ZAPPATTACK's SparkPeople Blog ZAPPATTACK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 467: Sorry for the hiatus! So now that I'm in graduate school, it's been A LOT more difficult to keep up with schoolwork, gym, SP, and eating healthy. Unfortunately the ones that suffered most were the eating healthy and logging on. I've gotten into a fitness routine which requires suuuper early mornings but I feel is worth it because then I go through the rest of my day feeling pretty good. <BR> <BR> I started going to spin classes about 2 weeks ago now... AND I LOVE IT!! Spin keeps me focused on the ride and not so ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 09:12:03 EST Day 380: A 360 degree viewpoint change! Hi friends! <BR> <BR> So I've been trying to stick to my "rules" I made for myself and I feel like overall, I've done well. I have missed two days of getting over 6,000 steps and definitely broke down with my two treat a week rule this week (I blame it being shark week and my desire for chocolate and carbs rising). I haven't seen the "amazing sudden weight loss" that I've always expected. But let me tell you what I've learned after being on this weight loss journey for over a year: <BR> <BR... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 10:15:21 EST The Ups and Downs of Starting Over So like everyone else, I indulged a bit too much over the weekend. Bummer. I expected to be up a bit, but not staring at pretty much the same number that I saw a week ago. That got me drinking water like crazy - pretty sure I've consumed over a gallon today, which is a big deal for me. My new water bottle helped with that since it holds a half gallon and has an insert-able ice thing that keeps the water cold. On the bright side, I did have a great 4th and made guacamole to take over to my boy... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 19:24:50 EST July 1, 2014: A Fresh Start 368 days. That's how many days I have been a part of SparkPeople. <BR> <BR> I wish I could say I'm one of those people who has had amazing successes, but I'm not. I'm average, I've done okay, but I've bounced around the same 3-5lbs for the past 6+ months. I realize all my blogs sound the same too, about me wanting to get back on track but not actually "doing" anything about it. I've sabotaged myself with parties and excuses. I've ignored the call to go to the gym or turn down soda/alcohol. ... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 23:13:44 EST Day 340: Fears & Fortunes Lately I've been feeling somewhat conflicted with things. One thing is that eating right and healthy consistently is HARD. I feel like it's what has messed up my consistent losses and has instead provided me with plateaus... I also cracked one of my toenails this weekend which has inhibited my workouts until today. I'm afraid to run on it in case it cracks more and bleeds all over my running shoes. So we'll see what happens. It's less than 2 weeks until the Warrior Dash. I'm also wishing I ha... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 21:37:36 EST Day 323: Happy :) I finally saw the scale move this week! Ever since December, I have gained/lost the same 3-4 lbs and now I'm finally under 230 again!! Couldn't be more excited. <BR> <BR> I've been eating much better and making better choices. I've also begun reading A Year of No Sugar, which is a pretty interesting book about a family who bans sugar in their home for one year to see what happens. I feel like I'm back into the mindset I had last year when I started my journey and that makes me so happy. <BR>... Sat, 17 May 2014 16:23:46 EST Day 314: I completed 110 fitness minutes today... WHAT?! I speak the truth! After 3 separate walks today (one to my afternoon job, one home, and one with mom this evening), I walked almost 4 miles and earned back about 500-600 calories. It feels good to be active and see my motivation come through on the SP screen. <BR> <BR> I'm currently watching some show about the food industry and its reconstruction of "low fat" and "heart healthy" foods. I know for me, it's a struggle to distinguish between what's actually healthy versus what claims to be he... Thu, 8 May 2014 22:46:14 EST Day 313: Mental Games I've come to the somewhat obvious conclusion that losing weight is yes physical, but mostly mental. What's difficult is going home after a solid workout at the gym and gobbling up dinner, sides, and desserts before even checking to see how much was burned off. I'm considering purchasing a Polar HR Monitor specifically for that reason... Food brain takes over and I mentally lose the ability to make healthier choices. <BR> <BR> Although I often lose at the mental game, I'm back on track with l... Wed, 7 May 2014 21:57:01 EST Day 303: Finally seeing some results, but fighting FOOD BRAIN! Hey everyone! The last time I wrote a blog was not so happy, but this one will be much more positive. I've been weight training for the past few weeks and I definitely feel like my body has been changing. My clothes look different on me, I feel stronger when doing things, and I've learned that I really like weights! What's motivating me is the Warrior Dash coming up in June - my goal is to attempt every obstacle and there are I think 15 during the 5k. The harder part for me has become cardio... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 13:05:42 EST Day 274: Sickness and Making Goals This week was my last week before spring break, and I'm happy to say I made it through and am looking forward to having the entire week off next week to focus! However, the first hurdle I have to overcome is this sickness I currently have that has kept me from the gym since Thursday. Kind of hard to go for a run when your nose is plugged up... I've been mainly battling the binge monster and trying to be honest when tracking calories and amounts of food I've eaten. I think I want to invest in ... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 13:09:04 EST Day 268: Realizations Over this weekend, I've realized something important: this journey is truly up to me and only I alone can change my life and my body. I think I knew this all along, I just needed to step back (and get back on Spark) to realize it. <BR> <BR> During the entirety of 2014, I've been up and down with weight, emotions, working out, and making good choices. Thanks to several of my Spark Friends whose blogs I read this morning, I also realized that I need to focus on me and not so much on what's goi... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 11:45:29 EST Day 264: Tired of the cycle Working two jobs is rough. <BR> <BR> I give so many props to people who are diligent in the gym because right now that is not me. I've found every excuse in the book to avoid staying on track like I had planned, and I'm frustrated with myself but I also don't know how to stop the cycle. I feel like I shouldn't be struggling so much this early on. I've been fluctuating around the same 4 pounds since December, and it's now halfway through March. During last fall, I had so much confidence in my... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 21:52:47 EST Day 247: Adjustments So I haven't been a great tracker or blogger, but I vow to change that this month. There has been a lot of adjusting, as I just started my first full-time job and am also working my part-time job. Once I get work + gym routine down, I hope to actually start seeing consistent results again. <BR> <BR> I've decided to start weighing in less and monitoring more. Hopefully that will be helpful to do. I also have a new planner where I want to gather fitness inspiration stuff, weight loss ideas, an... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 15:45:19 EST Day 218: Hello, February! So January didn't pan out too well for me... but I basically maintained since December, so that's good in a way. I've been floating and flirting with 230, Today on Feb 1, I'm at 230.8 and I'm going to get back on track (for real this time) starting with today. <em>362</em> That means back to tracking and making healthier choices (back to avoiding the soda instead of justifying it, and no more having cookies and ice cream just because they're there). <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> I think the... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 11:15:24 EST Day 206: Struggling I've returned to the U.S. (and have been back for almost a week) but I'm having trouble getting back in the swing of things. I was sick one day last week and it sort of carried over for another day or so. Only made it to the gym once and now it's Monday and a new week. I need to get back into routine but it's been difficult. <BR> <BR> I've definitely missed my Spark Friends but I need some support with getting back on track with tracking and exercise. I hope that starting a C210K program wil... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 10:39:32 EST 2014 Bucket List (and last blog before ROME!) Okay, so it's been 2ish weeks since I've last blogged and this is the last time I will be able to until after I get back from my 10-day pilgrimage to Rome, Italy. I'm leaving tomorrow and will return January 13th. I'm excited but travelling always seems to make me anxious. Hopefully all this snow stops... <BR> <BR> I've seen a few people making goal lists and I've read that when making resolutions, you are 80-something percent more likely to follow through if you tell others about them... so... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 15:13:34 EST Day 175: Why I LOVE SparkPeople You know, I've definitely had many doubt-filled days, both before and after joining SparkPeople in June of this year. However, those days seem to be fewer since joining and I'm pretty sure I know why... <BR> <BR> Today has been a very off day for me. I haven't seen a loss in over 3 weeks and I've been to the gym the past 4 out of 6 days. Feeling discouraged, I posted about it, and a friend's (STEPH-KNEE) kind words of encouragement made me feel A MILLION times better than I had before, and I... Fri, 20 Dec 2013 21:56:09 EST Day 172: New Gym and Great Picture!! Let me just start off by talking about this weekend and revealing my most recent picture with my boyfriend, Ricky... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is approximately 26-27 pounds down at a Christmas party this past Saturday. I felt amazing (thanks to a gift from Jan-Marie, or BOBCATGIRL76, the gray shirt I'm wearing). I got a few compliments on my appearance and was told I looked good. What ultimately surprised me was getting ask... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 10:46:06 EST Day 168: Finishing College and Starting Over Don't know if you guys can tell or not, but... <BR> <BR> I'M FINISHED WITH COLLEGE AND I'M EXCITED!!!!! <BR> <BR> Okay, now that we've got that out of our system... haha. I officially moved out of my apartment and back home today. As of right now, this is thrilling because it's the holidays and I get to spend time with family and boyfriend (and go get that gym membership...) so much to do! <BR> <BR> Last week, I worked out Sunday and Monday. That was it. And I lost 2 pounds just because I ... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 18:08:21 EST Day 163: Updates (WITH PICTURE) Ahhhhh, things are finally winding down around here. What's left of my finals are this upcoming Wednesday and then *drumroll please* I'M OFFICIALLY DONE WITH UNDERGRAD!!! Super excited about that! <BR> <BR> Lately, fitness has taken a backseat due both to a busy final week of classes last week plus the dreaded TOM... But surprisingly, it has been easy to make healthy choices while dining out. I have turned down alcoholic beverages 3/3 times I've been out and chosen food that was both healthy... Sun, 8 Dec 2013 18:04:10 EST Day 150: Pressure Two more days in the week, followed by Thanksgiving, followed by one final week of undergrad and then my last week of undergrad finals. <BR> <BR> I still haven't gotten under 230, and it's been 2 months. On average, I've lost about 5 pounds per month but I still feel like I could be making more progress. Every time I slip up, I tell myself it's not a big deal and not to be discouraged. But I saw 229.something TWICE last week and today on weigh-in today, 230.6 - so frustrating. <BR> <BR> I'm... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 20:41:09 EST Day 139: Getting Involved A quick blog for this Thursday seems to be in order! <BR> <BR> I spent over an hour at the gym yesterday evening. At first, I was feeling timid like I usually do. Then, I got into my routine and blocked out the other person who was working out there. I think that I often find myself intimidated by other people because they always seem to know what they're doing, and then there's little ole me, huffing and puffing on the treadmill. Well, with creating my own speed intervals, I ended up exceed... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 09:54:29 EST Day 137: Discouraged Be prepared for a semi-rant, friends. <BR> <BR> I'm frustrated with both the sudden cold weather in the Chicago suburbs and living with roommates and having the semester being so close to ending. I feel like I'm slipping on my November goals and I hate that. I've worked out almost every Monday of the semester and yesterday it was windy, snow/rain, and super cold, so I decided to skip my workout and just relax in the warm apartment. I regret that today, seeing as I gained the weight I had los... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 10:09:10 EST Day 129: November is off to a good start! PICTURES This weekend was filled with positive vibes for me, and I had a blast! <BR> <BR> Friday I went to our gym. Saturday I did Jillian Michaels' yoga DVD and HOLY CRAP, was I sweating. And I thought the 30DS was bad... hehe. My arms and upper body have been sore since yesterday so I know that worked and I'll have to try and work it into my weekly routine now that it's getting colder out! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I volunteered at the... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 09:29:57 EST Day 126: Slacking on Blogging but not on Fitness! Hello friends! <BR> <BR> It's been awhile, hasn't it? <BR> <BR> Well, to be fair, the last time I blogged was the last time I actually lost any weight. What a horrible 3-week stagnation period. However, it taught me a lot about myself and I'm beginning this month already on the right foot. Today the scale had me at 234.8 - officially over 20lbs lost. So I've lost approximately 20 pounds in the 4 months I've been on Spark. I wonder what that would look like without the three lull periods I ... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 22:49:44 EST Day 109: FANTASTIC NEWS! I'VE OFFICIALLY LOST 20 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> What a fabulous way to come off of a three-day weekend where I thought for sure I would have a gain! I mean, looking back.. I walked/ran some looong, beautiful country miles and ate pretty well-balanced meals. Yes, most of them had a dessert (especially dinner) but I didn't overindulge and I didn't feel sick at all after any meal. <BR> <BR> Today we got free burgers from Meatheads for being college students, so I allowed myself to i... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 21:08:34 EST Holy crap, I missed Day 100!! Day 105 and I need some input So it's day 105 for me... Oops. I missed the big 100 and I'm kind of bummed that I was so busy this past week. With a little downtime now, I've decided to catch everyone up! <BR> <BR> I'm down a total of 17 pounds. I had a splurge-filled drama-filled weekend last weekend which consisted of visiting a friend at her larger university and having car problems which kept me at the dealership for awhile last Saturday. I definitely ate good (which means I ate what I wanted) but ended up weighing in... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 21:45:46 EST Day 93: Out of the 240's?! So I definitely have had some down days and blogs of sadness and frustration... But I was (and still am) determined to stick with this and reach my goals. I have been going through patterns of eating within my calorie goal and then splurging, which must work because the scale read 139.2 this morning, which puts me at approximately a 16lb weight loss overall and 3lbs in a week. Now I know there must be something amiss - it can't be possible - but I got so excited about shaving off another numb... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 20:40:07 EST Day 90: What have I been doing?? I realized that today marks 90 days on SparkPeople... 90! That's 3 months of what should be progress which has resulted in TWO 2-week periods of backtracking, not tracking, and not losing weight. Why does this process have to be so frustrating... I've barely lost in that time. I know I should be happy for continuing to get right back on the wagon after falling off, but I wanted to be so much further than I am right now, and it does suck and I am super frustrated and down about it. I get so ex... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 20:02:58 EST Day 87: Successful weekend I RAN MY THIRD 5K THIS WEEKEND!!! <BR> <BR> Well, technically second, since the Color Run was a mix of walk/run, but I am so excited about finishing. My roommate and I ran together Saturday morning at my boyfriend's school in Chicago. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I got on the scale this morning, I had actually lost weight again. Not much, but 2 wedding weekends in a row made for quite an eating mess. It makes me appreciate the... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 23:00:21 EST Day 84: I suck at keeping up To everyone who has commented on my most recent (hah) blogs or wall... I'M SO SORRY I HAVEN'T RESPONDED!!! <BR> <BR> School has been stressful.. but just in the sense that I'm trying to do as much as I can in this last semester. Anyways, here's an update. <BR> <BR> I haven't weighed in in approximately 2 weeks. I was so discouraged to see on my weigh-in date that I had gained 3 pounds, and with weddings the past two weekends, I didn't have the heart to try again. Hopefully things have bee... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 19:09:46 EST Day 76: Frustrating Week So obviously I haven't posted in awhile... And although I want to be able to respond to everyone individually and thank them for commenting on my blog/my wall/wishing me a happy birthday, I'm still fighting exhaustion and getting caught up on homework so I have less to do over this weekend when I go home. <BR> <BR> Last week was my birthday and wedding weekend #1. Obviously fun, right? Well I definitely had far too many "cheat" days in a row and gained weight :( so that wasn't great. Plus I ... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 21:15:28 EST Day 65: Woes and Words of Wisdom So this was my first weekend at school after classes started. I'm glad to both be done with the first week and to also have tomorrow off so I can try to get ahead on work. This weekend was definitely an interesting one... <BR> <BR> My friends and I went out to a new bar that opened in June. Since we're all 21 now, it was our first taste of the night life. I was feeling pretty good, considering I spent time on my appearance. I also tried on a pair of my jeans that previously fit me comfortabl... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 23:34:47 EST Day 61: Getting in the School Groove Hey Friends! <BR> <BR> Sorry I've been so busy. In case anyone else (aside from Angie - thanks for the post!) was wondering, I started school this week. It's been crazy.. I'm avoiding homework as we speak. But surprisingly I made good food choices and last week I lost 3 pounds! What a great feeling, especially since I didn't do a great job tracking. I may have the mentality needed down now though. Plus if I don't buy unhealthy food, I don't have it in the apartment. Fruits and veggies for th... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 22:05:22 EST Day 54: New place, new challenges Hello, friends! <BR> <BR> I'll make this short so I can go get my butt out on my run... But I'm officially in my new apartment and unpacked. I start classes the 26th, so I've got some time to get into a new workout mode. It scares me to be transitioning (which is probably why I gave in to an entire Panera bagel and some cookies yesterday). I feel like I'm going to sink back into my old habits from last year of buying crap because it's cheap. As of right now, my fridge is piled with fruits, v... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 09:39:12 EST Day 50! Check out my positive attitude! Guys... I finally started level 2 of the 30 Day Shred yesterday... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In case you can't tell from the picture, it was rough! But I know I need to stick with it because I could feel my muscles aching halfway through, which means it was working stuff I hadn't before. But golly, did it get me out of breath and panting worse than a dog in a heat wave!! <BR> <BR> I've been doing significantly better with food c... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 11:42:51 EST Day 46: Eye of the Tiger So on Sunday afternoon, I went to the White Sox game. I did my morning routine of breakfast followed by a C25K workout. I wasn't sure about food at the park and timing, so I had an apple and a Special K bar before we left, followed by a bottle of water. I also took a bottle with me. It was so shocking that I was SO HUNGRY about an hour later, and it was barely noon!! So we got to the park and settled in. I contained myself and waited until the game started... which is when the vendors and the... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 11:06:50 EST Day 44: Progression I have been diligent on the Spark site but realized that I haven't blogged in four days. Wow. Here's the basic life updates: <BR> <BR> I've worked out doing Jillian for the past two days. At this point, I know exactly what phrase is going to come out of her mouth, so I thought it was finally time to level up (cue Super Mario music). Yesterday was my final day of level 1 and although I definitely noticed a change in my endurance, I still sweat the same amount (if not more) than I did when I f... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 09:29:22 EST Day 40: I threw it away?! I can't believe what happened today... <BR> <BR> So I took my lunch break early because my stomach was on the war path with all of its grumbling. I brought leftover Aurelio's pizza for lunch that I have been waiting all week to eat. As I was heating it up, I could feel my mouth begin to water. I ate the first piece no problem, and polished off the second one shortly after. But then something crazy happened... the pizza started to become unappetizing. It's not like it was bad or old or whatev... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 13:11:45 EST Day 38: Little Improvement So I weighed in yesterday and I lost .04 of a pound... that was really discouraging to me since I worked out every day last week aside from last Monday (the day I re-started really focusing on what I was eating). I know that I didn't make the best decisions this weekend because there were barbeques and parties, so I guess it's my own fault, but I just expected more than I saw on the scale. <BR> <BR> I know that I cannot allow myself to give up again. The only way to change my life is to dive... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 10:07:43 EST Day 35: Sparked by skeptics On Wednesday, I experienced my first real battle with a skeptic. One of my coworkers and I previously would hit up the DQ in between our jobs and order small blizzards. I was really not feeling an ice cream run considering I'd been doing so well these past couple of days, and decided to tell her about my program. Expecting support, I was surprised to find her reaction full of skepticism and judgment. She said that I would look anorexic if I lost 100 pounds, and that I'm fine the way I am. Rig... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 10:03:30 EST Good Vibes For those of you inquiring about last night, it was moderately successful. When we got to Olive Garden, I was dead-set on my plan. The waitress offered us wine samples which I denied as well as a 5 for $25 because it had none of the entrees I had planned for. So I ordered what I wanted and decided on eating two breadsticks (damn their deliciousness) with salad. I did ask for my box as soon as the ravioli came out and I packed half of them away, and drank water. I was a bit higher on calories ... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 16:57:32 EST Day 32: to breadstick or not to breadstick Since my boyfriend leaves to go back to college this Thursday, we have planned to go to Olive Garden tonight for dinner. Normally, I would wait until we sat down, look at the menu, and choose what I wanted. We ALWAYS get an appetizer when we go, so I would assume we'd have fried mozzarella or something of that nature. Today, I decided to look up the menu and all those big Italian calories that go with it and calculate the calories out for what I wanted to eat. It's taken me about a half hour ... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 11:45:22 EST Breakthrough!! So last night with my grandfather in the hospital, I began thinking... if this isn't going to be a turning point in my life, what is? He's battled diabetes for a number of years and now this colon issue, whatever that may be. He's one of my biggest role models, and I need to make him proud for the rest of the precious time I have left with him. <BR> <BR> Today I started out with my usual Special K yogurt cereal with fat free skim milk and a banana. Nothing out of the ordinary. Then I go to p... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 13:55:08 EST Day 30 and no change I feel like all of my posts are pessimistic... but a lot is going on right now. My grandpa is in the hospital because something is going on with his colon and he needs to have surgery. I hate not knowing what's going on but I plan on getting over to the hospital later today. <BR> <BR> I haven't worked out. This should come as no surprise. I keep making excuses for everything and it frustrates me but I'm really struggling with staying consistent and getting motivated to just shut up and jump ... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 11:29:16 EST I Got Jillian! My DVDs came in the mail today and I was super excited about it! Unfortunately I am unsure of when I can start them... <BR> <BR> But I am looking forward to weighing and measuring and possibly picture documenting so I can do a before and after comparison. I have been having trouble staying motivated to work out so maybe this will be the change I need. Wed, 24 Jul 2013 16:40:10 EST Day 22... Does this still count? So I admit, I have been one LAZY tracker aka haven't been tracking at all. But I was on vacation!! (hah, excuses) <BR> <BR> On the bright side, I did do a good deed by ordering 3 Jillian Michaels DVDs today. I should get them by the end of this week so I'm real excited about that. I'm finally going to stick to a routine and get myself going for the last 5-6 weeks of summer. I also plan on getting back on the trackin' wagon. <BR> <BR> Wish me luck! Sat, 20 Jul 2013 22:41:54 EST Day 16: Vacation I'm leaving for Tennessee today... and I'm in no way ready! This past week I was working my on-campus job with students with disabilities, so I did walk since we went to Chicago two days, but I did not keep up with SparkPeople... oops. I will be better about it now though. <BR> <BR> I got a giftcard from one of the professors as a thank you for helping out so much. I think I'm going to use it to buy some Jillian Michaels DVDs (I was inspired again by Jan-Marie to try something new) so I'll p... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 10:42:24 EST Falling off the wagon? A week from yesterday I joined SparkPeople in the hopes that I would be more motivated to work out AND eat better at the same time. So far, not so good... and maybe it's partially because I started on a weekend which happened to be right before the 4th of July which was followed by another weekend, but then I'm just making excuses for myself, aren't I? I knew this would be a difficult journey, but I didn't think I was going to struggle so much in the beginning. When my routine is the same eve... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 13:24:08 EST Five = Frustration So yesterday I tried really hard to be good... but having pizza for lunch, working late, and coming home means feeling super hungry and becoming a human garbage disposal. Ugh. I need help figuring out how to balance my meals so I don't overdo it with dinner every time... <BR> <BR> On the bright side, I have free time today until about 4 when I have to go to work for my evening programs so I plan on doing a solid workout... just need to get motivated to go do it. <BR> <BR> I'm not feeling ve... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 11:30:14 EST