_DASH_'s SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=%5FDASH%5F _DASH_'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Weddings, Summer & Resetting Some Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719412 I enjoyed a fantastic few days up in my old home town Burlington, Vermont for the beautiful wedding of one of my closest friends, POKIEFUZZBUCKET. It was perfect! The wedding took place on a boat on Lake Champlain and was filled with a lot of laughs, some happy tears, a beautiful sunset, an awesome music playlist, a delicious maple cake complete with edible lake monster decoration, and lots of great new people I met. I had never had the privilege to be in a wedding party before, but it was so... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 22:01:32 EST June coming through a Big Grey Fog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708341 Something possessed me to log on today, despite not having been around since last July. Wow, time seems to really be flying by in life when I stop at sporadic moments to notice. The only thing that remains the same is that I continue to vacillate on weight loss, eating healthy and in control, and making space to prioritize my own needs. To be fair, I have made some personal strides with self-respect and continue to learn new things about it and how I want to negotiate that I suppose. In Marc... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 20:08:48 EST Magic Numbers, Loss and the Illusion of Choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5419757 I recently turned 27 and have been thinking a lot lately about how embodiment is a strange thing. When I think back on the life I have lived so far, I can't remember much of a time when I DIDN'T feel consumed by the desire to be skinny, to exist in a certain body and therefore do certain things. I can really see certain ways in which I put off living because I hadn't figured out how to get that skinny body yet -always thinking, "later, later, later I will be able to wear the clothes i really... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 11:23:26 EST Crikey. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067287 Well, well, well. Look who the cat dragged in. and by cat, I mean Caterpillar Bulldozer because I have gained back all the pounds. <BR> <BR> Ha. Who's ready for a big old Front Street update??? Better get comfortable for this one. :-) <BR> <BR> To see where I'm at, I had to look back at where I left off and I literally laughed out loud for a while and then almost peed my pants. My last blog update is this laughable post about how I was trying to eliminate all kinds of refined sugars and ... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 04:05:03 EST What have you been eating lately? Picture Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4823035 Here's some food pictures of some of what I have been eating lately. <BR> <BR> I have eliminated 90% of refined sugars and carbohydrates - I have been substituting gluten free tortillas and wraps for bread, rice pasta instead of whole grain and only eating whole foods. I've been using fresh homemade salsa and sauce in moderation. In the last two weeks I have felt good energy wise and definitely notice a difference. <BR> <BR> Here's some pictures: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.spar... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 09:43:57 EST lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4769188 <BR> sorry for my intermittent presence on my page here ... just trying to balance work, working out, and life. i also think i am on the verge of bringing myself back to counseling, but it's a big emotional investment and i am hesitating for whatever reason. i think in part it's depression ... i don't even have the energy to just go .. i sort of feel like i need to psyche myself up for it or something. some days it's very hard to even get out of bed in the morning, and although i love my... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 21:41:44 EST Ticking Things off for Chicago, Whitney Houston http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4734343 On the Chicago check-list: <BR> <BR> officially registered ... check <BR> Plane ticket bought .... round trip for $169.60!! Awesome! ... and check <BR> Hotel booked for marathon eve and the night post-marathon ... check <BR> Friends in the city to hang out with in the days before ... check <BR> <BR> fitness/ cardio minutes done for this past week 1 of pre-training ... 365. I feel good about that! Especially since it's my first real week of consistent exercise since... July. (WOW...) Anywa... Sat, 11 Feb 2012 21:31:50 EST Running and Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4728873 CONFUSEDBIRD reminded me of something I love about running in her blog from today. It really is true that when I am running consistently, not only do I feel better physically, but it feels like my mind, too, is expanded. I notice more about my surroundings, I am paying attention to the little things in life that are rewarding and joyful and my ideas and thoughts seem to just be fuller - you know what I mean? Like, I make connections things better - how I feel and what I want, who I am, what... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 12:14:05 EST Update-a-saurus Rex http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4724029 TIme to play catch-up LOL. <BR> <BR> <BR> Had a fantastic thanksgiving week down in North Carolina and really traveling around the east U.S. Trip started the Friday night before Thanksgiving week - I drove down to CT so my dog could stay with some of my family and play with their dog while I was gone. Left the next morning (Saturday), headed over to Providence, Rhode Island to pick up one of my Bike and Build buddies and then we made our way to Philadelphia. Got there in the afternoon, p... Sun, 5 Feb 2012 20:02:17 EST I want to gain weight! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4573502 I came across this picture online earlier and it sums up everything to me about getting in shape and reaching fitness goals. <BR> <BR> Yeah I want to see a number on the scale that I would feel good about, but I'd much rather my body look like it can do something. <BR> <BR> Yeah it would be cool to be light enough that I could entertain the dreams of being a marathon winner like Deena Kastor or Firehiwot Dado. <BR> <BR> Yeah it would be fun to be a small enough weight that my partner c... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 20:15:49 EST Lately, Last Two Months and Becoming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4571141 It's been a while since I've been on this site and I wasn't sure if I was coming back, but ultimately I missed the features and the record I have here of myself over the past couple years and wanted to get back to the original reasons this site enriched my life. <BR> <BR> A lot has gone on in the past couple months. I got offered one of the dream jobs I didn't think I was fully qualified for - doing reentry and court work for a whole county in my state. I had to get some guts and quit a co... Sun, 6 Nov 2011 13:27:38 EST Choices vs. Sacrifices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4570887 “We make choices. I hate to say 'sacrifices.' When I speak to younger groups, to colleges and other younger athletes, I say 'we don't make sacrifices. If we truly love this sport and we have these goals and dreams in the sport, the classroom, or in life, they're not sacrifices. They're choices that we make to fulfill these goals and dreams.' Sacrifices makes it sound like 'oh, poor me, I have to do this in order to get to this,' and I don't really like that word. It was just really the choice... Sun, 6 Nov 2011 10:26:16 EST September ST Challenge: Before Measurements + Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4467619 Getting a head start on preparing for the Pimp my (P)Ride Strength Training Challenge for the 8 weeks before Halloween. <BR> <BR> I took my before pictures, before measurements and got some new supplies: a Pilates ball, 1 10 pound hand weight, calendar and markers to track workouts, tupperwares for healthy lunches. Things I already had included 3 and 5 lb hand weights, yoga mat, resistance bands, measuring tape, stop watch on my phone. <BR> <BR> My Target Areas for this challenge: <BR> ... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 14:29:19 EST Race Resume http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4435803 I got this book called the Ironplanner to help me prepare for the 70.3 I'm competing in next June. I choose to say competing because I want to solidify in my own mind that my goals for this race, after over two and a half years of building my endurance experience, is to finish somewhat middle of the pack instead of end of the race/ barely within the time limits. Who knows what will really happen when I do my first actual triathlon as a half-ironman, but it's nice to set these goals and stri... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 23:41:21 EST NEW APARTMENT PICS! FOOD PORN PICS! and next goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4432906 I rode my bike downtown yesterday to get WiFi so I could post a blog update with pictures, since the hotspot I am paying for on my phone is less than awesome in terms of connectivity. But that didn't work so I tried the library. No dice. Then I even went to the McDonalds parking lot (DARING) for their free WiFi but that didn't work either! LOL. SOoOoO... today I rode my bike 11 miles to grad school (which means another 11 back) for the real deal internet here haha. Good. Getting two bir... Wed, 17 Aug 2011 15:11:52 EST The Proof is in the Pudding... Or Progress Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4418813 Per the request of NEWYORKORCHIDS, here are some follow up pictures of what the last couple months did to my body. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l248205201.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l966532115.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l129262952.jpg"> <BR> <BR> You can see that is March 24th of this year and then today side to side in the same jersey. Also the separate pics since I don't know how small t... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 13:20:43 EST Anti-Violence, Cycling, Grad School and More Pix from B&B! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4415576 Updatessss. <BR> <BR> - Peaced out of Connecticut last week immediately following a crazy violent domestic episode that I don't really want to go into detail about here, but just to say that it flipped me upside down enough that I'm still dealing with the emotions from it almost a week later. Today I left grad school and drove around the small towns around here with no purpose and felt outraged and that strange confusion feeling that sort of feels a tiny bit like peace in your soul because ... Mon, 8 Aug 2011 22:50:11 EST Next Endeavors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4398778 It's one AM EST right now and I should be sleeping because I'm heading up to Vermont tomorrow to look at an apartment/ hopefully sign the lease if i'm lucky. But instead, I'm feverishly surfing the net, listening to Coeur de Pirate and text messaging. <BR> <BR> Life in CT (albeit rare) throws me for a loop for some reason. There's plenty of reasons I never come here, but I'm trying to make the best of it. Hopefully it's only a few more days that I'll be getting my things in order, movin... Mon, 1 Aug 2011 01:40:02 EST I Cycled Over 3,500 Miles Across the United States!: A Blog About Location http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4390483 WELL WELL WELL!!! I AM BAAAACK!!!!! What an effing summer! Our trip across the United States is complete, and I am going to try to share as much as I can without drowning on forever. Because really, I could go on forever. I don't even know how to start this hahah...god it has been so long! <BR> <BR> So for those who don't know, I pedaled a bicycle over 3,500 miles in the past ten weeks to get from the coast of North Carolina to the coast of San Diego, all in the name of affordable housin... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 19:19:13 EST Survey Fun From YOOVIE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4197571 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> Lady Ashley from Dynasty <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> Monday <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> it has gone down hill in the past couple years, but i like it because it's particular, i'm a lefty and i like the way writing feels and how the pen flows from your hand. <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <BR> turkey or curry chicken salad <BR> <BR> 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? <BR> nope <BR> <BR> 6. IF YOU WERE ... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 22:24:37 EST Why It Matters to Go After the Defining Moments in Your Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4195521 Someone I love a lot said to me recently something about how great it’s going to be to ride my bike across the country in a few weeks and I’ll probably feel like that will be one of my biggest accomplishments, more so than the two marathons I ran. He pointed out that this is so much more extreme, considering that 3,587 miles turns out to be about 137 marathons. Okay, I’m super paraphrasing, but that was the basic idea. My response was something about how I wasn’t quite so sure about that b... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 00:07:51 EST For the AB Teamsters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4183818 hahaha this should make your day... <BR> <BR> <link>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dgoj8<BR>GZe4r0 </link> Fri, 22 Apr 2011 12:35:21 EST Heartbeats, Bike Seats, Epic Fundraiser Raffle Deets and AB Meets. Also *PICS!* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4181443 Had to go to the doctor's last week because we all need to get the physical clearance to do Bike and Build before taking off. I had to get a physical, and haven't been to the doctor since fall of 2008. It was then that I had been weighed at my highest weight and shocked because I had no idea I had reached 285. I told the doctor about my family hx, my dream to someday run a marathon and she referred me to a counselor who ultimately helped me see that goal realized. I went back last week ju... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 11:20:33 EST experience. self determination. hcg. community. not personal. but always personal. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4135889 Thanks to RUSSELORAMA, I realized something. Being in this weight - loss journey, the best part of it is The Experience. What do I mean by The Experience? I mean the process by which something occurs. Everyone on Spark is having an experience, their experience. No doubt I have found some of the best ideas, insight, clarity, joys, pains and realizations because of the fact that so many people are on here, willing to share their journeys. It is phenomenal. But after reading Russell's blo... Sat, 2 Apr 2011 01:38:26 EST update of your dreams! haha just kidding. update though. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4132982 Haven't updated in a while so this will just be a random hodge podge of sludge. Sorry this is likely going to be a mess. <BR> <BR> ON THE EXERCISE FRONT <BR> <BR> Took myself to Bikram Yoga this afternoon for a drop in class because I was hoping to clear my head a bit - when I first experienced Bikram, oh in 2006 it was, it was so rejuvenating. There's just something about sweating your ass off (literally because the room is heated to like 110 degrees) and having that 90 minutes to focus... Thu, 31 Mar 2011 22:24:10 EST INTERESTING REQUEST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4078119 i have a doofy request for a favor. I'm trying to do some creative fundraising here for mah bike trip (www.bikeandbuild.org/rider/4926) and so i'm trying to collect some post cards from around the country to use in a fundraising project. I'm going to use the postcards to put together a giant and pretty visual display and see if I can hang it up as art in one of the coffee shops downtown to draw attention/ funds as well as use some of the cards to solicit donations in other ways! I know some o... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 07:40:26 EST This is what CHANGING YOUR METABOLISM looks like. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4041522 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l108300656.jpg"> <BR> <BR> From Non Runner .... <BR> <BR> to <BR> <BR> Runner ... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l992905559.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Physiology is INCREDIBLE. Kiss that, Adrienne Wald! <BR> Wed, 23 Feb 2011 13:09:43 EST Offensive elitist marathon bullsh!t http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4039426 “It’s a joke to run a marathon by walking every other mile or by finishing in six, seven, eight hours,” said Adrienne Wald, 54, the women’s cross-country coach at the College of New Rochelle, who ran her first marathon in 1984. “It used to be that running a marathon was worth something — there used to be a pride saying that you ran a marathon, but not anymore. Now it’s, ‘How low is the bar?’ ” <BR> <BR> From this article: http://www.nytimes.com/2009/10/23/sports/2<BR>3marathon.html?_r=1 <BR>... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 19:32:15 EST One More Question, Sparkers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4037602 Thank you all for your input yesterday. I have one more question if you could entertain this. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> What's the good thing about being fat? <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> And again no right or wrong answers, except that you can't say "nothing." There has to be something positive somewhere. What is it, to you? Tue, 22 Feb 2011 08:17:48 EST Question For Sparkers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4032971 I'm going to be daft here and ask a pretty simple, yet complex question. please leave your thoughts, ideas, opinions, experiences, whathaveyou in the comments if you feel compelled. Thanks! I'm curious to see what kinds of varieties of answers and ideas people have. No right or wrong answer. Completely subjective. <BR> <BR> <BR> What does it mean to be fat? Sun, 20 Feb 2011 17:16:54 EST What I Will Be Doing This Summer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4008329 <link>http://bikeandbuild.org/rider/4926 </link> Thu, 10 Feb 2011 23:08:30 EST Asking For Another Kind of Support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3995704 Dear Spark Friends, <BR> <BR> I hope this letter finds you doing well in the New Year and all there is yet to come! I myself am excited for what opportunities lay ahead after having finished the New York City Marathon this past fall, and am now looking for other ways to challenge myself to new levels. I will be graduating from a Master’s program I have been working on this coming fall and considering where I might want to go next. Currently, I am working for the City I live in with people ... Sun, 6 Feb 2011 17:29:40 EST Unveiling. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3961056 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l50075626.jpg"> Tue, 25 Jan 2011 21:51:50 EST HELP HELP HELPPPPPP!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3945355 <BR> <BR> EDIT****: I GOT BOTH MANHATTAN AND STATEN ISLAND HAHAHAHAAHAHHAA!!! i rationalized it that if i decided later that two was too greedy, i could always sell one bc there will be someone out there who will want it for all the same reasons as me. and once they're gone, they're gone. but i think i will hang them both on my wall side by side. ah. i even cried haaahhaha trying to think of the significances of each. too epic. <BR> <BR> <BR> i need immediate asssitance pleassseeeeeee... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 20:12:29 EST unveiling and the constant self-acceptance dream http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3939495 so. i need a plan. january is always hard for me for some reason, and by always hard i mean the past two years. it's like for me everything derails in january, the pressure, the whole "turning a new leaf, don't eff it up" mentality just makes me self sabotage before i even begin. <BR> <BR> i was looking at old blogs to see where i was last year at this time. on this day last year actually, i tried zumba for the first time. how funny is that. in january, i was still wrapped up in my ex... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 01:16:29 EST This is for LEAN-N-LEXY. and NEYO. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3933103 The time has come. Don't make fun of my voice. I messed up my vocal chords in kindegarten because I used to make this high high pitched voice for my tiny stuffed frog like 20 hours a day and I got the papers from a speech pathologist to prove that it screwed with me. After that I tried to only do the froggy voice in secret. But I still got in trouble. True story. Mon, 17 Jan 2011 11:22:43 EST Rambling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3927888 tonight i'm having dinner with someone i find incredibly beautiful inside and out and i'm really happy about it, but not overly excited, because i want to remember to be patient in my life. it took me almost two years to get to this place, where i am (somewhat surprised to be) finding someone other than my first love attractive and desirable. hahah i didn't expect to start crying as i type this. the transitions life throws at us are insanely complex. in any case, i know i am ready for the... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 15:30:05 EST SHARK Infested Waters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3870938 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l877594901.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l143299308.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And by waters, I mean airwaves, brain space, any channel that's coming through on my radio. <BR> <BR> Tuning in... <BR> <BR> I miss my gym. Truth be told I have only been once or twice since the marathon. Which was November 7th. Really. It's kind of disgusting. Especially because I definitely derailed in the eating department also... Thu, 30 Dec 2010 05:24:11 EST Words Can't Even Describe This! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3860429 "I think the key is for women to not set any limits." <BR> <BR> A tribute to the most beautiful women I have ever encountered. My best friends. People who teach me every day our dreams are tiny things compared the power within us to reach them. I love you girls! Thank you for the best year of my life, and even better to come! <BR> <BR> Turn up your volume! <BR> <BR> AHAHAHAAH sorry about "Title Text Here" at the end! Forgot to edit that. Fri, 24 Dec 2010 09:39:58 EST There are just some things that diets and exercise Will Not Overcome http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3853756 And you know what? That is the beauty of life. hahahah! <BR> <BR> Exhibit A: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l977099839.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Exhibit B: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l582589549.jpg"> <BR> <BR> REAL ITALIAN AMERICAN (woops!) PASTRIES FROM FRANKLIN AVENUE IN HARTFORD CONNECTICUT. <BR> A friend from back home shrink wrapped and sent me my ALL TIME FAVORITE ITALIANO COOKIES! mmmmmm. words can't even describe. <BR> <BR> hehehehe! <... Mon, 20 Dec 2010 11:09:29 EST That Would Be Like... 135 Marathons... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3852532 Next summer is going to be the BEST SUMMER OF MY LIFE and here. is. why. <BR> <BR> <em>332</em> BECAUSE: I'm going to pedal a bike across the country and stop all along the way and build houses for people who don't have any. <BR> <BR> <em>332</em> BECAUSE: I'm going to sweat my ass off in North Carolina (This is a tease, I know, SHARKBAIT.), Tennessee, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Kansas, Colorado, Arizona and California. <BR> <BR> <em>332</em> BECAUSE: I'm going to ride through wind and rain ... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 17:20:17 EST Weekend Action Plan! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3849418 SUCK IT! Dec 17 - 19 AKA Operation GET BACK ON TRACK GALLO! <BR> <BR> As I was lazing around on facebook this morning (still haven't taken a shower... did some house work, but having an attention deficiit day so far so i haven't accomplished much...) I was looking through photos and happened to click on the one of me coming off the Queensboro Bridge at the NYC Marathon ... <BR> <BR> I love that picture because it always takes me back to exactly where I was in that moment - I had just prope... Fri, 17 Dec 2010 14:00:51 EST My New Winter Coat! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3838065 Just for fun, pictures of my new Steve Madden Teal winter coat, size XL from the "Regular" Section. :D it was $205 at Macys marked down to $119 but then was only $82 when i got to the register! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l367279176.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/5/l459951992.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l464227134.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l978380087.jpg"> <BR>... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 14:11:53 EST Hearts and Cancer and Losing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3837788 Here's where I'm at right now. <BR> <BR> At my new job, they took on another person to do education work with our clients as we have an employment person and i am the catch-all resources person. this guy is very boisterous, served in Vietnam and takes a lot of energy to interact with, as I learned on day one when he told me openly about his PTSD and experience killing a 13 year old. So from day one I have had this sort of feeling that i would be spending a lot of time "managing" office dyn... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 11:00:17 EST When I Reach Goal Weight.. Or.. The Real Reason Why Emma Watson Is Provocative. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3830624 I have fantasies about this idea that my head will be smaller hahah and because my body will look like i want it to that i'll have the license to do whatever i want to my hair and still look good, and i fantasize about cutting it like this: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l79977664.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l35683252.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l797809741.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 19:36:43 EST Dec 7 - SUCK IT! - Check In Template http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3830245 <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <BR> <BR> Suck It December 7th! *TOUGH LOVE* <BR> <BR> <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <em>43</em> <BR> <BR> Sometimes we get a little too lenient, a little too nice to ourselves and go from being kind and loving ourselves to just plain taking advantage of our own kindness. Maybe we have promised something to ourselves every day this month and never actually really did any of them. It's ok if t... Tue, 7 Dec 2010 15:35:44 EST Dec 6 - SUCK IT - Check In Template http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3828368 <em>253</em> <em>425</em> <em>253</em> <em>425</em> <em>253</em> <em>425</em> <BR> DECEMBER 6TH CAN SUCK IT, CAUSE THE WEEKEND IS OVAH <BR> <em>253</em> <em>425</em> <em>253</em> <em>425</em> <em>253</em> <em>425</em> <BR> <BR> This weekend, I didn't do everything I planned on doing, and I feel kinda bad, but I won let it keep me down because tonight I promise myself publicly that [[i will go run around with kids for an hour, make chicken soup (as healthy ... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 19:29:46 EST 1 Step Back, 2 Steps Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3827154 This isn't about a dance move, although, that might help. :D <BR> Another way to title this blog could have been, "Back to Life... Back to Realityyyyy..." but I am using a spark article as inspiration. <BR> <BR> http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/moti<BR>vation_articles.asp?id=84 <BR> <BR> I made some poor choices on Sunday. I know it doesn't mean the weekend was a sham, but the fact that I felt nauseous all night, culminating in my gagging for about an hour this morning and then finally... Mon, 6 Dec 2010 10:08:08 EST Dedication for everyone who is ANTI BLAH. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3821624 I dedicate this song and video to my AB! FAMILY. Take it with you on your workouts today and think of all the brightness in the world that we emit into it and deserve to have back - the neverending circle of LIFE! I am going to go running in Bolton, VT by the ski slopes and listen to this in the woods and just explore and run and have fun. Happy Friday! <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hSXKjHDKkY </link> <BR> <BR> Fri, 3 Dec 2010 11:48:07 EST SUCK IT! December to New Years Challenge Entry Card! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3818816 <em>189</em> <em>445</em> <em>285</em> <em>292</em> <em>54</em> <em>8</em> <em>265</em> <em>189</em> <em>445</em> <em>285</em> <BR> <BR> SUCK IT CHALLENGE ENTRY CARD AND DAY ONE CHALLENGE <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> <em>445</em> <em>285</em> <em>292</em> <em>54</em> <em>8</em> <em>265</em> <em>189</em> <em>445</em> <em>285</em> <BR> <BR> 1. Pick any 5 things to measure that you will measure again on New Year's Day. Post those current measurements here. it can be everything... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 08:41:43 EST