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Do I need therapy?
Saturday, October 28, 2017      1 comments

I told someone that they put me in a position that made me uncomfortable and that I felt I'd let things go to far. To which they responded that I need to see a therapist because nothing I did was wrong or bad. Now I wonder who is right.... Read more
Personal Questions
Sunday, July 02, 2017      2 comments

Today I was just wondering how often we honestly think about the personal questions we ask each other. 1. Do we know the person well enough to have a right to ask? 2. Have we thought about the situation? 3. Are we projecting our own issues to an... Read more
Wednesday, January 11, 2017      1 comments

1. What in my life needs changed? 2. What steps do I need to take to make such changes happen? 3. Who is on my support team and can I trust them? 4. What is it going to take to climb out of this rut? 5. Should I even try or should I just work on... Read more
Dark poem
Tuesday, August 23, 2016      0 comments

Late nights spent with you Hours thrown away Promises made Dreams dreamed For what When does reality begin Where does fantasy end Aching heart longing for acceptance Bruised soul yearning for connection Feeling utterly alone Walk a mile in my ... Read more
Random thoughts
Saturday, December 05, 2015      2 comments

I have this friend and I use that term loosely who at times can be a huge support and full of good. At other times they do things like tonihht where they say we can't really be froends because we seem to have nothing in common. I wish they would... Read more
Thursday, October 22, 2015      2 comments

I am beginning to think I can't trust myself when it comes to decisions about my own life. I have this friend who unfortunately wants more than mere froendship or at least that seems to be the goal at the moment. I on the other hand am not in a... Read more
Thursday, June 18, 2015      2 comments

I think I'm feeling worn out! For about a year and a half I've been concerned about my brother. He has a brain tumor and has had 2 surgeries and a gamma knife procedure done on his head. They seem to think that this is the last hope so it had be... Read more
Sunday, November 30, 2014      1 comments

Some super random thought inside my slightly twisted mind. Family, siblings emotion sucking leeches jackhammers to the heart rubble left in their wake pieces, not a whole M relationships poisoned bands are shackles to y... Read more
Friday, June 13, 2014      0 comments

I hate waiting... waiting lets your mind run wild. It lets you imagine the worst. It lets all the what can be parts try to create in you a picture of your worst fears realized. A part of me wishes that July was here and gone because then I'd k... Read more
mixed emotions
Friday, November 01, 2013      3 comments

I know I'm being very childish and yet I can't see to change the wide set of emotions I'm feeling. There is someone I know that's going through something awful and here I am angry with them. I sort of feel like due to the "bad hand" they've be... Read more
Tuesday, September 17, 2013      0 comments

Something written after hearing some bad news I lie awake Life wants to attack It's sneaking quietly it surrounds No escape! Questions fill my mind Why? When? Will my heart shatter? Future so dim Choices made live... Read more
Saying Goodbye to Misty
Sunday, August 25, 2013      2 comments

It's been a rough few days around here. I had started to wonder if something was wrong with our cat but she seemed ok just kind of annoyed with us but that wasn't all that unusual because when she was getting into things and getting scolded she... Read more
Plans for tomorrow
Friday, May 03, 2013      0 comments

First thing in the morning blood tests for the insurance paperwork. Followed by coming home and getting on the phone with HR to see if they have finally fixed my birthdate. I honestly don't know how it ever ended up recorded incorrectly but ma... Read more
Tuesday, April 30, 2013      2 comments

I've been feeling really alone. I know it's not something new because when I've been living in this place I've always felt alone. The lyrics to Love Me says "who will love me for me not for what I have done or what I will become" and there ar... Read more
Wednesday, March 06, 2013      4 comments

Today, well technically yesterday since it's after midnight, was my birthday. I've felt really down about it. I mean there is no reason I should but lately birthdays are just plain depressing. They just remind me that I'm so far from any of my... Read more

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