I was under the impression that there was a prepaid funeral service that was going to be used for Matthew. I found out yesterday that's not the case. However, my mothers "husband" made it clear he's paying for this.
Then he bitches becaus... Read more
I've gone out running for the past two days. Each day ended early, but it is getting better.
The first day my whole body hurt. I don't do pain, so I stopped.
Today, I was okay, but then I started to cramp. When the cramping spread... Read more
It was difficult, but necessary.
Lee realized how hard it all was on me, and let me have my space Sunday morning. He didn't do anything to make me feel obligated to do anything I wasn't okay doing. After I went for a run and cried my eyes... Read more
On Monday, Chris called. His mother died.
Chris and I have been good friends for almost 20 years now. I've actually lost count. I guess I met him when Adrienne was 1, and she's 18 now, so 17 years. We dated for about a year, but that d... Read more
Yesterday was a tough day. Lee went to help a friend move. That's not the problem. I am glad he was able to help out.
The problem was him coming home drunk. Rather, him driving his truck home drunk.
I asked him outright about i... Read more
I just don't seem to be getting anywhere. And I know why.
I'm not doing what I need to do.
Yes, last week was an extreme challenge. Between Lee and my daughter fighing, and overtime... I actually ended up with a couple of days of... Read more
It's almost 1am. I was asleep, but suddenly wide awake. Last night I couldn't fall asleep.
I'm not sure what it is that is bothering me. Oh who am I kidding. Issues at the new job. Issues at home. I just can't seem to escape them. ... Read more
It's beyond frustrating.
I have finally faced that I am struggling with it, but it just doesn't seem to go away.
I guess when I'm stressed out, it is so much stronger than normal.
Tonight its ice cream. I want some. I want l... Read more
I'm feeling a little overwhelmed today. A couple of reasons why.
The first is actually more likely a symptom of being so overwhelmed. I'm not 100% sure what's caused it, but it could be a little bit of everything. I'm home sick from work... Read more