feeling like a complete waste of skin today...
Had nightmares last night. The worst ones are the ones you wake up to realize they are real. Okay, they are still stretched beyond belief, but the basics are really happening in your life, or have happened.
I know it's a symptom of PTSD... Read more
Got on the Scale today ...
First time since |Dec 31, 2009. Then I weighed 199.8lbs. Just under 200. Yippee!
However, this year has been the year from hell. Just read my blogs! I haven't been eating well, running, tracking my food, anything. I was worried I woul... Read more
Well, first week of the new job is done. It is okay. The equipment is almost too old to work on, but I'm making it work. Like the people I work with. Even the boss is a good guy to talk to. Everyone is so busy. No one seems to have the tim... Read more
Okay, so things with my friend are getting stranger and stranger. This morning before I left for work I decided again I needed to move out. Then I get a text from him asking me to stay. What gives with this guy? I just don't get it. Anyhow,... Read more
Well, its a beautiful day out today. Some bad news though. In the small town I'm living now, a motorcycle rider was killed yesterday. Never met him, however I just met his girlfriend. It's such a shame.
Aside from that, my "friend" I ... Read more
Well, I am feeling pretty good today. I applied for quite a few jobs online yesterday in Saskatchewan. I was honest with each application. I am living 8 hours away and am relocating. Well, yesterday I got an email back within the hour. From... Read more
Well, for anyone who has been following my life over this past year...
I am slowly healing. This past weekend I went to Edmonton to dance for the weekend. Had a lot of fun. I was getting text messages from John. Not a problem. He wants... Read more
This Weekends Dance Competition...
There was a dance competition in Edmonton this past weekend - River City Dance Festival. With John kicking me out, and Bruce needing my van back I had to return to Calgary on Tuesday this past week. Well, I decided to see if I could take in th... Read more
Well, the crash came. Last Sunday. I am no longer living in where I was. It is over. No talking about it. No discussing what is really going on. Just leave. I packed up the next day and left. It has been hard, but I am not at all surpris... Read more
Well, I'm living in limbo right now. Things at home are great. I have noticed, the better things are going, the harder the crash when John decides to loose it. I am just waiting for his next tantrum. At least I now am ready to just pack up a... Read more
Well, not much to update. Not fighting anymore. That's a good thing. However, I'm not really sure why. Maybe we are just getting past the rough stages we need to get through. We are actually getting along well again. Kind of nice. I miss ... Read more
Feeling kinda lost. Things not getting any better really. I mean, they kind of are, but not really. The fighting has stopped. There is still no talking. I mean real talking. I have more meaninful conversations with friends. But at least t... Read more
What a weekend. I really don't know what to say about it.
On Thursday, John and I had a HUGE fight. He actually kicked me out. It was a brutal one. No real reason other than stress. When all was said and done, it was decided we would p... Read more
Harvest is in full swing around here these days. Farmers who were able to get their crops in are having record yields. Many could not get the crops in - it was so wet for so long. Now trying to get them off the wet soggy fields...
Going ... Read more
He came home late last night. I missed him so much. He actually missed me too. It's looking like he will be home tonight again. The work where they have to stay at the hotel is finished for now. They have a little more to do there - about 2 ... Read more
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