This striking words were "spoken" to me by SparkFriend BUTTERCUPP77. I wanted to believe her. I truly wanted to. And I've been questioning this same thing for a while now. As I've watched my girl SUGIRL06 move onto a maintaining phase that i... Read more
So I focus a little too much too often on the scale and the tape measure...don't we all? Someone told me the other day, "Think about all you can do that you couldn't before!" I answered "Whatever..." but I shouldn't have dismissed them like t... Read more
I sucked this weekend. Seriously, I was all over the place. I've been extremely emotional lately and yesterday was a "last straw" kind of day. I feel sorry for the kids and Hubs, who are trying so hard to forgive me for every mood swing but, ... Read more
I spent yesterday learning about food.
Yes, that sounds strange coming from someone who has lost over 90 pounds in a year, but it's true.
You see, way back when, I was eating pretty much the same thing every day. I knew if I followed ... Read more
Yesterday was my first real challenge as we had training at work, which screws up my daily schedule usually. But yesterday I refused to let it. Before we headed in, I grabbed my 9:30am snack and brought it with me, keeping an eye on the clock ... Read more
Okay, so yesterday went considerably well. Minor slip-up at the end, but nothing that hurt the bank, honestly.
Meal 1: Breakfast
6:40ish am --- Eggs and Oats
I cooked up my oats in a frying pan instead of a saucepan like I usually d... Read more
So April was a trying month for me, but let's focus on the positives.
When I weighed in on April 9th, I weighed 325 pounds.
Yesterday morning I logged my weight as 323.2.
So even with the all the crazy emotions, crazier eating and al... Read more
Last night I did something REALLY, REALLY stupid. I asked the Hubs to take me to the Chinese place for dinner. STUPID STUPID STUPID!! I figured I could handle it. See that, friends? I got too sure of myself. Plus, I've learned that you can... Read more
So, yes...I forgot my yogurt today, which is making me extremely sad. I know that might sound silly to some people, but my Sparkies know what a good snack is like. We rely upon it. We trust in it. We don't have to think about how many calori... Read more
As you can tell, I'm not lying when I say that sometimes I just need to hide. Like a turtle, I retreat into my shell when I feel threatened. Of course, this time the threatening was being done by me, but the outside world was only adding to bo... Read more
It's something I never mentioned in my Spark blog about what I learned last year with SP, because I guess I was learning it at the time. Asking for help. Sometimes it's necessary to break down and scream and call in reinforcements. I kept say... Read more
I should be doing a reflection day blog right now, but I need to write something else.
I have failed this week. For a few weeks, actually. I've held up my head and put on my brave face and kept forging through as best I could, but it wasn... Read more
I will not abandon another goal I set for myself. I said 12 days of reflections and I will do them. I'm in a better place already after doing days 1-3, but I'm still needing some work, as my anger last night at the gym and subsequent eating ma... Read more