Happy Who I Am
I find myself gaining more and more strength these days. I am not perfect, perhaps I have accepted that, but I can feel myself becoming more empowered. Today, I walked to the bank and the store alone, and I usually look at every person with susp... Read more
I Feel Amazing!
I feel great! I have found the most wonderful house in the perfect location at a good price, I'm about to have money to live on a gain, I have a new job, and I look at myself with respect and love instead of shame and guilt. I forgot who I was u... Read more
Getting better...Wonderfully better!!
As for my weight, I've made GREAT strides there. I'm finally way more comfortable with myself, I've started dressing up like I used to in high school, and I get comments and crushes now like I did when I was 98 pounds a year ago. I have slight p... Read more
I got a kitten!!!!!!! When I lost my cat of eleven years right before I left for college, I lost everything. I had been kept inside and away from the world my whole life, my brothers left when I was five, and my mother was never exactly sympathe... Read more
I'm Ready. I'm Truly Ready.
This is what I posted tonight on my EDA forum:
"I am finally ready to stop thinking that I have to be SUPER skinny to be desirable. I want to be healthy, feel better, and feel like I am at my best, and phooey on anyone who thinks I'm not su... Read more
I Ate Today!!!
Good news!! I actually ate three meals today, and had no urge to chew it without swallowing. I think my body went into preservation mode, and told my brain, "Uh, hello?? I actually need FOOD!" I didn't track my calories today, for fear that it w... Read more
I Love This Site.
I finally finished my finals in Engineering today. I hate that major. They expect me to take 18 hours of EXTREMELY hard classes next semester on top of getting a job in design, renting a two-story house by myself, and commuting to college. I wil... Read more
Soooo...my days get more interesting by the minute. I finally told my mom what I really want to do with my life, Interior Design (see previous blogs), and she was horrified! I'm currently working on an Electrical Engineering degree, pushed on me... Read more
Unsure, But Getting There
Well, my calorie count was horrible today, but I've vowed not to let it get that low again. 379. Too scary for my taste. But, this summer, I'll be away from all of the stupidity of college dorm life, and I'll be truly where I want to be, so that... Read more
Well, to begin, after I graduated from high school, I decided to go on a diet. Another one. All my life, I'd been taught to count calories, eat no sugar, no bread, etc, otherwise my weight would be chastised. Well, when I went on that diet, I be... Read more
I am a college student majoring in Electrical Engineering. My whole family is happy about it (notice I didn't say proud) and they are content to let me sit until they need money. All my life, I've been told who I am, what I want, what I like, an... Read more
Well, a few of my favorite things are as follows:
My favorite movie is American Beauty because I love the introspection it entails and I like to use it to look at myself more objectively.
I don't have a favorite song, really, but if I ... Read more
A Little History
Well, I've been told that the key to weight loss is honesty with one's self, so I'll write a little bit about why I feel I need to lose weight.
I've never really had a healthy self-image. As a child, I was mentally abused and extremely cont... Read more