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Sorry - emotional mess my mind is in right now.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011      2 comments

I am still working on the STOP. SMILE. IT'LL GET BETTER. thing today. I'm not going to stop. But I'm finding my mood swings are getting a little nuts, so I'm here to try and write them out. One minute I'm grinning and at peace. The ne... Read more
Just a quick update
Wednesday, September 14, 2011      3 comments

Y'all know I'll be back blogging a few times today. I need to blog to keep my sanity today... STOP IT. SMILE. IT'LL BE OKAY. That's my mantra for today. Anytime thoughts I do not want to get caught up in sneak into my consciousness... Read more
Okay, I need some advice - personal stuff
Tuesday, September 13, 2011      7 comments

Okay, if you don't already know, I'm pretty sure what has caused my knight in shining armour to disappear recently. Now the person left in his place? I have no idea who he is. Drugs. I think Terry's back on drugs. Anyhow, earlier toda... Read more
Wow. Just had the "ah ha!" moment again
Tuesday, September 13, 2011      8 comments

I think I know what's wrong with Terry. Drugs. I've always known he does pot. But I just found out he's done much harder stuff too. And his behaviour is telling me he might be back into it. It explains so much. Why he's pu... Read more
I am beyond getting lost in emotional mind right now...
Tuesday, September 13, 2011      4 comments

I need to practice grounding exercisess. And other mindfulness tools to help ground me and help me through this. I see my pink hard hat I feel the chair underneath me I smell .. not sure. Something is there, but I can't identify it ri... Read more
Not sure if I'm coming back yet or not...
Tuesday, September 13, 2011      5 comments

I have some online access again. But I don't know if I feel like coming back yet. I am so sad. The loss of my friend and the way he passed has hit me hard. Even harder because Terry was never there for me. Instead, he pulled away. Ju... Read more
Will be offline for a while
Friday, September 09, 2011      11 comments

A very good friend of mine died yesterday. Massive heart attack. He was a wonderful person. Always had a smile for everyone. So the first thing I did when I found out was text Terry. No answer. I texted a few other friends to help dist... Read more
More working through this mess I call a mind ... emotional stuff you may want to skip
Thursday, September 08, 2011      7 comments

Okay. Today I've got kids on my mind. I'll finally admit it. It's been weighing heavily there for a few weeks. I've been having symptoms. I know it. I also know they are PMS symptoms as well, so... I cracked and bought a test. ... Read more
My 200 Day Challenge - Day 160 ... or T Minus 40 Days
Thursday, September 08, 2011      2 comments

I know. I have been way off track. Worst was the month of August. Too many changes. My mental health tanked. I was overwhelmed by my goals, etc. But I`m not giving up. I can`t. Ready or not, the race is still fast approaching. ... Read more
Today's Kick in the Butt ...
Wednesday, September 07, 2011      7 comments

Panic is setting in. I am tapering for my marathon starting October 2. So I have between now and Oct 2 - that's 3 1/2 weeks - to put the miles on. No matter what, I'm crossing that finish line in San Francisco. That I know. But I'd lo... Read more
Lots of Personal stuff ... you may want to skip this one.
Wednesday, September 07, 2011      5 comments

I know some of you who have been following my personal blogs as well as my fitness blogs know about Terry and what's going on there. And many have expressed their concerns. First off, don't worry about telling me what you honestly think. ... Read more
Today ... over reacting this weekend and setting a goal for this week.
Tuesday, September 06, 2011      5 comments

I had to fix my roots this weekend. Turns out I went even lighter blonde. It's all over lighter this time too. The salon had trouble lightening my hair last time - I was dying it very dark brown for years. But it was lighter when we were don... Read more
Just a quick check in... and some news...
Sunday, September 04, 2011      5 comments

I've been enjoying my week off. Went to Saskatoon on Thursday. Met Terry's cousin. Also went dancing. The guys were not much for dancing, but I enjoyed it. Then we went and did some stuff for the guys. Terry's cousin Russ told me a f... Read more
Today's Kick in the Butt...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011      14 comments

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Things that make me happy
Monday, August 29, 2011      5 comments

Seeing the numbers on the scale drop Watching the inches on the tape measure drop Feeling I did all I could that day to reach my goal tomorrow. Crossing the finish line. Feeling I reached a new goal Achieving a personal best. Being ... Read more

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