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Time to Get Serious

Thursday, May 28, 2015      8 comments

Yesterday was my very first counseling session I can remember since the split where I didn't bawl my eyes out. I nearly teared up twice, but not a single tear fell. I went in thinking I needed help in trying to figure out how to move on, but i... Read more

Month 5 Goals

Wednesday, May 27, 2015      7 comments

Okay, so crazy things are still happening. I told my son the other day that if it weren't for my bad luck, I don't think I'd have any luck at all. He said, "Well, then wouldn't it be better to have no luck?!" *lol* Thursday was weigh in.... Read more

Today...

Friday, May 22, 2015      5 comments

...I have decided to do what's best for me. ...I will let go of the things that have been holding me back. ...I will forgive myself. ...I will allow myself to be perfectly imperfect. ...I will recognize the things about myself that are a... Read more

Work-Work-Work

Tuesday, May 19, 2015      3 comments

Lots of working going on right now in my life. I finished up my last Senior Session, but I have a family session and a senior mini coming up this weekend, plus my gallery viewing and sales session. I really hope they buy some products! Mostly... Read more

A Difficult Weekend

Monday, May 18, 2015      4 comments

Well, at least I learned one lesson this week - I am not ready to come off my meds yet. I forgot to take my medicine on Saturday and by Sunday my body was threatening one of the worse panic attacks on record. Too much anxiety and stress right ... Read more

Goals and Rewards

Friday, May 15, 2015      7 comments

Okay, I'm using this crazy momentum I have right now to set up some goals and rewards for myself. I vow to not count my blessings only as numbers on a scale. I vow to celebrate non-scale victories just as much or more than those I see at the d... Read more

Hurting

Friday, May 15, 2015      7 comments

Yesterday was hell. Plain and simple. Big fight with the ex. He has since informed me that he is basically over me and that no one will ever love me. (He's a real gem, isn't he ladies?!) Thank goodness I had a counseling session and tal... Read more

Another Off Day

Wednesday, May 13, 2015      5 comments

I will really be happy when I have less of these. I do notice they directly relate to interactions with the ex, so...I'm doing my best to limit those interactions right now. He's not making it easy. Tonight is my night without the kids...... Read more

Progress. Finally!

Tuesday, May 12, 2015      4 comments

I did make it a point to leave early today so I could stop by my doctor's office and weigh in. It's been a couple weeks since I've checked in. My last doctor's appointment was actually April 22nd. At that appointment I was back up to 458.2 an... Read more

Mother's Day Weekend

Monday, May 11, 2015      7 comments

Well, it went better than I expected. Did I eat some not great things? Sure. Did I overindulge? Maybe a little. But did I make some smart decisions as well? Yep. The truth is, I was really nervous about telling my mother what was happ... Read more

Failing...

Thursday, May 07, 2015      10 comments

Gah! I'm so SICK of falling apart at night! It started yesterday at lunch. Lovely coworker thought it was nice to bring us some Wendy's Frosty treats. SUPER nice! Super not what I needed. Not to mention, it was a large, and though I tr... Read more

M4:W2:D4 - Ready to Plan

Wednesday, May 06, 2015      3 comments

Three days in a row of blogging and logging my food! NSV FTW! So the past two days have been crap as far as calories are concerned. Spark puts my calorie goals at 2130-2480. My doctor put my calorie goals at 1800. I've been above both. ... Read more

M4:W2:D3

Tuesday, May 05, 2015      3 comments

So, day 2 of blogging! It's a start, right? Yesterday was rough. I had one of my "hungry" days and fought really hard to fight against it. And then my coworkers invited me out to dinner and it all went to hell. Two ciders and 4 chicken ... Read more

Life Changes

Monday, May 04, 2015      8 comments

Ugh. So, I'm going to warn you that you won't find warm fuzzies here. In fact, I'm writing this blog more for me than anything else. I'm not going into a ton of detail (or I might), but I need to keep track of the journey in organize my head.... Read more

M2:W2 Update

Friday, March 06, 2015      5 comments

Well, here we are. One week done with month two. Just two more weeks until weigh-in. Thankfully, I've talked my doctor into letting me weigh in weekly by myself at the office so I can keep track of how I'm doing. Today was weigh-in day. ... Read more


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