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I might go insane....
Sunday, August 12, 2012      4 comments

My granny's Alzheimer's is making me crazy. I can't handle it. I cracked today and kept screaming at her. I was so mad that she was getting in my face. Now I am just angry and quiet. I am sooo upset and angry. I might be going insane.... Read more
Alzheimer's Eating problems
Saturday, August 11, 2012      1 comments

Basically my granny has Alzheimer's and I am her caregiver while my mom is at work for the summer before I leave for Japan. I struggle when it comes to trying to take care of her. Today I came in the kitchen and she was eating out of container... Read more
I cheated =/
Tuesday, July 31, 2012      2 comments

I did bad yesterday. Those days happen and I have to just forget it and move ahead. Oh well. Today I think I will try to go for an evening walk with the dog again. Super enjoys it... I just keep praying he won't poop the whole walk... D:... Read more
I felt so silly.
Sunday, July 29, 2012      2 comments

Well I am feeling better then I did last blog. I basically realized I miss read the package of my favorite rice. I mean it still is high calorie, but I can rest a little easier knowing I read it wrong. I read the uncooked portions instead of the... Read more
Really Hard
Thursday, July 26, 2012      4 comments

I am not doing so hot on wanting to follow this. I basically am wanting to quit again. I don't want to look like this anymore though. I don't want to get diabetes like my family. I want to live a happy healthier life. I still want to enjoy tasty... Read more
Death of my pet
Saturday, September 17, 2011      5 comments

I feel like crap... I want to eat loads of ice cream. I feel sad for the other pets :( My cat Lucky laid by his body when I came down stairs... I don't know if he wanted to eat him or get me to see him. He never bothered the fish and my pets a... Read more
Convention #1
Monday, September 05, 2011      0 comments

First one is out of the way. Hopefully after this I can cut back for a bit till I go to NDK. The next con I hope for less fatty foods. Usually when I visit my cousins it is easier to not eat horrible foods as much. Though they eat out a lot, but... Read more
Break... Sort of....
Saturday, September 03, 2011      0 comments

I am planning to wait till college to officially start everything. My boyfriend and friends are visiting and I have 2 conventions in a row. My mom dislikes the watching what we eat... So I am going to basically have a hiatus till college. :(... Read more
Restaurants :(
Sunday, August 28, 2011      0 comments

I am wondering why is it that all restaurants are almost all calorie heavy. I have made delicious salmon, stir-fries, and etc for way less then these restaurants are giving. You can get small portions that are ridiculously high calories. Or the... Read more
Wednesday, August 24, 2011      3 comments

I am still wondering if I should change my goal. I am wanting to lose 1.68 pounds a week just so my goal ends on my birthday. I want to pig out on that day. 21st birthday with close friends at a Red Robin with my favorite meal and my first alcoh... Read more
Sunday, August 21, 2011      0 comments

Effort To do anything takes it I put it in some of my work and not others One working out Next day art work Everyday watching my food and relationship Makes me tired All this effort.... Read more
What can one actually do?
Saturday, August 20, 2011      0 comments

I don't know what to do... People say we don't act like a couple. I don't want us to be apart. He is tired of my worrying. I am tired of him not understanding. I want him to show he cares more. He says he does love me. I love you, ... Read more
Fun Day :)
Friday, August 19, 2011      0 comments

Well today was an amazing day! emoticon It started off feeling crummy due to lack of sleep. Something was bugging... Read more
Wednesday, August 17, 2011      0 comments

Basically after talking with my family I got the go ahead that I could buy some food to make recipes. I made a broccoli and chicken casserole with parmesan zucchini. It was interesting. Zucchini tasted great, but the casserole was lacking someth... Read more
Tuesday, August 16, 2011      0 comments

emoticon I am wishing that my family would be more supportive or understanding. Whenever I mention my diet or that... Read more