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Whole30 Day 5 (3.1) SUGAR DETOX DAY
Saturday, July 30, 2016      1 comments

It came late for me. Word on the street is, the worse you treat yourself pre-Whole30 the longer it takes for the crash to come and the harder it is when it arrives. I abused myself pretty heavily to handle the month of July which was my first (v... Read more
Short entry: Whole 30 day 3 (or day 1.1)
Thursday, July 28, 2016      2 comments

Notes on my progress: I woke up easily this morning I am nevertheless physically tired I had a big happy breakfast but less than an hour later I am experiencing something that I am pretty sure is hunger I have been miraculously fre... Read more
Whole30: Day 2, a screw up and a near miss
Thursday, July 28, 2016      0 comments

Day two I am not yet feeling the full withdrawals of the program (oh but I will) however while happily munching on my salad tonight I thought it needed more kick and only after adding more craisins (dumping them, really) did I wonder how such a ... Read more
Where to start?
Sunday, July 24, 2016      2 comments

Where to start? When I turned 21 I began paying dues on a legal trust cooperatively managed by my paternal family. In laymenís terms, I partially own a non-operational two hundred-year-old Farmhouse on 600 acres of land in Massachusetts. It... Read more
Cranky beginnings: Whole 30
Tuesday, July 19, 2016      1 comments

Of late I have been eating cakes, sweets, milkshakes, ice creams and other similar desserts. I have been consuming these multiple times in the day, sometimes for breakfast. When I'm not inhaling dessert I'm shoveling cheeses, white bread rolls, ... Read more
Cranky beginnings for a "wellness journey"
Sunday, July 17, 2016      0 comments

I am ornery and it ain't cute* in the least. I want to do some kind of combination of extreme sport mixed with competitive eating. Either one is a form of self-harm and it takes a lot of jittery resentment to sit in a chair and write instead. ... Read more
Whatdidja get for Christmas? Fat :) I got fat! (and I regret nothing!)
Sunday, December 27, 2015      2 comments

The me in the mirror full of vim, vigor, and chipper one-liners exercises for the sheer love of it. She likes to get coated in a gruesome slick of sweat and pant like the Hulk or some other raw and masculine super hero. She is visceral and vivi... Read more
What if I am just always fat and sad? 12/11/15
Friday, December 11, 2015      4 comments

Biking home today, only my forth ride of the week when I usually ride ten, I thought What if this is how I am? I've been trying to lose weight since I was eight years old. I've been melancholy and prone to depression since fourteen. Maybe I wil... Read more
Depression and healthy living 12/9/15
Wednesday, December 09, 2015      1 comments

My depression is inert. It is not so that I want to lay around motionless and numb, it is that I don't want anything. I lack. I stop. I could stop eating but I don't. I sit and push food at my face--no, not food. Ingredients. Items. Never m... Read more
December 7, 2015 endurance
Monday, December 07, 2015      0 comments

My last post was titled Breakdown Imminent. I had a few nights of ugly crying and a few zombie days of blank staring. I gained some weight and got a rash of migraines. It's not over but part of overcoming is to endure, to get through this wor... Read more
Breakdown imminent, 11/24/15
Tuesday, November 24, 2015      4 comments

Without hyperbole I can verifiably say that I am on path to a major breakdown. Work is killing me. My depression is rearing. I am letting projects slide. I am less friendly. I am disappearing. Strangely, I have lost weight but been bingeing ... Read more
I am angry, 11/19/2015 ($#@^#!!)
Thursday, November 19, 2015      9 comments

I am angry. I am on a bus in public and I try not to be a d!ck in closed quarters, so I am quiet about it. But I. Am. So. Angry. I am angry with the well-meaning condescending canned "information" that I am being fed. 1) anyone overweight is ... Read more
Windy has stormy eyes that flash at the sound of lies! 11/18/15
Wednesday, November 18, 2015      1 comments

Gorgeous weather today, children. 25mph winds with a warm undercurrent and splashes of rain. Bluster and splatter. Puddlestomping weather. I had a bad ... Read more
When success is as scary as failure, 11/17/15
Tuesday, November 17, 2015      3 comments

November two big things. The first is National Novel Writing Month. My goal is 50,000 words in a month which means at least 1667 words a day. And for el... Read more
Morning routine, 11/12/2015
Thursday, November 12, 2015      3 comments

My alarm goes off at 6AM with a jolly, tinkling set of bells that my dead-asleep husband rarely hears. I snooze it three times before maybe turning it of... Read more

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