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In my experience, this is not going well.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011      1 comments

I swear, as more and more days pass the worse and worse I feel. 24 days left until I turn 30 - which feels like utter failure in more ways than I could explain. I'm finding as the it gets closer the emotional pain just keeps growing. Doesn't hel... Read more

I don't like mother's day

Monday, May 09, 2011      2 comments

Let me explain before you go into shock at the title. There are several reasons that mother's day makes me cringe. First, I've known I wanted to be a mother since I was probably 5-6 years old, and it is the number 1 goal I've always had. Un... Read more

Life isn't fair, but it doesn't need to be downright rude!

Sunday, May 08, 2011      0 comments

Hundreds of phone calls to the radio station, a tank of gas to events giving away the tickets, and still I can't win. Yeah, winning contests isn't easy. Yeah, just because I really want these tickets since it is my friends who are direct support... Read more

Still no luck

Saturday, May 07, 2011      1 comments

6 more chances down, still no tickets. The last place only had a couple people entered (1st drawing probably 10-15, 2nd probably 15-20) and I still couldn't get it. GAH! I'm starting to wonder if I'm just not supposed to be there. It's maki... Read more

Can you get luck in pill form?

Friday, May 06, 2011      1 comments

I went out tonight to try to win tickets to see Lifehouse and my friends Quietdrive in concert. The only way in is to win them from the radio station sponsoring it. 6 tries in 4 hours between 3 bars and I didn't win (it is a simple drawing). I n... Read more

I am confusing (to doctors)

Wednesday, May 04, 2011      2 comments

I saw my endocrinologist again today. He admitted that I have him completely confused so he doesn't know what to do. I seem to have reactive hypoglycemia and type 2 diabetes (which are opposite conditions) but every test he has run to figure out... Read more

Some doctors blame us to save their egos

Saturday, April 16, 2011      1 comments
zy-stomach Sometimes doctors really don't know what's going on. That's okay - you can't expect everyone to know everything. Yet when someone who doesn't know what's going on decides to claim that... Read more

Diagnoses #8 & #9 w/ more coming - tough read

Friday, April 08, 2011      5 comments

Anyone who hasn't read several weeks worth of my blogs will have no idea what's going on. For my sparkfriends, this is not good news. Be warned. I've felt horrible all day. Started thinking about going to the ER tonight, but considerin... Read more

My appointment was rescheduled

Tuesday, April 05, 2011      4 comments

Got a phone call from my endocrinologist's office today. They cancelled my appointment on the 11th and moved it to the 18th. I was already worried, now I'm freaking out. I'm scared to eat. I'm scared to move. I'm just scared. Now I have to wait ... Read more

Fighting yesterday

Tuesday, April 05, 2011      2 comments

While it was a good thing to have someone with me during my hellish test on Saturday, as I expected, Sunday brought a HUGE fight with my mother. It was over an hour of fighting, then an hour of me just saying some things I wanted to say, then an... Read more

Glucose tolerance test... how it went

Sunday, April 03, 2011      4 comments

I'll be honest, I'm scared. I had my glucose tolerance test today and it was just bad all around. I'll try to give a rough rundown of what happened. (FYI: glucose levels should be between 65-99 to be a normal range.) I was taken in back to ... Read more

Quick note before bed

Friday, April 01, 2011      2 comments

So my mother is coming up to take me to my test on Saturday. And I get to leave work early tomorrow after putting in extra time the past 2 days - 1 3/4 hours extra. Good thing, since I have to stop eating at 8pm it will be nice to be able to get... Read more

How I will celebrate April Fool's Day

Wednesday, March 30, 2011      0 comments

Just 1 more day left until April Fool's Day! For those of you who like some good laughs, check out one of my favorite websites on Friday: Some of last year's AFD prank items were canned unicorn meat - 100% of your daily re... Read more

Cancelled my gym membership today

Tuesday, March 29, 2011      1 comments

Continuing the tradition that pretty much everything that is good and healthy for everyone else is totally bad and unhealthy for me, I cancelled my gym membership this afternoon. I haven't been able to work out for weeks so I've been paying for ... Read more

Today is over, 4 days until my tests

Monday, March 28, 2011      0 comments

Bad day - what's new? Annoying coworkers getting pissed at me for no reason whatsoever - can some people do anything but? Idiot drivers wanting to hurt someone or wreck someone just to get ahead of you to go slow - one of these times I will let ... Read more

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