_MOBII_'s SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=%5FMOBII%5F _MOBII_'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Taking what I can get http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781243 <BR> <BR> Some days I take whatever little victories that I can get. Today....my socks matched and I didn't pee my pants. I'll take it! Tue, 16 Sep 2014 21:45:08 EST Accomplishments or lack of? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774512 Just some thoughts Sat, 6 Sep 2014 10:54:34 EST My first vlog...again, sorry it is sideways!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772441 It didn't attach yesterday, grr! Today it is sideways, HAHA! Much like my life lately! I will do better with the next one I promise! Wed, 3 Sep 2014 08:05:43 EST Hit a wall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771477 I hit a wall today. I tried to do a video today...I figured out how to work the camera on my new phone and upload directly to facebook and had been having so much fun doing them and thought that I could pull a silver lining out of it today. <BR> I am desperately wanting to do a vlog here and that was my goal for today. <BR> <BR> On my way to work this morning, I tried. I ended up deleting 13 videos from this morning and 35 more attempts from this evening. I am having a hard time today with ... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 22:22:37 EST My aching aches and pains! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759601 I have managed to get out and ride some every day for the past several days. <BR> I have been feeling my muscles, not in a bad way really...until the night before last! I haven't been sleeping well because of my asthma so any sleep I get lately is valuable. <BR> <BR> I woke up out of a dead sleep with the weirdest cramp, it was like a charlie horse but running down the outside part of my ankle! I actually had to have my beau rub it for me because it wasn't going away with stretching and it... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 11:46:05 EST Bizzy Bee and other news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758804 Life is really full right now! Not that its a bad thing, it keeps me out of trouble, eh? Or not, lol! <BR> <BR> <BR> In the cycling news.... <BR> I have been pushing myself on riding my bike more often....I have been trying to get out every day, well....on most days anyways. <BR> I keep telling myself that taking the time out for ME is a good thing...I am trying to do less rushing through my life...which I have a tendency to do. <BR> I do like riding my bike, I generally go out for about ... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 09:04:07 EST T'was a bit more than allergies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5754332 So here I am .... <BR> I ended up in the emergency room last week Monday night, I just couldn't cough and finally ended up in a half hour coughing fit during supper. It felt like my lungs were just so heavy and had no strength to cough...silly me, still thought it was my allergies/sinus' <BR> I finally quieted down and went to my room, ate one potato chip and launched into another uncontrollable coughing fit. <BR> I finally acquiesced to my beau and took my butt to the ER. <BR> I was feeling... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 11:32:00 EST The unplanned 4, a crash, and a compliment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740932 I am getting excited because I am more than halfway to my first weight goal of 199. I weighed in yesterday at 249...putting me up to 61 pounds total lost....50 to go! <BR> <BR> My allergies have been acting up for a couple of days now so I haven't been moving much...not moving as in I usually work late because my sister comes late to pick me up, well, on Tuesday, I clocked out at my scheduled time and laid on the bean bag for 3 hours in the breakroom until she got there to pick me up, lol! ... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 16:59:10 EST Lots to catch up on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5733893 I haven't blogged in forever! <BR> I have been trying to keep busy and pick up any extra hours that I can at work. I also had more injections in my hips for the bursitis. It did make my blood sugar jump up, but it was to the point that I couldn't stand the pain any more. On the right side, I had one in the outside of my hip and one in the backside...on the left they did the outside and then went into the joint from the front side which HURT! <BR> They even gave me extra whatever in my iv... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 14:33:02 EST I totally had a meme moment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719420 I was walking in to work yesterday and saw a (blood glucose) test strip laying in the crack of the sidewalk and thought about this meme....and yes, I pronounce it me-me! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1711368340.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I know I must have had a big, dorky grin on my face because I almost laughed out loud! Mon, 16 Jun 2014 22:14:29 EST I hate pictures! But I am posting them anyways! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716790 These are my comparison pics from 2012, on the left, to today, on the right. Front, back, left, and right sides. <BR> <BR> While I CAN see the improvement, especially in my belly and the lumpiness of my butt, I still hate my general shape. I know now that my hips have a lot of swelling (hence all the injections recently), and there isn't much I can do about that. I take an anti inflammatory and have been getting steroid injections for a few weeks now. <BR> <BR> I keep telling myself t... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:43:34 EST Biking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710130 Tonight was the first time I was able to bike 5 miles at once. (5.5 to be exact) <BR> I think it will still take me awhile to build up to biking to work though. It is 10 miles one way, then I will have to work a shift on my feet, then 10 miles back...my goal is to be able to accomplish this at least once by fall. <BR> In the meantime, I am going to make some adjustments to my bike seat and see if I can take some of the stress off of my knee...I am pretty sure that I just need to raise the se... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 23:24:07 EST Phantom Fat. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709103 Maybe this is a bad analogy, but it is stuck in my head lately...People who lose a limb or body part often get phantom sensations. I know that when my mom had part of her leg amputated, she would have pain, itching, or tickling in her foot. She had this for years until her nerve endings healed and her brain caught up with the fact that this part was no longer there. <BR> <BR> After having to get smaller shirts for work recently, I got to thinking....I have phantom fat. <BR> <BR> I have lo... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 17:10:20 EST I think I should clarify... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5707745 I have several things that I need to clarify about my previous blog and also some new things to share. <BR> <BR> First and foremost, my previous blog was a LOT of fear, venting, and frustration on my part. <BR> I am by no means unhappy with my weight loss dropping from A HALF POUND A DAY to a pound or so a week. That first month, the 17 pound loss scared the bejesus out of me. Literally, the only thing I changed in my diet was cutting out white rice, white bread, white potatoes, and star... Sat, 31 May 2014 22:47:15 EST Test results, not doing well tonight. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699585 3 months. <BR> All the extra walking, even when I have so much pain in my hip that it wakes me up at night, I have been keeping myself moving. <BR> I have been eating well...even better than that first month when I kept my carb/food intake so low that I lost 17 pounds. My weight loss has slowed to a pound a week now. <BR> All the money I spent on healthy foods to help my body recover. <BR> My whole family changing their diet just so I didn't have to 'eat alone'. <BR> <BR> 3 months of ti... Tue, 20 May 2014 22:50:52 EST Vampire visit and my NSV...of sorts. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697026 I had blood drawn this morning for my 3 month checkup on my A1C and cholesterol. <BR> I am hoping like hell that all the frustration and hard work of the last 3 months paid off. Then it occurred to me....this is the second blood draw in a row that I wasn't a "hard stick". <BR> <BR> A year ago, before I moved back up here, the doctor's office was resorting to taking blood from in between my knuckles...which HURTS! Even with a butterfly needle, it hurts and burns. <BR> <BR> 3 months ago,... Sat, 17 May 2014 12:25:50 EST Turning "Can't" into a choice. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691294 My family deals with stress with humor. I can't even begin to tell you how many times I have cracked a joke in the middle of an argument or some other 'inappropriate' time. <BR> <BR> I went off the deep end the other day after my sister picked me up from work, it is a long story, but I had to clock out 3 hours early and then sit and wait for my sister to get off work and then come and get me...Nope, wasn't fired or anything else catastrophic, just stupid work stuff. <BR> All I could do fo... Fri, 9 May 2014 12:07:05 EST Quick April Summary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5684814 Per the spark activity tracker. <BR> <BR> April's steps...235,862. <BR> 24.89 miles. <BR> Burned 18,959 calories. <BR> 2,264 minutes of moving. (Walking and biking) <BR> I lost 4 pounds in April, 26 pounds for the year and 44 pounds total. Thu, 1 May 2014 10:49:13 EST Coming up a little short http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683518 I worked my behind off at work today. My suster also had an appointment after work today so she couldn't pick me up. <BR> <BR> I got to work early and clocked in early to help out with the shipment...then did not go to my assigned post as it was a slow day...I stayed and helped out with shipment and stocking. <BR> I KNEW I was getting uber steps in today, I had already hit my 10k when I checked my tracker at 1 this afternoon. <BR> Then when I left work to go to the bus stop, I got there e... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 21:21:08 EST My great nephew, oh, and the rest of the family! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676542 On Saturday my cave-beau and I went out to my older sister's house for a get together with part of the family. She lives in the middle of nowhere, Wisconsin. For some reason the GPS took us through the 'scenic' part of Harvard, Illinois, stupid TomTom must have been imbibing for the holiday weekend! What usually takes us an hour drive took us about an hour and a half! Argh! <BR> <BR> I was planning on getting there early and helping my sister with anything that needed doing and also to sp... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 19:13:55 EST For the first time in years! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675998 I put on an actual pair of jeans! One size smaller and NOT stretchy fabric! Sat, 19 Apr 2014 22:38:21 EST He pulled through! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673885 I thought that Bazill, my basil plant was a goner. (Bazill is his name lol!) <BR> While dealing with getting my feet under me after the diabetes diagnosis, I noticed my poor baby in to windowsill, forgotten. I watered him and left him alone for a few days and when I decided that it was hopeless and was going to empty his pot, I noticed a speck of green towards the bottom. <BR> <BR> I cut him all back and waited a few more days to see what would happen.... <BR> <BR> Here he is! All sprouti... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 21:33:44 EST My first sugar 'low' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672815 I put low in quotes because it wasn't like a trip to the ER or anything. I had a rough day at work yesterday, lots of unexpected walking, lifting, and moving. <BR> I wasn't really prepared for it. <BR> <BR> I had a 1.5 mile walk to the bus in the morning, not too bad, I ate breakfast and when I got to the bus stop, I ducked into the gas station and got a Muscle Milk....its like a flavored protein shake. 200-ish calories and around 10 carbs. I had a half hour on the bus and then a half ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 12:32:56 EST Doctor visit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670096 I went to the doctor today for a checkup and to have a couple of minor things checked on. <BR> I told her all the changes I am making to my diet and exercise to keep the diabetes in check. I told her that I am terrified of the complications and the thought of having to go on insulin...ever! <BR> She congratulated me on my weight loss last month (17 pounds) and said that I CAN have the white stuff, but have to watch the portions, but it is fine if I go without it, just keep a check on my ... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 21:44:21 EST Just tired. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662961 I am tired today, not so much sleepy-tired, but worn out. <BR> I have been worrying and working every minute of every day for the last month. I am getting tired of diabetes being the first thought on my mind when I wake up and the last before I go to sleep. <BR> <BR> For the last month, I have had no sugar, white bread, white rice, simple carbs, pasta, chocolate, fast food, junk food, chips, soda, popcorn, etc... (Actually, except for today, I had some honey in my tea because my throat is i... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 21:05:57 EST In like a lion, out like a lamb. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5659668 Well, March certainly lived up to its little idiom that I learned in grade school. <BR> <BR> I started the month off with the news that I am pre-diabetic and have been working to get educated further about it. <BR> Way back in the dark ages when I first started working, I worked as a CNA in a nursing home...so I know the complications that diabetes can cause. My dad also had it, but was not diagnosed until after I was grown and moved away on my own so I did not have much info on the diet ... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 23:30:38 EST Quick update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653634 Lost 13 pounds so far this month :/ <BR> 3 of that was in the last 2 days. <BR> I have been trying harder to get more calories in each day, I have been up to right around 1600 so I hope that the losing tapers off or slows down a little bit soon. <BR> I am feeling ok, not weak or anything, so maybe it is due to keeping up with my walking and cutting out all the junky carbs, I dunno. <BR> What I DO know is that chocolate cake in the breakroom was awfully tempting a couple days ago (I had... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 00:53:16 EST Game on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5648692 I am here and I am doing alright. <BR> I am still complaining regularly about things that I 'cannot eat'...using quotes here because while I am sure that I CAN eat them...I feel like I shouldn't because I lack self control about certain items. For me and my mindset right now....it is easier to not have these things at all, instead of having a tiny bit of them and then taking it away. THAT is what makes me feel like I am depriving myself. I am just trying to keep my thoughts away from my ... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 21:17:09 EST Chaos Inside http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643979 **Warning...this is NOT a unicorn and rainbow blog** <BR> <BR> That is how I am feeling. <BR> I thought that I was doing ok with the news of pre-diabetes....then it hit me last night. I was trying to look up nutrition information and it was late and I was tired and already took my meds for the night and everything I was finding seemed so contradictory and I suddenly found myself very overwhelmed and confused. <BR> <BR> Today I am feeling a bit better. I found that I was able to get some... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 22:12:22 EST Hydration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641686 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l442045903.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have decided that I need more hydration, and by "I", I mean, my doctor and my blood tests say that I am dehydrated (among other things). <BR> <BR> I had been doing really well with my hydration for a long time, then when I started with drinking coffee first thing in the morning, I struggled a bit. When I started my job in January, one of the 'policies' is that we drink out of a company branded sport while at wo... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 21:39:12 EST By Doze Is Still Tuffy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640901 OMG! I am still sick and I sound like ^ that when I talk now! I have been sick for...ten (?) days now? I don't know. However many days it is is that many days too long! <BR> Sorry if my blog zigzags from subject to subject, but I have a lot of cold medicine running through my system right now, lol! <BR> <em>527</em> <BR> <BR> My 10 hour shift last Saturday actually went ok and I would have kicked some serious booty if I had not been sick. <BR> I was a bit perturbed because they kept ... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 23:15:08 EST This Week. Dinosaurs and Diabetes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636327 I have tried a few times to start this blog because I am still sorting through my emotions. What I want to do is throw myself on the floor and kick my feet and have a tantrum for 30 seconds until I start berating myself. <BR> I think I will just start at the beginning and sort through the emotional stuff later. <BR> <BR> Sunday was date day for my beau and I. We got up early, had a light breakfast, drove to the train station and headed downtown. We decided that our first day out would be ... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 18:38:17 EST Doctor's visit, and other assorted gobbledegook. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630446 I just had a huge blog typed out and my computer ate it! <BR> <em>28</em> <em>234</em> <em>28</em> <BR> Now I am irked and don't know about typing it all out again....so, in the infamous words of Inigo Montoya in The Princess Bride: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1937715081.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The good news is that I found a doctor who seems as if she will be a good fit for us. She did a very thorough history, put me back on antidepressants like I requested (... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 21:41:06 EST Falling down and other news! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627545 Not the metaphorical falling...the physical falling. <BR> I fell again this morning. My brother in law dropped me off at the store where I catch the bus to go to work. I got there before the store opened and was walking down to the far door (they only have one door open until like 8am) and slid on the ice. We got another 6 inches of snow yesterday but the temps are on the rise this week....I think it got to 40 today. <BR> Anyways, with the temps up a little bit, everything is starting to ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 16:58:58 EST Learning, Knowing, and Doing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622394 Back in the caveman days of UggaBugga and his lovely cave-wife Mobii, they had to come by knowledge the hard way... <BR> Is this berry safe to eat? It didn't kill me, cause a rash, or make me hallucinate, it must be food. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1694111124.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> How do I move that big rock? Oh, this long stick can be used as a lever....or used to boink UggaBugga over the head until he submits and moves it for me. <BR> <img src="http://photo... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 15:25:24 EST No wonder I am hungry! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614810 I wore my activity tracker to work yesterday....ended the day with 161 minutes of actual walking time, burned over a thousand cals, 5.6 miles walked, a grand total of 13,868 steps taken. <BR> The only variance from a regular work day was a mile walk home from the bus stop...my sister had been picking me up either from work or the bus, but I misunderstood what time she had to work until. <BR> Exhausted this morning but off to work shortly! <BR> <BR> I posted on my facebook this morning and... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 09:40:37 EST Thank you to my Spark Friend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5613307 My Sparkfriend Karen sent me a Spark activity tracker. <BR> Thank You Thank You Thank You!!!!! <BR> It arrived yesterday just before I had a night shift at work. I was so stoked to try it out! <BR> I worked for 4 hours last night doing inventory, so not a whole lot of walking. It was, however, a whole lot of getting up and down from the floor and also a step ladder. <BR> I did get more walking in than I thought I would though....I ended up with 2,558 steps in about 40 minutes of tracked t... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 18:44:06 EST 4 week weigh in and calorie confusion! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605667 So, I was at a point of berating myself about my lack of weight loss. Maybe not so much berating myself, but I still don't have my medical insurance card so I haven't been to a doc about getting help with my anxiety/depression. <BR> My last weigh is was January 3 and it has been 4 weeks. When I weighed myself this morning I showed a 2 pound loss. <BR> I will take it...it doesn't matter how slow I am going, as long as I keep heading in the right direction (down!) <BR> <BR> Work has been g... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 21:37:09 EST What a difference! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600618 I am still in training at work so I only worked 16 hours last week and I am scheduled for 18 hours this week. <BR> I worked last week's hours 4 days in a row. I was off for 5 days after that, but looking back to when I was working in a sales position at the candle store earlier this year and it makes a HUGE difference when the company you are working for gives a damn about their employees. <BR> <BR> I realize that the Legoland center is not ONLY retail, it is also a small indoor amuseme... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 21:14:14 EST Thoughts on my food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594155 I enjoy food. It makes me happy to eat something yummy. I love cooking as much as I love eating. But I had a weird thought feeling a couple days ago about eating. I know WHERE the thought came from, but not why I thought it.... <BR> In one of my favorite book series the main character states 'Eating food is something you do so you don't die.' <BR> <BR> I was walking from the bus to work and thinking how tired I was and that my feet wouldn't hurt as much as they were hurting if I wasn't... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 22:56:58 EST My first day at work. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590673 My new Legoland Discovery Center job! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> It was a good day, I am scheduled for 4 days in photo training from 9am til 1 pm, and then I will get 4 days on the retail part of the job. <BR> I got there about a half hour early today, which is about normal for me, it makes me nuts to be late getting anywhere (especially work), so I am a perpetual early person. <BR> The retail manager got there about ten minutes after me and let me in, commenting that I was early and that sh... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 21:27:37 EST The inner me, the outer me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585100 It took me a year and a half to take off 36 pounds. Most of my loss was in the second half of 2012 and I maintained my weight for quite a bit of 2013. The second half of 2013 was a doozy though. <BR> We had a LOT to deal with and I put on a few pounds in September and October...and then in November, I put on ELEVEN pounds. Eleven pounds in a month. <BR> After a LOT of getting into my own head and getting out of my own way, I think I have managed to pull myself part of the way onto the t... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 00:10:33 EST I am supposed to say "I'm Gonna" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576491 Starting tomorrow, I'm gonna.... <BR> Wait. <BR> I am not going to start changing tomorrow. What's wrong with today, or with a few days ago which is actually when I started making the changes that I want to carry over into the new year. <BR> <BR> EVERYONE in my family made ham for holiday dinner, we had ham on Christmas Eve here at home, on Christmas day my aunt made ham and (oddly enough) fried catfish...not sure when she started that tradition, lol! We also went to my older sister's on ... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 10:04:49 EST On a high note http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5572642 Right now, I am on a high note and it is a little worrisome. <BR> Ok, that doesn't make sense unless you are familiar with the ins, outs, ups, and downs of depression. <BR> <BR> Basically, its like this, my life feels FANTASTIC right now and I am trying to enjoy it...I AM enjoying it, but I know that until I get to a doctor, there is also a flip side of my bright and shiny coin. <BR> <BR> Anyways...all that aside. <BR> I have been having a great time, our Christmas was really nice. You ... Thu, 26 Dec 2013 23:20:37 EST Today's Project...sugar cookies! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570044 I made a few dozen sugar cookies last night and we decorated them all today. (And I only ate one!) The cookie dough was from a mix, but I made the icing home made with confectioners sugar. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/3/l638740934.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The one with the EXTRA icing are my nephew's lol! Poor kid was so hopped up on sugar it was kinda scary, lol, at one point he was just licking icing right off the spoon and then saying that he STILL didn't have enough... Sun, 22 Dec 2013 19:49:08 EST Food=Love=Food? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568957 There was a commercial I saw on t.v. a couple of months ago, and it bugged the heck out of me every time it was on and every time I think about it...it was Nestle Tollhouse. <BR> The commercial opens with a teenage girl mooning over a picture of a boy and asks 'Can you heal a broken heart with a bundt cake? Of course you can!' As it shows the loving mother bringing in a slice of cake topped with chocolate chips. <BR> <BR> Please don't misunderstand me, I know they are just advertising thei... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 22:03:28 EST Weigh-ins and What-nots http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5567606 I did some thinking before I stepped on the scale yesterday morning, I have had a lot of overcoming to do over the past year, it was a quite unpleasant and anxiety-filled year for my beau and I. <BR> I had my mind made up before I stepped on the scale that I can work with whatever the number is. I did it before, I can do it again. <BR> I got on the scale and while it was not really good...it also was not as bad as I feared it was going to be. (The thought of my original starting weight of ... Wed, 18 Dec 2013 22:53:30 EST Talk the talk, walk the walk. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566090 I fell off the wagon awhile back and have been pretty much on a plateau since. My plateau was located in the gutter looking at the underside of the wagon. <BR> Over the last few months, I feel like I slipped down the drain hole and am looking up at the underside of the gutter. <BR> <BR> I was reading blogs and someone was talking about having a rough time getting back on the wagon. I commented that I was able to understand and that I wished that I had something profound to say, but I don... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 22:56:40 EST Surprises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564477 So, I have had a few surprises over the last couple of days.... <BR> <BR> One thing is that something in me has relaxed a bit over the last few weeks. I have spent a long time floundering in my faith since my dad passed away in 2006. I have felt so lost and angry, but something in me seems to be healing and I have been feeling markedly better in that area. <BR> <BR> My weight loss is still stalled, but I am making those beginner changes to my diet again and as soon as I start working, I... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 20:26:16 EST New job! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562964 It is part time for now, but I got the job at the Lego Discovery Center! Thu, 12 Dec 2013 14:21:36 EST