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Today my condition scared someone else.

Tuesday, November 01, 2011      4 comments

There's a guy at work that's trying to look out for me. He's the only guy in our HR dept, and he actually seems to care. He is trying to get me to keep going to doctors, and to keep trying to get help. We duck into a conference room now and agai... Read more

Next year give away more goodies than candy on Halloween.

Tuesday, November 01, 2011      4 comments

Nothing like going back to work, after an atrocious week of terrible doctors and horrible pain, just to have the bully coworkers decided to take everything they hate about themselves out on me. Plus, they decided to revamp our computer system wh... Read more

Back to work tomorrow

Sunday, October 30, 2011      2 comments

I get the Sunday paper delivered to me every week so I can get the coupons. I've been trying some moderate couponing lately (none of the extreme stuff!) and it definitely has it's ups and downs. Well I flip through the paper and look at other th... Read more

Today's thoughts

Saturday, October 29, 2011      3 comments

When you have no idea if tomorrow will come, but have promised to not stop tomorrow from coming, all you can do is watch the hours pass and see how things look when you wake up. That's where I'm at. This morning I woke up with minimal pain,... Read more

What happened today and an explanation of why I have no fight left

Saturday, October 29, 2011      13 comments

I have to say thank you to Amy for sending an explosion of support my way. That's definitely not something I'm used to. I'm the kinda girl that some people attempt to envy but most people just hate. I've spent most birthdays alone - my 30th birt... Read more

Continuing to get worse

Thursday, October 27, 2011      5 comments

Last night I happened to see a commercial for the University of Minnesota Physicians. It said "The first thing we cure is fear." I looked on the website and it says they have a motility clinic and treat gastroparesis. So first thing this morning... Read more

Sparkfriends, I'm sorry

Wednesday, October 26, 2011      5 comments

I'm sorry. I feel like I've let down my sparkfriends. I've always tried to seem strong, help others as much as I can no matter how I'm feeling, and attempt to have hope. Hope is a funny thing. A year ago I read a book written by a survivor of Au... Read more

I've cancelled my appts - I'm leaving Mayo.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011      5 comments

This blog WILL BE TMI, possibly even to the GP team. But I have proof that things are wrong with me and the doctors can't hear when I speak so I'm putting it here. Yesterday I was in my hotel a little before 330. I was already in pain and f... Read more

I'm desperate to leave Mayo and never return.

Monday, October 24, 2011      4 comments

(No need to leave comments or anything about this. I know what everyone wants to say. I just had to say this stuff somewhere. If you read it, I'm sorry to put you through that.) I kept putting off going to Mayo because of an overwhelming fe... Read more

Leaving soon

Sunday, October 23, 2011      5 comments

I have an hour and a half until I have to start fasting for my early morning test. When I'm starting fasting is when I'm hoping to be in the car and on my way to Rochester (Mayo). It's about an hour and a half drive, I'll check into the hotel, g... Read more

Standing up for myself

Saturday, October 22, 2011      5 comments

Part of my time at Mayo next week includes a follow up with the GI doctors. When I called today to ask questions about the tests I wanted to clarify which of the two doctors I saw would be doing the follow up appointment. Of course, it will be t... Read more

My first appointment at Mayo

Wednesday, October 19, 2011      6 comments

One of my major fears when I go to the doctor is that they won't believe me and won't help me. I've been ignored so many times that in some ways it's almost shocking I've survived (like a massive infection in my cheekbone for over 3 months - fin... Read more

Singer Salvage give me strength!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011      3 comments

This shirt arrived last week and I'm glad it did. I'm hoping wearing it today will help give me strength. To those who don't know what Singer Salvage is, it's from my fav... Read more

Final thoughts before tomorrow.

Monday, October 17, 2011      2 comments

Well, tomorrow is the day. In just over 12 hours I'll be on the road to Mayo. I think I'm feeling numb, but that could be the severe lack of sleep last night. I know I'm missing things, I know there's more I could've put together to take, I... Read more

I was disappointed in The Thing.

Sunday, October 16, 2011      0 comments

I went and saw The Thing today (all because of Eric Christian Olsen) and was disappointed. It was lame. Someone needs to tell the director and producers that incredibly loud sound doesn't make something scary! I had to put my fingers in my ears ... Read more


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