usually don't complain about website changes but this one is driving me mad.... Read more

Friends can be more valuable than you would ever imagine...

Saturday, October 03, 2015      15 comments

Since we lost Mammaw, my friends have kept me going. I have two very dear friends whom I have typed to for hours on end, just talking about whatever I felt I needed to talk about. And both of them have let me type, and then tried to comfort me... Read more


Friday, October 02, 2015      19 comments

I had a blog entry half typed out, and then it disappeared somehow. Grrr. I'm not going to attempt to retype it all, so I"ll just hit the highlights. The main highlight is having gotten a tattoo in memory of Mammaw. I felt like it was somethi... Read more

Grief is a strange thing...

Friday, October 02, 2015      14 comments

Last night was rough, but I managed to fall asleep after only a couple of the panic attacks that have been plaguing me since Mammaw's death. Unfortunately I slept terribly, and ended up giving up and getting up early, despite being horribly exh... Read more

I am home...

Wednesday, September 30, 2015      14 comments

Dh and I just got here a few minutes ago. I fit enough pain and emotion into two days, to last me for a lifetime. It was such a jumble of feelings. Mammaw was gone and my heart was broken... but I hadn't seen my mom in 5+ years, and my aunt i... Read more

Leaving in the morning...

Sunday, September 27, 2015      25 comments

I just wanted to drop by and say we will be heading Virginia tomorrow morning. We'll be there mid afternoon. There's a family only viewing for Mammaw on Tuesday morning at 10, and then the service will be Tuesday afternoon at 1. It's being he... Read more

You guys are amazing...

Saturday, September 26, 2015      17 comments

I cannot even begin to tell all of you how much I appreciate you. The comments and Goodies you've left for me have brought tears to my eyes, both because my heart still hurts that my Mammaw is gone, but also because I'm blessed to have such won... Read more

My Mammaw...

Friday, September 25, 2015      27 comments

When I was still a newborn, my mom developed a very severe ear infection that caused her to lose her hearing in both ears temporarily. That meant she couldn't take care of me because she couldn't hear me cry. My grandmother, Mammaw, stepped in... Read more

Not too much to talk about...

Thursday, September 24, 2015      14 comments

I don't have a lot to talk about tonight. My eating hasn't been great, but that was partly because I wanted to eat a larger, high fat meal to test out the gall bladder problem theory. I'm told if it is my gall bladder, I'd have more problems a... Read more

Close to ending a good day...

Wednesday, September 23, 2015      16 comments

I almost hesitate to say it, because it may have just been a fluke... but I think *maybe* the new med is helping control my appetite. I woke up several times last night, as I always do, but I did not wake up hungry and end up stuffing my face. ... Read more

The goods and the bads...

Tuesday, September 22, 2015      20 comments

Today was both therapy and my endo. Therapy was fine. I realized on the way there that I hadn't done part of the homework she assigned me. I had forgotten all about it, and explained that to her. She was happy enough that I had put together ... Read more

Almost done with day 1?

Monday, September 21, 2015      15 comments

I felt SUPER craptastic by the time I fell asleep last night. I think it was a combination of getting up really early yesterday, eating a bunch of crap, and I think my blood pressure may also have been high. My head felt all manners of weird a... Read more

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