Writing out what feels dynamic yet muddled
I'm floored that I haven't written *here* in so long. I've been doing a bunch of writing, but have kept it more personal, I suppose. Today, I'm not in a space I feel I can write just for me, so I'm sharing my words out loud. I may back date a... Read more
Sometimes it surprises me - I go through the motions, doing what I need to do in the days, and BOOM...time passes much more quickly than I think it does.
I had no idea I hadn't posted a blog post since April. Wow. I thought I was doing MUC... Read more
From the mouth of the babe...
I called myself an invalid tonight. "a person made weak or disabled by illness or injury." My arthritis has been starting to act up in annoying ways, and I was feeling whiney about how little energy I had to make meatballs.
My son piped up ... Read more
I really want to attempt a video blog today since I feel like I'm not going to make sense in words at all. At least a video would be something *all* of us could laugh at later. Right now, just getting words out seems difficult. I'm proud of m... Read more
Musings of the morning
I feel better when I'm blogging. Even if no one reads it, that I've taken ideas and concepts from my head and put them into written word helps validate those words and concepts. Whether they're right, wrong, yellow, blue or upside down and ba... Read more
Facing the fears...
So, I bit the bullet, embraced the panic attacks, and started Autoimmune paleo. Autoimmune paleo is paleo with no nuts, seeds, eggs or nightshades (potato, tomato). I've also been low FODMAP (onion, garlic and such). My overall fatigue seems ... Read more
Not meaning ANYTHING negative. Really. It's a really rough day, though. Days are just like that sometimes. Tomorrow will be better.
I miss my dad. He died earlier this year, so this is my first year without him. It's been a hard couple o... Read more
Time slipped away...again
Here we sit at Dec 20. My last blog date was Oct. 28. Ugh. I just keep walking through the days as I can. With the shift of the start page, I'm earning more points per month now, but that doesn't mean I'm exercising more. I want to say I'm do... Read more
I'm starting autoimmune paleo today. With the allergies I deal with, paleo is hard enough. Add in the added restrictions for autoimmune with the allergies, and I really start to feel I can't eat anything at all. I also have some active anorexia... Read more
Back to the posting again!
I had no idea it had been as long between posts as it's been. I've been trying to keep my head together, above water, and for the most part HAVE been doing alright. There have been bumps and bruises of life, but nothing to dynamic, really. Ju... Read more
walls closing in
just dark pit.
Had been climbing out
had been feeling okay
despite the pain
physical and emotional
but I wasn't climbing fast enough for another
ladder dragged into the l... Read more
Words seem lost
expectations of self
expectations felt from others
wound around and whirled
into whirring windy wheels of winsome whines
not so good
... Read more
Putting random thoughts to keyboard
To begin, here's the note I shared on FB since I didn't have access to SparkPeople during my vacation -
Some of the story of our week...
July 10, 2013 at 10:05pm
This week, we arrived in Colorado for a visit with my mom and dad. My ... Read more
tears from nowhere
lack of appetite
as much from the activity we had with others
as from the actual goodbye
probably more so
first day home
tears won't turn off
bleh... Read more
Stress? Pain. Painful stress.
I have been letting others get to me again - let my system get so stressed that I'm not able to believe in the internal strength I *do* have. I'm still sober, I haven't had to go to inpatient treatment for the depression, but life is pretty icky... Read more
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