ZERO2HERO's SparkPeople Blog ZERO2HERO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I'm Back. Again. I don't to appear to be the fickle girlfriend, who only comes crawling back when she needs something, but alas, here I am having not blogged in over a year, and am admittedly here, well, to blog. <BR> <BR> I'm back. Again. <BR> <BR> This will be the third go-around in four years. The first was for "health for health's sake" and it is was a tremendous journey where I learned some, but not enough; while I did lose 88 pounds, I also only knew to count calories and burn calories, which was fine... Wed, 28 Jun 2017 09:07:13 EST Tuesday's Jury Duty Musings I, first, should thank those of you for the support and advice on my previous blog. My mother-in-law did not force her poor eating beliefs on me or my daughter that night; instead she force fed her plantains and hot dogs. Which did bring me to an understanding about her: she needs to provide. <BR> <BR> She is provider. And by that I mean she is compelled to get you something, do something, or feed you something come hell or high water because that is what she needs to do. When none of us ha... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 08:35:14 EST I am, admittedly, venting here. Today is one of my four solid "days off" before I begin teaching summer school and has been a delightful day with the little one thus far - not too mention we've been doing so much that I'm 500 steps away from my daily goal and it isn't even 2 pm! We feed ducks, went for a 3 mile walk, and played at the playground already and are hoping for some pool time before we head over to the in-laws. <BR> <BR> And that's where this momentary rant will begin. <BR> <BR> I will admit that my pregnancy h... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 13:53:52 EST It's been a while I appear to struggle with my allegiance to SP when pregnant; though that seems to be the habit of many an SP member when pregnant or immediately afterwards. It's something about suddenly not knowing your body so well that makes the intuitive understanding of what you need and want too foreign. <BR> <BR> That's not an excuse - just a thought. <BR> <BR> I've resolved to be more aware of my habits with a lighter working schedule for these next 2 months. I am working through July and have jury... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 08:18:56 EST A Return from Vacation So I'm typing this on my phone, which is a first, so forgive my brevity and potential for typos. We returned from a wonderful vacation that was filled with walking and climbing and unadulterated family time as well as indulgences. Indulgences that not only peaked my former sweet tooth, but my pregnancy cravings as well. I justified those choices with that fact that we hiked all day and I'm pregnant, but the reality is that if I have to justify a food choice then it isn't really justifiable.... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 22:17:29 EST I ate lasagna. I ate lasagna tonight. <BR> <BR> And I liked it. <BR> <BR> But before this turns into a Katy Perry parody for Italian food, I feel the need to address that I hate lasagna. I can honestly say that absolutely nothing about its texture or taste has ever appealed to me. In fact, I used to dread when it was lasagna night as a kid and was even further disgusted by it every single holiday that my mother-in-law enthusiastically shoves it in my face. It also is worth pointing out that I don't really... Sun, 27 Mar 2016 20:25:04 EST More grievances than musings, but it's that kind of day I thought about going to bed early and decided on blogging instead. Perhaps I will regret this in the morning, but only time will tell. <BR> <BR> There's a lot going on in my head lately, which seems to be primarily stemming from some serious dissatisfaction with my job; it's a mess - public education in general and especially where I work. And I'm beginning to be "the squeaky wheel," which I am not comfortable with or proud of and thought perhaps blogging those frustrations might keep my na... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 21:46:04 EST The 140 - 142 Paradigm & Other Musings 140.4 lbs - 142.4 lbs is my consistent weigh-in range. At first it was three weeks at 142.4 and then one week at 140.4, always the week before my TOM. This time when my TOM was expected, I was, sure enough, 140.4 again. But this morning the pattern broke and I landed right in the middle: 141.4. <BR> <BR> I'm not complaining; it's a precursor to my internal eating dialogue, which goes a little something like this: "Is it an emotional craving or a hormonal/pregnancy craving?" I think I know t... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 08:29:08 EST Bury the Lead So many things have happened and/or are worthy of blogging (for myself, of course), but alas time has not been my friend - or perhaps blogging just hasn't been my priority? I guess it's all a matter of perception. <BR> <BR> On that, I have been having a crisis of conscious and value these past few days as the result of a parent email. I'd be remiss to not mention that I previously had this student in an advanced 8th grade language arts class and she was the only parent to seek me out for a o... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 19:25:09 EST The Daily Dissertation (or series of grievances) I'm not a fan of these few and far between blogs and, quite frankly, in an ideal, meritocratic, world riddled with self-confidence, I would blog daily - sometimes twice - and be paid handsomely. <BR> <BR> Alas, this is not that world - one day, perhaps - so for now I'll take the moments I have afforded myself in what sometimes feels like a rollercoaster on loop. <BR> <BR> My day started with a student arriving with what seemed to be a subtle odor. Moments later the subtlety smacked us in th... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 20:30:40 EST Time Flies and Stands Still All at the Same Time I've been busy. <BR> <BR> In an alternate world that busy is jet-setting into unadulterated beauty where I swim and hike over and through landscapes of unspeakable colors and terrains and I end every day surrounded by a warm, glowing setting sun, my family, and good conversation. And so my busy would be entirely self-serving and indulgent but amazing nevertheless. <BR> <BR> Alas, I am an in New Jersey. In February. And a high school teacher. <BR> <BR> There's nothing wrong with any of thos... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 20:37:59 EST Chalk it all up to Fat Tuesday This blog has nothing to do with Fat Tuesday, but as I'm running through what feels like a nonstop, crazy, and more emotional than should have been day, I'm hoping it's because it's Fat Tuesday. The logic? There is none, but I think I need a reason. <BR> <BR> Moving on. <BR> <BR> Pregnancy watch: still waiting. Not taking a test. <BR> <BR> Food eating: Wonderfully still Whole30 compliant. <BR> <BR> My stress levels have been climbing, which is mostly work related, but I'm not responding w... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 19:23:33 EST This isn't my first rodeo (TMI) Bare with me, folks, it's another one of THOSE blogs. Let's recap: the first time I thought I was pregnant, I was pregnant. The second time I thought I was pregnant, I was simply returning to my cycle postpartum. The third time I thought I was pregnant, I was pregnant (and unfortunately lost the baby). The fourth time I thought I was pregnant, I was, once again, returning to my cycle. Sidenote: returning to cycle for the first time is a VERY confusing experience, give me a break. <BR> <BR> W... Mon, 8 Feb 2016 19:38:16 EST I. Feel. Pretty. I've blogged before about my fairly consistent insecurities, which is certainly an issue and always will be to some extent. But aren't we all works in progress? And I'm not going to blog about that, but rather what materialized beyond my insecurities. <BR> <BR> A few weeks back my best friend invited me to a "Galentine's Day" party. That's right. GALentine. As in just ladies hanging around, chatting, and, in this case, eating brunch. I was super hesitant right off the bat because, well, this... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 19:33:53 EST And So Concludes Another Whole30 (Oh, and there's that goal weight) I've been busy - busier than usual - and I know that even if there were more hours in the day or days in the week I would still, more than likely, feel completely overwhelmed with, well, stuff. But that is not the purpose of this blog. <BR> <BR> I - what I think is - successfully complete my second Whole30. It was a very different experience for several reasons: 1.) I'm working, 2.) it's winter (different food available), and 3.) it was much less of a transition. After finishing round one I ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 20:51:55 EST I Wrote a Blog I wrote a blog. <BR> <BR> I had clarity. <BR> <BR> And a nice little writer's voice going, quite frankly. <BR> <BR> <BR> And then the g*d damned server fritz and I lost it. <BR> <BR> Along with my clarity. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Mon, 25 Jan 2016 21:31:03 EST I Wrote a Blog I wrote a blog. <BR> <BR> I had clarity. <BR> <BR> And a nice little writer's voice going, quite frankly. <BR> <BR> <BR> And then the g*d damned server fritz and I lost it. <BR> <BR> Along with my clarity. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Mon, 25 Jan 2016 21:31:03 EST Whole30 Day 19 Comes to a Close And it is actually day 19 - contrary to my strong urge to throw the towel in yesterday, I did not. It certainly helps that I had returned to the daily grind where food is planned and organized and presented in non-optional tupperwares with no other food access in sight. But I also made the conscious effort to change up the food. I forgot to take pictures, unfortunately... <BR> <BR> Breakfast: 2 hard boiled eggs, leftover meatballs mixed with peppers and onions <BR> Lunch: leftover spaghetti ... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 20:13:27 EST What the hell Day 18? Post illness this Whole30 just sucks. I usually rely on the timeline to validate or invalidate my day-to-day cravings, feelings, etc... but since having the flu last week I am totally off. I'm in the window of awesomeness. Days 17 - 26 (with a rough day warning for 21) are supposed to be the strongest, most energy filled days in the entire experience, but here I am food bored, physically run-down, and emotionally exhausted. <BR> <BR> I know it's all in my control, but I must admit I have bee... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 19:30:05 EST A Husband's Dedication I've mentioned it before - and I'm pretty sure I always will need to - that my husband does not share the relationship or difficultly with foods that i do. And as a result of never having had adverse reactions to a piece of pizza or gaining 10 pounds in a month, he has also never discovered the impact the food in your system can have on you or learned to value nutrition in the fullest way. That is not to say he is not healthy; he just doesn't need to do all the things I need to do. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 12:36:10 EST Whole 30 Days 11-13 & Apparently the Flu? Monday afternoon I started getting that metallic sick taste that you know means you're about to get knocked out by, at the very least, a cold. And sure enough I have had a fever that has bounced between 101 and 103 for the past 2 days, only just breaking within the last hour. I don't believe it's Whole30 related though; there weren't enough toxins in my system to begin with. I believe this is more a casualty of working in a high school. The flu is going around and it got me. <BR> <BR> I also... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 15:08:38 EST Whole30 Day 10: Sunday used to be a day of rest. There was a time, long ago, when Sunday was "lazy Sunday" and it was glorious. I've always had busy weeks and weekends; I was a competitive swimmer for 18 years (all through college), but the one day a week that was always less man hours and more sitting around was Sunday. And in college my roommates and i even had a ritual (back when Grey's Anatomy aired on Sundays and used humor more than melodramatics) we called "lazy Sunday." We picked something to bake, we got a little drunk, and enjoyed... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 19:51:58 EST Whole30 Days 8 & 9: The Gut Adjustment Period I was really looking forward to blogging last night, but my mother-in-law decided to "pop in" because she was in the area. The problem with that sentence is that she was 1.) not in the area and 2.) three hours does not constitute "popping in." But she did enjoy herself as did my daughter; the downfall was that I felt cheated out of our family evenings and any time with my daughter - I counted we shared 10 minutes together yesterday. And I recognize that's selfish because she is my daughter's ... Sat, 9 Jan 2016 12:49:50 EST The End of Week One & Ceilings on the Floor I'd like to begin with the common cliche: "a picture is worth a thousands words": <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That is my classroom and I know what you're thinking, "why is the ceiling on the floor and in the garbage can?" And, well, it's because THAT'S the kind of building I work in. So it was 28 degrees in my classroom, th... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 19:57:05 EST My head says keeping going and my body says stop. So it's the end of day 6 and there's so much running through my mind, but at the same time my body is asking me to just lay down and relax. So I'm going to try and cram in lots of thoughts and then just be with my tea for a bit. (I am loving the incidental rhyming here!) <BR> <BR> Let me begin with the fact that I am going strong on The Whole30, rounding out day 6, which is termed the "I just want to nap" stage and is feeling all too true right now. I've been hazy and tired all day and re-re... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 20:07:59 EST Whole 30 Day5 & Skinny Vibes This morning started off on a "feeling' skinny" vibe, which is always a nice feeling. It primarily came from putting on one belt, moving it to the inner most hole and having enough space that I needed to return to the official pre-pregnancy belts and then move that belt all the way in too. Needless to say, i was feeling fine and was compelled to snap a photo: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And while I was absolutely ... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 20:11:34 EST "Kill All the Things!" Whole30 Day 4 Days four and five of The Whole30 are labeled, "Kill All the Things," which I thankfully only experienced for about 5 minutes this afternoon and doubt it was related to The Whole30. Truthfully it was a pair of AP students who consistently fail to listen and proved me right, yet again, all while never accepting responsibility for their choices (like waiting until the night before a 3 month paper is due). <BR> <BR> Otherwise things were peachy keen - my meals were prepped and I remained loyal ... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 20:47:58 EST The Whole30 Hangover & Feeding Ducks Day three of The Whole30 is over and done and typically referred to as "the hangover." Yesterday (also known as the hangover didn't feel like one, but today I'm feeling it a bit with an ugly cold and The Whole30 #2s. If you've done this before, you know what I mean and if you haven't, I'll spare you a description (or picture) of my bowels. <BR> <BR> Moving on <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Today was great and started with a delicious breakfast that was the result of talking my husband out of us ... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 20:24:53 EST Sweet Potatoes: A Love Story What can I say? I LOVE sweet potatoes - always have, always will (I think). And we're talking plain-old-sweet potatoes, no butter, no sugar, nothing. And when it comes to The Whole30, I especially LOVE them, so without further ado here are my meals thus far (always hoping to update later with dinner): <BR> <BR> Breakfast Bowl: Sausage, sweet potatoes, and avocado with an over easy egg on top <BR> <img src=""> <BR>... Sat, 2 Jan 2016 13:13:22 EST Ripe Avocados & Coconut Oil: The Unsung Heroes of The Whole30 Like many of us, I have pledged my health in the new year, though slightly different than the dark and sad evening of January 1st, 2013 when I joined SparkPeople, acknowledged how cliche I felt and tried my damnedest anyway. And try as I did, I was successful that year only to gain the majority of it back after a pregnancy and then to lose it again. <BR> <BR> Which is where I am at now - deciding to reset my health and eating habits on The Whole30. <BR> <BR> I'll admit that I closed out the... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 13:10:09 EST Reacquainting myself with The Whole30 Starting January 1st, I'll be embarking on my second Whole30 not because I want to lose weight or have established a New Year's resolution, but because I want to maintain a healthy body and mind, something The Whole30 has done for me before. <BR> <BR> The first go around garnished a 12 pound weight loss and several inches (I don't remember specifics), which I don't expect this time. Mostly because I maintained a fairly regular Whole30 lifestyle in the subsequent months, which brought me anot... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 21:23:42 EST Christmas Re-cap & Food Addictions Starting on a less pensive note, Christmas was a delight - my daughter (at 18 months) understands it and my husband and I simply enjoyed it. It, of course, helps that I was handed some VERY generous and surprising gifts (one of which is the Mac I'm typing on right now). It was a three day whirl wind, however, and that certainly makes maintaining consistent holiday spirit challenging - having done Christmas Eve at my mother's, Christmas day at my in-laws, and a third round of present opening a... Sat, 26 Dec 2015 14:06:04 EST LBD (Little Black Dress) I plan on snapping a photo or two this evening, but those will have to wait; the babe is napping and I'm taking advantage of SP with a Christmas movie on in the background. <BR> <BR> I am happy to say I've been sitting at goal weight (and admittedly a little below) for about 3 weeks now and it feels great. I know that maintenance is a life long dedication, but I'm just starting to appreciate my non-scale victories. This is mostly a clothing thing, for now, but it's so great to be able to sli... Sat, 19 Dec 2015 14:57:37 EST Goal weight, we meet again Alas, I have reached my initial goal weight of 150 lbs for the fourth time in my life (mind you, I'm 30). The first time I was a senior in high school and was so blind to the accomplishment that I refused to acknowledge it as a goal weight, whittling myself down to a 128 lbs and 6 hours of exercise a day (details for another day, perhaps). The second time I was in college, having gained back all the weight +10 (haven't we all?), I did some soul searching and found lifestyle choices that made ... Tue, 8 Dec 2015 20:41:00 EST So I'm not pregnant I have been in limbo for the past two weeks with the symptoms so often indicative of early pregnancy only to come to the end today with confirmation that this was extreme PMS. That's the second time this has happened in my life - the other being the first cycle I had after having my daughter, which brings me to a slight tangent, ladies, the first round of PMS most definitely feels like pregnancy all over again: the soreness, the exhaustion, the nauseous bouts, etc... <BR> <BR> The results ha... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 12:35:12 EST Apathy and Feeling Nothing at All. Today marks the 11th year I have successfully failed to attend the New Jersey Education Association Teacher's Convention in Atlantic City. It's not something I'm proud of and I always think about going, but always find myself surrounded by ungraded papers and empty lesson plans. I do realize though that it will never be a priority if I don't make it one - and I'm okay with that. <BR> <BR> I've had so much running through my heart, mind, and stomach that I'm not quite sure where to start here... Fri, 6 Nov 2015 10:24:07 EST A Selfish Entry I really try to only let these blogs serve as self-reflection - primarily to evaluate my current relationship with food, but lately that's been so strongly under control that I'm reaching these weird emotional precipices that I am uneqipped to handle. <BR> <BR> Two things on that: <BR> 1.) I am NOT emotional eating - BIG success <BR> 2.) I am pregnant so there's no telling what emotions are heightened from the hormone surge I've been experiencing. <BR> <BR> Not feeling compelled to eat when... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 22:00:56 EST Take a Knee And that's what I'm doing, taking a knee. It's been go-go-go all day and I am finally sitting down for the first time (aside from driving) since I woke up at 5am. The husband is sick - and an absolute wuss - so he's shut himself in the second bedroom and fallen asleep for hours. The daughter has finally gone down, and is sound asleep, after quite a few irrational demands. And I have decided that grading more papers is just not in the cards tonight. Admittedly, I am kinda looking forward to th... Tue, 13 Oct 2015 19:35:10 EST Long time no blog & emotional eating It feels like I haven't blogged in quite some time - while it's only really been about 20 days - and that life has suddenly switched to a sprint-like pace with a marathon distance. <BR> <BR> And I am not here to complain about that. I recognize that being a teacher has the perk of slow summers and a long winter break, but the abrupt welcome to autumn with 100+ students, twice the amount of papers, and their lovely, always positive parents (please read the last "perk" with as much sarcasm as ... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 08:22:13 EST The Whole30 Results Today was day 31, which I continued on the straight and narrow Whole30 until dinner when I had my first glass of wine in a very long time. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Turns out I don't like wine. It was bitter and unsatisfying - not to mention almost instantly giving me a headache. I didn't even finish that little bit you see (that was my full glass). Talk about a disappoint non-compliant food introduction! No matter, ... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 20:05:52 EST A Day of Firsts and One Last. Today is the final day of Whole30. <BR> <BR> It is also the first day I have ever used a FitBit as well as the first day of school. Who knew September 1st would be such a big deal? The first day of school was what it always is: a lot of sitting and listening for extremely long periods of time while administrators who never come into your building, do for one day and talk at you. It's the antithesis of their expectations for us, the teachers, with our students, but every year, they come in dr... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 19:44:00 EST Approaching the Finish Line Today is the last day of August and with it, day 29 out of 30 on The Whole30 Program as well as the last day before a new school year. To honor our beautiful summer and say good bye to the slightly freer opportunities allowed to us, we indulged in one last gorgeous beach day. A day that started at 4:45 am so we could catch the sunrise on the beach: <BR> <img src=""> <img src=" Mon, 31 Aug 2015 09:56:10 EST Good Morning, Whole30 Day24 I said I would stop blogging in the morning. <BR> <BR> Forget it. I have less than a week before the daily grind, a lot on my mind, and a much clearer head at 9am. Where to start... <BR> <BR> I'm going to start with returning to the daily grind. I'm a high school English teacher, specifically the AP Language teacher. I enjoy my position and the 45 minute increments of class; I enjoy the planning and the prepping. I hate the administrative bull----, the open whining and grade grubbing in an ... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 09:51:17 EST Whole30: The Interlude & Carly-gazing Here we are - Day 22. <BR> <BR> I had the chance to return to "normalcy" with a great swim this morning and my home-cooked meals, the last of which is baking in the oven right now. The cravings of this past weekend have subsided as well as the headaches. And while I thought I was still tired, about an hour ago another surge of energy hit me; so I think it's a matter of my perspective. What did I do differently? I drank considerably more water, exercised my way, and took this morning slow. Ea... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 19:58:55 EST Whole30 Days 18 - 21 & Another Stay-cation I've just rounded out day 21 of the Whole30, which seems surreal because I'm not quite sure where those 21 days went. The program has treated me well and I've followed it to the tee thus far. In fact, the beginning of this week was tiger blood fueled - high energy, super productive, and great workouts - but the end of the week didn't shed the same enormous enthusiasm. <BR> <BR> Today I feel tired and have a headache, which is very similar to how yesterday ended as well as the day before. Th... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 19:52:31 EST Whole30 Day17: Fun with Food Today I felt a momentary tiger blood energy surge. Really from when I woke up to about 3pm; it has been yawns-ville since. Admittedly, I almost reached for an afternoon cup of coffee, but that's when I realized I could always just go to sleep earlier tonight. After all, my daughter goes to bed around 6:30 every night. <BR> <BR> Part of my afternoon sleepiness might have been my swim today. I pushed myself more than usual because I felt good. And it did feel good. I made good time, felt stron... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 20:21:16 EST It's a Double Blog Day. I'm double blogging today. <BR> <BR> I love the feeling of sitting down to a cup of black coffee and blogging with the radio on in the background, but the reality is that it's not making my work morning's productive and it's not a habit I can carry into the school year. Evening blogs, however, are something I may be able to maintain - not nearly as often, of course. <BR> <BR> Today has been great. I'm feeling more energetic and well rested; I went Spinning and worked harder than I had in th... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 20:28:27 EST Whole30 Day16: Don't Fear the Fat. 15 days into my Whole30 program I finally understood the impact of good fats on your diet. I have been, admittedly, shying away from the amount of fat indicated on the program's portion suggestions; I always include a fat, but often not in the quantity advised because of the fear of fats - and also because every other avocado I've cut into has been moldy. Yesterday, I cut into the most beautiful, perfectly ripe avocado (I love when that happens) and decided on a full half an avocado with my l... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 09:14:30 EST Whole30: The beginning of Week 3, PMS, & Moderation I was feeling uncharacteristically bloated earlier this weekend and was questioning my fat intake on Whole30, but it turns out my time of the month came early. I'm still getting used to having it again (second time since having a baby) and wasn't really sure when I would get it - the answer is a week early. Though after some Whole30 forum reading, it turns out quite a few women get it about a week early on Whole30. Not quite sure why. <BR> <BR> Given the cramping, I think I'm still doing wel... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 09:39:27 EST Whole30: good-bye day 11 and hello day 12! I've "made it through" the two days identified as the statistically most likely to quit days of Whole30. I air quote that because I didn't experience a breaking point or challenging moment where I wanted to quit. In fact, while I have been a little tired in the evening and running low on food diversity in my fridge, I feel pretty good. <BR> <BR> I've always been accustomed to the "stomach rumbles" or emergency bathroom needs after a large majority of my meals. It's one of my least favorite p... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 08:56:24 EST