Well, I survived my night alone with the dog at the house. Yesterday morning I told John we need to talk, especially if we are going to be apart. I need him to tell me how he feels. This morning, when I told him I missed him, I got a smiley f... Read more
Saturday, Sunday, and Monday...
Saturday August 14, 2010
What a crazy week. Been busy. Also been crying – a lot. I really don’t know what I am going to do. I love him so much. I am starting to believe he will never love me – or even care about me – half as much. It ... Read more
I did make a mistake...
For anyone who has been following, I now know 100% that I made a mistake.
I had to run to calgary this past weekend. I actually ended up driving all night saturday night to get back to see him on sunday. the minute I walked in, he left.... Read more
Am I making the biggest mistake of my life???
Okay. Time for me to be completely honest with myself.
Am I making the biggest mistake of my life
Am I throwing away things I really shouldn't?
I don't think so. There was nothing there for so long. We tried. It didn't work. It ... Read more
Today, and into this weekend...
Well, the weekend is almost here. Got plans for this one. Going to Calgary to get some stuff, inclluding my dog. I sure do miss him. Also going to pick up my computer. I don`t mind borrowing this one, but it would be nice to have mine back ... Read more
I'm having a stressful day today. The person I met last week at the cafe is pushing relationship type of stuff. I told him I want to be friends. It's looking like I may just end up not responding to his messages soon. I already have enough o... Read more
I still don't get it. I guess I never really will.
Some guys have so much trouble admitting how they feel, even to themselves forget out loud to someone else. Why do they find those three little words so hard to say? Actually, even more ... Read more
I have had the strangest thing happen this weekend. I was working. I am waitressing at a small cafe in a small town near where I live now. There were some customers that I was just enjoying seeing every day. You know how it is - you get some... Read more
Small Stone of the Week - August 1-7, 2010
My goals this week are:
- eat 5 or more servings of freggies per day.
- record everything I eat, even if I have to do it on paper.
I know. Very small goals. However, I have found tracking my food to be very difficult. Not being ab... Read more
Got a chance to get back online today, so I figured today is as good as any to update my blogs.
We had a fight yesterday morning. Not very good. I get he is stressed. I don't mind people getting angry. However, don't take it out on me. ... Read more
More changes to come...
Sorry I've been away so long. Still on the move. Right now living without internet, cell phone, tv. At least there is warm water - when I take the time to relight the pilot light on the water heater...
Looking like I will be moving to th... Read more
Today - healing up nicely
Well my bruises are healing nicely. If you are wondering what bruises, check out yesterdays blog.
I spent this past weekend dealing with a flooded basement. Unfortunately it's full of water again now. Filled up as soon as we left. Going ba... Read more
It's been a painful week ...
Well, I have been in a lot of pain this week. Just over a week ago now, I was in a motorcycle accident. Someone cut me off and slammed on the brakes. I was trying to steer around them, when I accidentally locked my front brake. Needless to s... Read more
Talk about a roller coaster. It's up again right now.
I got away on Sunday and drove to see him. He was at work, and we had to be very careful. Company policy is that I am not supposed to visit him. However, he spoke to his boss, and ... Read more
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I am so lost right now. The only thing I know is that I am not doing well. I haven't showered in 3 days. I am slipping into a depression. It has completely tapped my ability to take care of myself, in almost every way. Right now, I don't b... Read more