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Saturday, November 19, 2011      8 comments

As I've said before, I'm horrible about asking for help. For me, the fear of what will go wrong outweighs the belief in the benefits the majority of the time. Still, I could really use some help and it won't come if I don't ask for it. Life isn'... Read more

car update, blood tests back, and a 'bonus' from work

Friday, November 18, 2011      1 comments

My car has still been leaking since I got it back. I took it back after work today and the mechanic put in some major pressure but couldn't find a leak. He tightened some loose clamps and we'll see if that helps. Got the blood tests results... Read more

So cold, blood draws, Mayo survey, and a sad event in Mpls

Thursday, November 17, 2011      2 comments

The last few nights after I've had dinner I get really tired and cold. I take a shower to get ready for bed (and to warm up) but after I get out and go upstairs to lay down while my hair dries, my body temperature plummets to about 96.6*. This w... Read more

Got my review and I'm falling asleep already.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011      3 comments

Well, it figures. Turns out my car was still dripping overnight. It is either: A) still drying all the liquids that sprayed/leaked everywhere or B) there was more going on than just the water pump. I called to ask and agreed to give it another d... Read more

Got my car back today

Tuesday, November 15, 2011      4 comments

I honestly don't know how I pulled it off. The doctor ordered all the tests and I'm going in Thursday right after work for a blood draw. The scary part - every time someone agrees with me (especially people like doctors) then I instantly doubt m... Read more

Little update

Tuesday, November 15, 2011      6 comments

My car has the worst engine to work on apparently. The leak is from a busted water pump. They have to disconnect and remove the engine to get to the water pump, replace it, then drop the engine back in and reconnect it. It's almost 9 hours of la... Read more

The past few days (very long and depressing)

Sunday, November 13, 2011      1 comments

I hate asking for help. It tends to turn out worse than if I hadn't asked. Whether it's a doctor who has no intention of helping someone who's being tortured by their own malfunctioning body or someone who means well but makes things worse by th... Read more

Made a semi-formal complaint to Mayo today

Thursday, November 10, 2011      2 comments

Earlier this week I received the bill for the 1 day of testing at Mayo. They're charging me $500 for the absolutely horrific endocrinology consult! I called and said I was really unhappy about that and was given the phone number for patient serv... Read more

Same problems different day

Sunday, November 06, 2011      3 comments

I stopped posting blogs for a few days because it's never fun being the person who's always a downer and can't ever seem to get things to go in a decent direction. Besides, it's really just been the same every day. Every time I eat anything... Read more

coworker torture

Wednesday, November 02, 2011      1 comments

One thing I really don't like about working is having coworkers. Some are good, some are okay, but unfortunately I tend to end up surrounded by coworkers who are rude and lack empathy. I turned 30 this past summer. Everyone at work ignored ... Read more

Today my condition scared someone else.

Tuesday, November 01, 2011      4 comments

There's a guy at work that's trying to look out for me. He's the only guy in our HR dept, and he actually seems to care. He is trying to get me to keep going to doctors, and to keep trying to get help. We duck into a conference room now and agai... Read more

Next year give away more goodies than candy on Halloween.

Tuesday, November 01, 2011      4 comments

Nothing like going back to work, after an atrocious week of terrible doctors and horrible pain, just to have the bully coworkers decided to take everything they hate about themselves out on me. Plus, they decided to revamp our computer system wh... Read more

Back to work tomorrow

Sunday, October 30, 2011      2 comments

I get the Sunday paper delivered to me every week so I can get the coupons. I've been trying some moderate couponing lately (none of the extreme stuff!) and it definitely has it's ups and downs. Well I flip through the paper and look at other th... Read more

Today's thoughts

Saturday, October 29, 2011      3 comments

When you have no idea if tomorrow will come, but have promised to not stop tomorrow from coming, all you can do is watch the hours pass and see how things look when you wake up. That's where I'm at. This morning I woke up with minimal pain,... Read more

What happened today and an explanation of why I have no fight left

Saturday, October 29, 2011      13 comments

I have to say thank you to Amy for sending an explosion of support my way. That's definitely not something I'm used to. I'm the kinda girl that some people attempt to envy but most people just hate. I've spent most birthdays alone - my 30th birt... Read more


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