So my son was diagnosed with Autism at the beginning of 2014. (Would have been Aspergers if the term was still being used.) I had suspected it for a while, so it wasn't a huge surprise. I had started to learn some things about it, but began a... Read more
It seems like I do this quite a lot. I try, I fail, I start over. Then I try I fail and I start over. Somewhere I get discouraged, give up for a while, and then feel the desire to try again. Then the stresses of life take over and it feels t... Read more
There are times, when I'm laying in bed, or just sort of daydreaming, that I wonder what it would be like to be at the end of my weight loss journey instead of at the beginning. What would it feel like? What would I be doing? And so I though... Read more
I have always had an easy time forgiving other people who have hurt me. I may feel pain for a short time, but I let it go. And by the next time I see them, I treat them as though nothing ever happened. I guess I don't like to hold on to those... Read more
Victory over negative Thinking
I struggle so much with an anxiety disorder, that really seems to attract negative thinking about myself. I let myself wander into the "What if's" about everything. And I often come to conclusions that are way over the top, that cause me to wo... Read more
BLC 21 Here I come
So it is the night before a new BLC challenge. I'm both excited and nervous.
I'm excited because it means new friends, new challenges, a lot of support on my journey and new expectations. I'm excited because in my mind I can see mysel... Read more
A New Year A New Me
I was struggling with my emotional thinking, stresses and excuses so much that I decided to take a break for a few months from my journey to work more on my emotional health. I knew I could never succeed at the weight loss until I did so. The ... Read more
I have known for a while that I am addicted to food and to TV. It is where I run when life is hard. Because it is much easier to be lazy, to sit in front of the TV and eat, pretending you don't have to deal with your stress or pain. It is muc... Read more
The Future Me
So for a BLC challenge we were asked to Blog about how we see ourselves in the future so....
I will be around 125 pounds which will put me at a healthy BMI. I will wear around a size 8. I will feel strong, and happy, and feel great joy... Read more
Well Week 1 of BLC 19 is over, and I had an amazing week.
First of all, I got 203 minutes of exercise which exceeded my goal by 53 minutes. So maybe I don't have to move up as slowly as I listed in my goals. I will readjust and set my g... Read more
BLC 19 Goals
Since I'm finally realizing this journey is about me, I am going to make this plan for me.
Cardio - I want to set a goal and then just increase it by 5 to 10 minutes each week I may easily surpass those numbers, or it might be difficult. ... Read more
Not Fitting In
So when I take a shower it is sort of my quiet "me" time away from everything else. I often do my most deep thinking. I often reach conclusions and understandings that I may have not thought about before. With BLC 19 starting and a weekend ... Read more
Letting Myself and others Down
I have been doing some thinking lately, and realized that I am always so worried about letting people down. And if I don't accomplish what I think they are expecting of me, I feel I have to have some excuse for why I let them down. I'm so afra... Read more
Time to fight back!
I have started so many challenges. I start strong, but by the 3rd or 4th week I let the old habits back in, and then I pretty much give up until the end of the challenge. I might still post the minimum requirements, or try to do one or two thi... Read more
I have struggled and struggled with weight loss. I have thought about why I fail, and spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself. But then I would go through cycle after cycle trying, failing, giving up, feeling down for a while, and then tr... Read more