On falling backwards, food anxiety, setting goals, and trusting yourself
It's been awhile, friends. I've had some pretty intense epiphanies, but backstories are required. I'll try to be concise, try to bear with me:
My last blog, two years ago, detailed my physical issues eating because of TMD (i.e., lock-jaw). ... Read more
workouts, TMD, and self-esteem
...man, it's been almost 3 months since my last blog!
I'm sorry I've been so quiet, but I promise I have good reasons! I still am learning about time management as a new teacher, so I find most of my time near the computer has been spent p... Read more
Prelim is turned in. Next hurdle: to drop a dress size!
I turned in my prelim! A day early at that!
I have to confess- today was a *terrible* eating day for me. I added "for me", because I'm pretty sure it would be considered a normal day by the general population. After I turned in copies of m... Read more
A crazy week ahead
So my written prelim is due in 7 days (I swear, I just heard "7 days" in Samara's voice from The Ring...*shudders*). If I don't pass, I'm immediately removed from the program. So, that being said, I'm going to be spending a lot of time refining... Read more
Tonight's class was AWESOME. My foot held up astonishingly well, I only had to modify one of the moves that we did, and the trainer made sure that I still absolutely felt the burn.
It feels so good to be in group workouts again, I am remin... Read more
Your body is only one thing that changes.
So I injured myself running this weekend. I'm not sure how I did it, or what is wrong, but I'm spending my evening with my right leg elevated, alternating cold/warm compresses.
I almost fell down the stairs while trying to navigate them... Read more
Apologies, tonight's post is going to be a long disjointed one. It could be because for the past 3 days I've pulled 10-14 hour workdays, or it could be because the weather here has been so dreary (and yes, I'm in Florida, and no, I don't know wh... Read more
I'm a Sparkpeople success story?
Yesterday morning I received an email from Sparkpeople, asking if they could include me as one of their success stories.
I had a very mixed response to it.
On one hand, I was extremely flattered and proud. I've been on here for a lon... Read more
Well, my size 10 pants are feeling snug. This was a downer because a year ago, this same style/size pant used to feel far too loose after wearing them for just a few hours, so I reserved them for when my size 8s were dirty. Now my size 8s don't ... Read more
I did my first half-marathon yesterday. I was terrified. Thanks to the flu, my fitness center closing, and the weather being all kinds of freaky in the past month, I had only gone out running 3 times in the month before the race. To make matters... Read more
Picking up the pieces
Well, I feel like I've lost all the headway I'd gained in my journey to having healthy self-esteem.
In November, my relationship ended. It was the first breakup in a long time where I wasn't the one initiating the break-up, and it was the ... Read more
A rough night.
This entry is going to be a little bit darker in tone than my usual posts, which I try to avoid because I don't want to send negative messages to newer people who may stumble upon this little speck of the interwebz, but I also hope that it helps... Read more
Conquering the salad mentality.
Something strange and lovely happened to me last week. I was minding my own business, procrastinating on Facebook, and I got a message from a girl who lives in a completely different city than me. We had no mutual friends, there was literally no... Read more
some clean eating fridge/pantry staples
Whenever I tell people I try to eat clean, they do one of two things:
a) blankly stare at me while probably envisioning me violently scrubbing all my food before consumption
b) tell me I must spend a lot of money of food.
Regar... Read more
Some hard realizations...
So as I mentioned in my last entry, I went to visit/meet my boyfriend's family last week. And as I had feared, we ended up encountering his ex girlfriend. This encounter made me realize some pretty important things.
I'm secure in my relati... Read more