New game plan
So recovering from the binge and this is what I'm thinking.
1. Eat more carbs. I think if I were to do so then the strong cravings wouldn't be there. I will allow myself to have potatoes with my breakfast. And getting them in the morning me... Read more
This binge is over, thank goodness. It has not been nice to me. Rephrase, I shouldn't have done it to myself? Now I feel like crap. The positive? I didn't eat food I'm allergic to like I normally would? I ate potato chips and these chocolate bro... Read more
Running, I hate thee
So I use to be an avid runner. This was at the peak of my weight loss about 2.5 years ago. I started from not being able to run a mile to running a half marathon. I know how it happens, I know the struggles, I know the frustrations and the pain.... Read more
Had my school induction today
Which for those who aren't familiar with the term, it's pretty much my orientation. I'm excited, I'm nervous, I'm overwhelmed, I'm scared. There seems to be a lot more statistics than what I bargained for, but we aren't expected to have a strong... Read more
I'm not sure what to think or how to feel
So my mind is sending me mixed messages and I'm torn between the two signals that I'm getting. One side is going "you shouldn't have eaten that snack after dinner last night" and the other is going "but you were hungry and needed the food, so it... Read more
A commitment to monitor myself
I can feel myself slipping back into my old over restrictive eating habits and I will not let myself get to the point where I was a few years ago. I'm in a new country, do not know the healthcare system very well and I cannot start fainting agai... Read more
Things are starting to look up, I hope!
I'm started to get settled in my new country and it looks like things are going to go pretty smoothly. I'm registered for classes (except for my theme modules), I have my student ID, I have my bank account, with no money, albeit, I've figured ou... Read more
All moved in and completely stressed!
So after almost a year of getting my offer letter, I am finally here in my new city, new country, be it! It's been quite stressful, there is SO much to learn about a UK education system that is very different than the US. I'm use to going to one... Read more
Not to weigh
That's my decision. It can wait a few months. I'm fine if someone else weighs me and gives me progress reports, just telling me I'm down is all I need to know because knowing how much will affect my mood. See, it's all about the numbers, I can't... Read more
To weigh, or not to weigh, that is the question
I'm really debating if I should weigh myself right now. I can't do numbers, I know that, they lead to an unhealthy obsession, but I finally feel like I'm getting on track again and I feel like I'm getting more stable. But hey, I thought that at ... Read more
Thinking about coming back to Spark and recap of the past year
What's shaking? I've missed all of you during my one year (has it really been that long?) hiatus from Spark. I've been focusing on myself and trying to recover from the damage I did to my body from losing weight the wrong way.... Read more
I'm slipping - in a negative way
In my food habits, that is.
I've barely eaten over the past 2 weeks. Like nothing at all. Today, I'm feeing it. I want carbs and fat, really bad. All I've eaten are fruits and veggies. That's it. Seriously. Oh, and a slice or two of turkey ... Read more
Side note: I've been a pooping machine for the past few days, woo! Go body, finally getting rid of the soy, dairy, corn, and gluten that I ingested over a week ago!
So I weighed in this morning, 134.8! Last measurements day was 135.4, I'll ... Read more
My body is adjusting. Slowly.
So have I recovered from last weekend's binge on foods that might kill me? I don't know. I'm still constipated. I know, an entire week. My stomach hates me, this might be my reminder NOT to give into those urges next time I'm at my parents house... Read more
I think I might die
Overdramatic? Yes. But I'm sure it caught your intention!
PS: I'm slightly drunk. Majorly tipsy. Majorly sick.
I'm home with my parents. There are SO many temptations here. I have AWFUL self control. I don't buy foods I know I'll indu... Read more
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