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I Have A Fear Of Being Thin

Thursday, May 21, 2015      0 comments

I have a fear. I’d call it an irrational fear to some extent. I am scared to be thin. It is what I want the most, yet I fear it tremendously. There are several reasons for this: 1. Attention. I want more and regular attention from gu... Read more

Goal 1 - 299

Tuesday, May 19, 2015      2 comments

A couple days ago I was 307.2 lbs and had set a goal to be 299. (No specific time frame, that would just be my next small goal.) This morning I weighed in at 301.8! I have not been working out. I have just been monitoring my eating. I am tryin... Read more

Feelin' 22: Day 1 - Stepping Back in the Game

Monday, December 22, 2014      3 comments

I recently turned 21 (about a month ago). So I came up with this idea that I want to be the healthiest I've ever been in my life by 22. Subsequently, this personal challenge was created. If in the next year of doing everything in my power to be ... Read more

I Don't Think She'd Be A Good Workout Buddy...

Sunday, September 15, 2013      5 comments

My friend asked me to work out with her. I am all for working out, and I know it is always less boring with a partner, but.. She and I are not in the same place. Yeah she's out of shape and needs to lose weight, but she's already half my size... Read more

Coming Back Strong + September Goals

Monday, September 02, 2013      4 comments

My last blog was about putting in 100% of my effort and dedication, and then I completely ceased to be here. I have been in a lot of pain and could barely get out of the bed. Some nights I didn't go to sleep because of the pain. I was dizzy ofte... Read more

100% Dedication - Day 2

Wednesday, July 24, 2013      6 comments

So yesterday, my official day 1 after my post the day before, I did not exercise. Why? Because I woke up around 8pm, and that was only because my friend came over. By time she left it was 1am and I was tired again. Today, I woke up around ... Read more

100% Dedication

Monday, July 22, 2013      5 comments

I've been relatively consistent ever since coming back from my illness and injury period. I hit 301 at my last weigh in (last week on Wednesday) and desperately want to be under 300 this upcoming weigh in. In feeling how bad I want this, I... Read more

Weights And Ages At Those Weights

Sunday, July 21, 2013      6 comments

Most of these weights were taken in school during health exams in P.E. 5- Starting getting fat. No known weight. 6 - When I started noticing I was bigger than everyone else. (My son is going to be 6 in about 6 days, and I'm so thankful... Read more

Waterrrr and Getting Healthy

Monday, July 15, 2013      2 comments

Today I feel as though I have discovered water. Haha I hadn't been able to drink water for at least the last 2 weeks or so, so when I tried yesterday and I could drink it without feeling like a spiky rock was in my stomach or my throat clog... Read more

Which Weight Do You Go By?

Friday, July 05, 2013      7 comments

Your weight naked, or your weight with clothes on? Just curious as to which one is more accurate. Hope you all are doing well! emoticonRead more

Dehydrated and Can't Drink Water

Monday, July 01, 2013      7 comments

This is so frustrating. I finally went to the hospital yesterday (still no insurance, but I said what the heck, I'm dying over here). They basically just took an xray and claimed they didn't see anything. The doctor referred me to two othe... Read more

I'm Having A Weak Moment!

Wednesday, June 26, 2013      4 comments

For the last few hours, or for at least the last half of the day, I have been wanting to indulge in unhealthy foods. I have resisted all day. It is around 11pm. I am thinking of calling it a night (but I normally don't sleep until like 4am or la... Read more

All I Needed

Tuesday, June 25, 2013      2 comments

Last night, I didn't get much sleep. I let my son borrow my fan for once, because it's super hot, and we have no AC. Whatevs. I'm used to not sleeping anyways. So, anyways, I got a lot done last night. I managed to input my meals in on MFP an... Read more

How Trustworthy Is WebMD?

Sunday, June 23, 2013      8 comments

I know that NO online diagnosis is comparable to an actual in person doctor. However, I don't have insurance, I have like 4 past due medical bills, and this is the best I can do... According to web MD I have a high probability of havi... Read more

I Do Better When I Am Regularly Active On SP

Thursday, June 20, 2013      5 comments

When you see me blogging and being really active on this site, I am much more successful than when I take breaks that are 3+ days long. I haven't completely fallen off track (I've been using MFP), but I've definitely been slacking. I defin... Read more

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