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Thursday, February 19, 2015      5 comments

I don't know what to do anymore. I have been trying so hard to get pregnant. I thought I was pregnant this month, but I'm not. I really want to get pregnant and have a baby. I don't understand why it is taking so long.... Read more


Wednesday, January 21, 2015      1 comments

I don't really know what to do or say. I am almost numb. Last night, I saw the therapist for the first time in a month. It was quite intense. I'm still reeling from it today. During the session, I was rubbing my thumb against my keys because I w... Read more

Back to Work

Friday, January 09, 2015      4 comments

Well, we had a 2 hour delay today, so I was able to go into work for a little while. But, I put one girl out for throwing things, being disruptive, and being excessively disrespectful to me. Then, in the afternoon, I had problems with another gi... Read more

Another snow day

Thursday, January 08, 2015      5 comments

Well, I'm at home for the second day this week. School started up Monday. But, we have had 2 snow days and a 2 hour delay since Tuesday, and the news is saying the cold temps will last for 48 hours. But, at least I got out of going to workshop m... Read more

Unsure what's going on

Tuesday, January 06, 2015      6 comments

I really can't seem to shake this "blah" mood I'm in. My thoughts are really dark. For example, today I actually thought about causing a car accident because the car behind me was following me too closely. I was going about 25 mph and the roads ... Read more


Monday, January 05, 2015      1 comments

I don't really know what happened. I've been in a foul mood since Saturday evening. For the first time in months, I've thought about cutting. Grandpa's birthday is coming up soon. He would have been 85. I just can't stop thinking about him. I've... Read more

Dear Grandpa

Saturday, January 03, 2015      1 comments

Dear Grandpa, In a little over a week we will be celebrating your 85th birthday. However, this will be the 3rd birthday you have missed. To celebrate your birthday, the Bucks are playing in the national championship game. Mom is having a ga... Read more


Wednesday, December 31, 2014      3 comments

Christmas was a blast! I spent Christmas day with my hubby's family and then ended with my grandma. Then, the day after Christmas, I went to my parents and saw my siblings, nephews, nieces (including my week old niece), aunt, uncle, and grandma.... Read more


Sunday, December 21, 2014      1 comments

So, I am not really sure what's going on. I should be on my cycle right now, I've spotted a few times, but the flow hasn't started. I've been spotting for about 4 days, but not every day. I'm still wondering if I'm pregnant. But, the pregnancy t... Read more

This week

Thursday, December 18, 2014      2 comments

Well, I have been secretly hoping against all hope that I am pregnant despite a negative pregnancy test. I kept telling myself that I took it too soon. But, I finished the pills that make me have a cycle yesterday. My cycle started this afternoo... Read more


Sunday, December 14, 2014      2 comments

This weekend has been horrible for my calories. Friday, when I went outside to return to work from lunch (I came home for lunch), my car wouldn't start. So, my hubby drove me to work and then picked me up when I was finished. We spent most of Sa... Read more

Merry Christmas

Thursday, December 11, 2014      5 comments

I went Christmas shopping today. Although, I spent more than I intended on, I got gifts for my son and niece that will be born tomorrow (C-section). Work was a breeze because I took the morning off so I could take my husband to the dentist first... Read more

Update from Yesterday

Sunday, December 07, 2014      3 comments

Well, I took the pregnancy test this morning, and I am not pregnant, as I thought. I started the pills to begin my cycle today. I will be taking fertility pills as soon as I have a cycle, so I will hopefully be pregnant soon.... Read more

This Week

Saturday, December 06, 2014      3 comments

This has been a tough week for weightloss. I kind of lost my focus this week. I have been doing well for about a month now, but I splurged a lot this week. When I weigh in on Monday, I will probably have gained a couple of lbs. But, I'm determin... Read more


Sunday, November 30, 2014      4 comments

I have had a very busy week this week. Thanksgiving was really nice! We went to my in-laws on Thanksgiving for dinner. We had a nice spread and good family time. We went down Wednesday evening and returned home around 7 Thanksgiving night. The m... Read more

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