~INDYGIRL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=%7EINDYGIRL ~INDYGIRL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Chronic Pain and Losing Weight- Yes You Can! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5983155 For those of you who believe there is nothing you can do when you have chronic pain, take it from me: there is hope. <BR> <BR> I weighed 460 pounds and with all of my chronic medical issues and disability, I managed to baby step my way through my journey. I’ve lost 220 pounds to date. <BR> <BR> Lately I feel like I can do nothing. I have some extra medical issues getting in my way and need a few surgeries on my knees. Part of me, the old me, wants to give up in a chocolate oblivion and... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 12:04:29 EST From the Ballerina with the Scars to the Fat Girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980242 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ceaed4d9-a096-42e8-987c-df7a8f466cb4.jpg"> <BR> This was me when I was maybe 7 years old, teased for having burn scars from having a coffee pot fall on me when I was two and for being fat. Do you see a fat girl here? A scarred girl? Or just a little girl playing ballerina? <BR> <BR> You see, in my mind, until somebody would mention my scars or my weight, I played and laughed like other kids, that was until weight became such an issue with t... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 13:12:55 EST How To Lose Weight Even When You Feel Hopeless http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977874 I’ve gotten a lot of SparkMail asking about how I got started on my weight-loss journey and how I’ve come to lose so much weight without surgery. I've been reflecting a lot lately about what got me started and how I've stayed on track for so long. <BR> <BR> First of all, I read a book called ''You on a Diet'' by Dr. Oz and it was a life-changer about how to trick your body into not being hungry. Then, I got on SparkPeople and kept up with SparkStreaks- a series of days of consistently d... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 12:56:59 EST The Day After... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5975110 If you had a bad day at work, you wouldn't quit your job or take off for a few days at a time. So why do we do that with our healthy plans? At work, if we did that- absolutely nothing would get done and business would grind to a halt because EVERYONE has bad days. The trick is to not say "tomorrow I'll..." Or even next week. Think in terms of a GPS that tells you when you get off track to proceed to the next legal u turn and get back on track. Why? The further you drive in the wrong di... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 07:48:58 EST How You Always Have A New Chance At Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5974710 No matter where you are or what condition you are in, you have a chance to make healthy changes to better your situation. I say that because I used to weigh 460 pounds, was bed-ridden with disabilities and chronic pain. I now weigh 225 pounds less with no weight-loss surgery and can walk with and without a walker. The pain is still difficult to deal with, but not as difficult as when I was lying in bed and concentrating on the pain. You see, I wasn't looking for a way out: I was accepting a... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 13:35:08 EST Healing Does Not Mean Throwing Your Plan Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5973619 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/edcb586e-fae9-41e9-9583-1dc5278f627c.jpg">Have you ever been afraid of something knocking you off of your healthy lifestyle track? I'm a little scared now. Why? I have just had shoulder surgery and now have a large complex tear in my knee (meniscus) with three cysts and arthritis... two smaller tears in the other knee- that need to be dealt with. I'm complicated at best, with all of my health risks. <BR> <BR> While I can't directly contro... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 10:08:16 EST Change Your Attitude to Change Your Actions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5971516 I went shopping for some new yoga pants the other day. When I go shopping, I go with my old 460-pound Beth mentality, trying on sizes larger than I need. The other day in the dressing room, a clerk brought me a 1x and a 3x, so which should I try first? I looked at myself in the mirror and asked if I believed in myself enough to try the smaller ones on first. (I used to wear a 7/8x). I tried on the 1x and they fit! <BR> <BR> Having learned from that experience, I've been trying on 1x and 2... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 16:11:09 EST Perspective: Why? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5969774 One day I woke up and was astonished to find that I had grown to 460 pounds and was using my family as helpers. I didn't do this on purpose. From my perspective, I was in a lot of pain from many chronic issues and needed to lie down to alleviate the pain. From their perspective, I was abusing their kindness. This is so hard for me to admit, but I'm an open book to you readers. <BR> <BR> As I lost weight, I could do more, but not all of what life has in store for me. From my family's pe... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 13:10:20 EST Being Brave http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968470 <BR> I can't tell you how many opportunities I've passed up because I've beaten myself down before I've even had a chance to go for the brass ring. In the past, instead of losing weight, I resigned myself to failure almost every time. I could not believe in myself or be brave enough to face the obstacles on the long road ahead. <BR> <BR> I remember my first act of bravery. I went outside for a walk and passed a car wash, where all of the guys laughed and yelled. I was in tears. Didn't... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 08:08:16 EST Buddy Up List at the Indy/Noblesville Rally http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967529 Lucy Crazymama46 Fishers, IN <BR> Beth ~indygirl Fishers, IN <BR> Tina Hoosiergirlindy Indianapolis, IN <BR> Tom McCourtt Dayton, OH <BR> Brad Bradmill2922 Jeffersonville, IN <BR> Andrea Rachelle50 Indianapolis, IN <BR> <BR> Michelle McJoyful Indianapolis, IN <BR> Geoff Gmccuen Indianapolis, IN <BR> Adrianne Lilaflower912 Mishawaka, IN <BR> Casey Caseykokongo Clarksville, IN <BR> Debbie Djcomputer98 Noblesville, IN <BR> Tom Brothertom65 ... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 17:12:29 EST You have to learn... not just a diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5963887 You have to learn to believe in yourself... <BR> You have to learn to love yourself... <BR> You have to learn to embrace the journey... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e096702a-b62a-4ac6-b573-3db65caf1c62.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b2289e67-a438-4b0f-bd9b-00570e91269e.JPG"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/34b3ec10-6209-4646-bf4e-4cc68bc4d5e1.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/99419ca8-e... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 17:01:35 EST Discover YOUR Fit Lifestyle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962862 Well, at the hospital this whole week for internal bleeding in the colon. They put a clamp in on a blood vessel that had broken and I still lost a lot of blood. Still weak and cramping. Had to move my knee surgery to the end of next month to build back my blood and strength. <BR> <BR> Gained weight from the saline drip they had me on and the FULL calorie diet with no restrictions. I had no will power, as the food was so good. You would have thought I had never seen cookies or pancakes b... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 18:42:18 EST My Story and How I Lost 225 Pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5954038 Life is happening now, not 10 pounds from now. <BR> <BR> Beth Donovan's No Weight Loss Surgery, No Crazy Diets, No Extreme Exercise Story of Joy on a Journey: <BR> <BR> Pounds lost total: 225 and counting <BR> <BR> I don't have an abundance of will power, nor am I a mega strong person. I am definitely willful and strong-headed, but those aren't exactly the same things. I've tried my whole life to lose weight, yet I gained 100 pounds every decade topping out in my 40's at 460 pounds. The... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 17:07:32 EST Don't Tell Me What I Can't Do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952184 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/892fc1bb-62f8-4d45-8965-d921c6f7f5d6.JPG"> <BR> I love the saying from the television series Lost that character John Locke always repeats, "Don’t tell me what I can’t do!" I think that’s part of where I got that attitude from. That saying just clicked with me. I think it’s because I was told that I wouldn’t and I couldn’t by so many, but then I did! <BR> <BR> What did I do? I, and believe me this is a miracle, lost 225 pound... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 11:17:55 EST Just Don't Eat The Whole Cake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950649 A few old college friends and I were at a birthday party, sitting near the birthday cake and talking about our dieting struggles and how hard it is to lose weight. We spoke of how many failed attempts and programs we had under our belts. We decided it was terribly daunting and only a miracle could save us from our fate of being overweight the rest of our lives. We griped about how society, work, stress, so many things played into the weight loss equation. One of my friends' youngest childr... Thu, 25 Jun 2015 07:08:12 EST How to RESET Your Weight Loss Goal on SparkPeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5948644 I have to keep changing things up. I reset my spark nutrition tracker goal every 10-20 pounds so that it stays relevant to my new weight so I continue to lose. This is also good for breaking a plateau and for raising or lowering your weight loss expectations. <BR> <BR> I tried in the past for all 220 pounds of weight loss to lose between 1-1.5 pounds per week during my shedding phases. Now I find I have to up the ante. <BR> <BR> SparkPeople gives you a range, which is great for calorie... Sun, 21 Jun 2015 12:34:58 EST Something is Better Than Nothing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5947682 Something is better than nothing. If you can't exercise 30 minutes, do 10. Do 5. Do it a few times a day if you have to. Cut back just a little at meals. Nobody says you have to starve your weight off. There is nothing wrong with doing things the slow way. I started in 2005 at 460 pounds with just a few minor changes and a few minutes of lifting shampoo bottles in bed during physical therapy. It seemed like nothing and I thought how is this going to get me anywhere? Well, Look at me ... Fri, 19 Jun 2015 10:10:46 EST Emotional Eating and My Latest Trials http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943374 After having lost over 220 pounds on SparkPeople, I think the best advice I can give on the subject would be to ask yourself what you are trying to feel when you are about to emotionally eat. Usually I want to feel warm, safe and comforted, for example. So I got a luxury soft blanket, some richly scented candles, and funny movies and have a nice night in my room. I get the same feelings without the food. So ask yourself what could help you feel the same emotions without the food... It is... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 09:22:00 EST Why I Don't Starve Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941519 After losing 220 pounds, I'm having to cut portions a bit more. My body is very used to the calories it has been getting. I hate this part.... That's why I only cut by enough to lose .5 pounds more a week when I cut. I HATE feeling like I'm starving and I can only do that for so long before I blow. Really, before anybody blows... Our bodies are hard wired not to want to starve. So I personally eat mini meals and mini snacks through the day rather than load up and get hungry a few hours... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 03:09:16 EST At the Brink of Losing 220 Pounds... 1 more pound to go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938573 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5240283b-c6d3-4f42-aaba-425a13cb7e05.JPG"> <BR> I've been on SP a LONG time and it took me a LONG time to lose this weight, 10 years and the last two I gained a bit back, but not much. I've been working to get it off and proudly I can now say it is coming off! I am at the brink of losing 220 pounds... 1 more pound to go. <BR> <BR> The tips I have are to never take regain lightly and you won't regain much. <BR> Regain is not the end. It can ... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 15:40:41 EST FREE SparkRally July 25, Registering Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932572 July 25th, we will be having a SPARK RALLY at the Noblesville, Indiana Library from 10 am -5 pm. <BR> BE EXCITED! We always have lots of fun and YOU are invited! <BR> You have to register via the Noblesville Library, more info to come on how to do that. <BR> <BR> We will be hearing from Bradmill2922 who has lost over 200 pounds <BR> ~Indygirl who has lost over 200 pounds <BR> Crazymama46 who has lost over 200 pounds, <BR> Hoosiergirlindy who has lost 180 pounds <BR> McCourtt who has lost ove... Fri, 22 May 2015 13:47:02 EST HALT Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929013 I learned a saying back when I was going to Overeaters Annonymous called HALT which stands for HUNGRY, ANGRY, LONELY and Tired. I actually like to add a B with that to represent Bored for the times you are most likely to emotionally eat. <BR> <BR> First ask yourself are you actually stomach hungry or head hungry. There is a difference, as I've pointed out in past blogs. Stomach hunger is the kind of hunger where you will eat most anything and head hunger usually comes with a craving attac... Sat, 16 May 2015 08:47:15 EST Exercises For When You Think You Can't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917606 Yep, I'm disabled but I still exercise. I have degenerative joint disease, fibromyalgia, disks in my back that have herniated, slipped and are bulging, pinched nerve bundles, slipped neck disks, arthritis and knees that need replaced and yes, I could actually go on... The point is you can usually do something. Something is always better than nothing. <BR> <BR> I started out in bed unable to walk and lifted shampoo bottles for weights, Then I started using an arm bike called a magnetrainer. Y... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 19:20:24 EST Sugar? Gluten? Low Carb? Low Fat? What Do I Eat? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916270 Okay, I subscribe to what I call the ADDITION DIET. I add things in, not take them away. Taking away leads to deprivation. Truthfully, Paleo, low carb, gluten free, sugar free... all of you can do this. <BR> <BR> Find healthy new fresh fruits and vegetables and ADD them into your menu. <BR> Find healthy new whole grains (if allowed) and ADD them into your menu. <BR> Find healthy new sources of protein and ADD them into your menu. <BR> Find healthy new sources of dairy and ADD them into... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 08:43:04 EST People Call Me Fat In Public http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915082 But I've lost over 200 pounds! It took me 10 years and going from bed ridden to walking. I bet they never had the challenges I faced and face ever day with my disabilities... yet they just call me fat sometimes. I hate it. I used to try to talk to them and tell them they were being unkind, but they didn't care, I used to think maybe if they knew it hurt, they would care, but they didn't. Some people just kind of suck. It's a total waste of time to even waste your breath on them. I used... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 09:48:25 EST More of the Long Lost ~Indyisms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912863 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l875695163.jpg"> <BR> If you got a traffic ticket, would you break every traffic law the rest of the day? Then why would you toss the whole day over a slice of pizza? (spoken by me first at the 2009 Spark your Life convention) <BR> <BR> If you think to yourself "I might as well," change it to "I might as well not." <BR> <BR> Having a bad day is like getting a flat tire. You fix it and get back the road; you don't go around the car in a fr... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 10:16:49 EST A few of the Long Lost ~Indyisms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911182 Don't take water pills to lose weight because you can't pee out a pizza. <BR> <BR> Don't put your thoughts into what might have been. Put your energy into what is possible. <BR> <BR> Never treat your body like a garbage disposal for leftovers. <BR> <BR> Don't wait to be thin to act thin. Life is happening now, not 10 pounds from now. <BR> <BR> Get fit and healthy like it's your career. <BR> <BR> <BR> Beth Donovan <BR> <BR> These are just a few of my thoughts from my journey of losing... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 12:48:27 EST Getting Back in the Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910315 It starts with baby steps, not with magic or a strike of motivation or stars aligning just right. <BR> You simply have to want it bad enough and make plans to get there. <BR> <BR> Surrounding myself with the positive influences here on Spark and not being a Lone Ranger is one way I really help myself. <BR> <BR> Next I've been getting back in the game with exercise, not crazy stuff I can't keep up with, but a variety of movements that I can do. I wear a FitBit to count steps, I have an armb... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 06:39:09 EST Food Coma- Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908986 Ah, the Food Coma! How I long for you! I realized while writing a friend that that was exactly what I've been wanting, a good old fashioned food coma. So I've been grazing here and there for months with emotional eating. The trick to emotional eating and stopping it before it's a binge is to ask yourself what you are trying to feel. Then ask yourself how you can feel that way without food. <BR> <BR> That is sometimes the trickiest part. We tend to throw food on our emotions like band a... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 16:04:33 EST Feeling Broken? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883011 Still on my journey to lose that last 50 pounds and revving up! It's starting to come off after a 2 freaking year plateau. I think I was spinning my wheels in the wrong direction. I plateaued after my first 100 pounds for a year and then had to change things up to lose over 100 more. <BR> <BR> To tell you where I'm at... and the next paragraph is how to get where I'm going, so keep reading... <BR> <BR> I'm finding now that I may have to change things DOWN to get where I'm going. My sh... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 09:23:05 EST Head Hunger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870823 Having a fairly good day today, save wanting to eat everything in sight! Or out of sight for that matter. (nibbles on the computer, but decides it's just too hard.) <BR> <BR> Yes, I still have these days. They remind me to keep crunching down the veggies, drinking the water, adding the fruit, taking my cinnamon/chromium 2000 capsules, and planning my meals ever 3-4 hours around healthy protein, carbs, and fats. They keep me on my toes- vigilant and not cocky. <BR> <BR> These days als... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 17:41:47 EST A Binge and Then? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5869789 Friends of mine binge and ask me what I do. I often give the same answer. Here is a latest reply: <BR> <BR> You're still punishing yourself. Still off the wagon. Think of it this way... If you got a flat tire, you wouldn't run around the car in a frenzy popping the other three tires. You would fix the one and get back on the road so you could get where you are going sooner. You need to forgive yourself like you would a child who ate something he/she wanted. Then move on. You couldn't stay ... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 04:03:17 EST It's all in your head... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865790 Your mind is behind your success- Believe and achieve! Usually it's the thought that we can't do it, that stops us. <BR> <BR> When those thoughts occur to me, I push them out of my head fast. <BR> I refocus on my goals- I make small short term goals. <BR> I look at how far I've come. <BR> I look at pictures of where I was and what I want to do and be. <BR> I talk to friends who are positive and uplifting and goal minded- usually Sparkers. <BR> I give myself positive self talk- even out lo... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 09:07:35 EST Balance Your Lifestyle- Don't So Hard You Quit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865150 It is hard to eat whole foods all of the time, especially if you aren't home. I find myself compromising outside of my house and sometimes in my house because it is so difficult to convert. It's a process though. I suspect I will never be an all or nothing gal. I lean more toward balance in everything. <BR> <BR> My message today is BALANCE. If something you are trying to fit into your new lifestyle stresses you out terribly, it is not meant for you, at least not now. If it feels a litt... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 10:35:46 EST Lifestyle Change for Health and Christianity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850288 If you are easily upset by the term Christian, read no further. <BR> <BR> God is essential. You will find that when you look to Him to be better instead of perfect, you get much farther down the path. It is much like becoming Christian to become healthier. In both scenarios, you are reborn a new creature with the very decision to change. It is then that we find the path hard to follow and always go back to our old habits in both forms of lifestyle change. Forgiveness is the key. You have to ... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 11:53:08 EST Tell Them Yes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841068 “All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you’re not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you’re the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no’s become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly. AND YOU WILL TELL THEM YES.” Tue, 30 Dec 2014 08:05:58 EST Blue Christmas? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5837938 To my husband, Chuck, and my chosen sisters Lori and Tina This is a little something for the lonely, grieving, depressed, stressed, and dieting out there who might be having a hard time getting through the holiday season. It isn’t always a pretty season for everyone, and mental health wise, it’s a rough one for a lot of people. I am one of those people. My heart goes out to the rest of you out there. <BR> <BR> I’m about to be very personal here because I want you to know that my advice I wri... Wed, 24 Dec 2014 11:30:11 EST How Do I Forgive and Move On? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836257 As per your requests, How I forgive myself: <BR> <BR> Pretend you are talking to a child with the same problem you are having. What would you tell a child? Would you berate them for doing something so innate as eating something good tasting or filling their tummies? No? You would totally understand the problem and make suggestions and try new things! You would reassure them of your love and commitment to help them make these changes. <BR> <BR> That's where my "inner fat girl" comes in. She ... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 09:31:15 EST My Eating and Workout Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835297 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l946783159.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l318153045.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You know, this last week, I started strength training with weight machines for the first time in 20 years... OUCH in a good way. If you can't use your legs, arm bikes like the Magnetrainer are GREAT! Chair exercises are fantastic! See chairexercisefun.com or Coach Nicole has some great stiff out there now. <BR> <BR> I'm drinking my whey protein... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 08:15:46 EST What Does GOD Have To Do With My FitBit? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833721 Singing "All I want for Christmas is a Fitbit Charge" They have a new one coming out! It has a heart rate monitor! I need to save up! I have hope... You see, long before I ever get my heart rate up into a calorie burning zone, the pain form my disabilities kick in and crush me. I hold hope that that won't always be the case as I lose weight. The doctors seemed to think I would never get this far and would have had me having all manner of surgeries, but I never did. I owe it all to GOD that I ... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 05:56:50 EST Don't Tell Me What I Can't Do! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822788 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1908011658.jpg">My mother said to me that I shouldn't wear red because I would look like a fire truck... that I shouldn't have a wedding ceremony because I would look like the Pillsbury Doughboy going down the aisle, that nobody would ever want to listen to my advice about losing weight. The doctors thought I would need weight loss surgery and other surgeries or I wouldn't walk again. My husband had no belief that I could make this journe... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 11:50:32 EST I want a Cookie... Bargaining or Not- The Food Demon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816047 The Holidays have foods galore sparking around like ornaments on trees glowing to get our attention. What's worse is these are EMOTIONAL FOODS! They bring back memories of childhood or better times, nostalgia. <BR> <BR> So we see, we want. Ask yourself a few questions about EMOTIONAL FOODS: <BR> <BR> 1) Ask yourself WHAT you are wanting to FEEL. Warm, safe and comforted is usually my answer. During the holidays, nostalgic comes to mind. So how can I come by those same feelings withou... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 09:15:31 EST Night Time Eating- My Coping Skills http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814897 I'm a terrible night time eater. I wake up through the night and hit the kitchen like a ravenous zombie. I don't know how to stop myself because I'm half asleep. Evenings? Well, I graze. How did I lose so much weight and how am I losing weight with these issues? Let me tell you... <BR> <BR> I planned my night attack snacks and set them in obvious reach, so when I hit the kitchen, there are low cal foods, like a can of fruit and a piece of cheese right in the front of the fridge waiting... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 12:29:02 EST Miss My Mom and Some Diet Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814378 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1590171417.jpg">Today I was looking through my antiques missing my parents. I lost my dad when I was 8 at Christmas and my mom when I was 30 just after Christmas. The holidays get lonely for me, as I'm an only child and my husband's parents and his brother are also passed. It's just the two of us, just like it was Mom and I when I was growing up. <BR> <BR> Mom and my song was "You and me against the world" by Helen Reddy. It's an old 70... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 17:18:42 EST A New Beginning? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5812566 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1862179980.jpg">I've been stuck in the 210-240 realm for 2 years now... currently 229-230 depending on which way I stand on the scale LOL! {You know what I mean if you have one of those sensitive weird scales!} <BR> <BR> Regain is not the end, as I have said before! I have made it from 460 pounds down to here without weight loss surgery and I have maintained this since starting to lose in January of 2006. So, this small amount is really... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 12:00:56 EST I Fit in a Costume and Went to a Party for the First Time @ Halloween! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796996 I was actually able to shop and put together a costume. Most of even the plus sizes still didn't fit right or look good on me... short and still overweight, but I managed to pull one together and buy it in pieces! Here is a picture. Here is also a picture of the hubby. I did his make up. I'm an evil nymph/dark fairy and he is an evil jester. <BR> <BR> We had fun because I was able to stand and walk this year. I only began walking with a walker in 2009 and got to walking without one ... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 19:14:44 EST JUST YAY!!! I GOT IT!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767881 From Wheelchair to Coach in pictures... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l3470052.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l110523103.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2080843010.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1789856272.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2116585984.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l61278817.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 07:52:07 EST Tips To Dropping Weight (over 200 pounds worth!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766519 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2098072065.jpg">I used SparkPeople and ate MORE naturally, in other words, less processed foods. I started by eliminating growth hormones, which can make cows fat (and thus the people who eat and drink from the cows fat) from meat and milk and buying organic. Talk to your doctor about anything I'm about to type next. It is only my opinion and I am writing from my experience. <BR> <BR> The LESS Processed food in your diet, the thinner and... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 07:43:10 EST Start Down The Yellow Brick Road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755818 Rode my bike for the third time and fell again, this hurting my knee and shoulder, both of which already need surgery. Also pulled on a hernia, which is now protruding and hurting more. In a few days, I plan to adjust the bike seat lower and go at it again. Why? Because I fell when I first tried to walk after being bedridden. Nothing of value comes easily. Feeling the breeze in your face and the wind dancing in your hair as you ride freely is worth the fight. If it's something you want... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 14:44:03 EST Newest Pic of 240 pounds Lost Using Just SparkPeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742505 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2025038085.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1537328028.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l107651423.jpg">I'm the one to the far right. Sun, 20 Jul 2014 05:31:58 EST